The gut wrenching loneliness never goes away. I want to cry every day because of how bad I crave friendships. This pain has been a constant feeling for over a decade now. I want to delete like everything and disappear. No one would even notice. Im just the same sad pathetic emo girl that I was in high school.
I've got nowhere to vent so back to venting on here...
I stayed at my stupid job, and im already regretting it. I was scared to go to At Home with them filing bankruptcy, and I would have been making less than I am now, plus still driving far and paying out the ass for gas in my jeep. But also, i would have had to pay for a new insurance deductible, and that would have been $1500. The whole thing freaked me out.
Burlington was supposed to figure out getting me more money to help with the $300 its costing me just to get to work a month, but surprise surprise no one is getting back to me. My manager is a flat-out idiot. I feel like no one listens to what I have to say and I always get fucked. I have a funeral tomorrow and I requested the day off over a month ago and she had me scheduled. I brought it up again on Monday and fucking surprise she didnt fix it! Now she's mad because she has to close the store for the 4th time in 2 weeks...boohoo! I've closed 5 times in 2 weeks, and im not complaining!
Im getting so depressed and have no will to do anything, and Dylan just doesn't know how to help, and it kinda hurts. I wish he would try a little harder. I love him to death, but he just doesn't put any extra effort into us anymore. I really wish he would propose he said by my birthday, and well, that's next month, and there's no way it's gonna happen...
I would like to say something under this posted my own posted since almost year ago. I know Tumblr is a place where users most likely sharing photos with each other. Despite the fact you are being a photographer or not. As a photographer, I do sharing my posts, my photos with people on here. I'm gladful to get support by likes and reblogs from people around the world since years ago. It means a lot to me because Tumblr is my hobby, a place I do enjoy my free time. And would be nice to me if anyone on Tumblr also respect for not repost my posts, my photos.
The reason I do writing long note under this posted because I have found a blog with so many likes/reblogs for 10k+ per each post, That had reposted from this posted of mine. I hope so the one who did something like this shouldn't do it again and don't do repost from every photographers on Tumblr too. Your reposted might get more likes than original photographer. But that's not an issue to me, I never aiming for thousand likes or finding benefits on this website. Another issue is Tumblr itself also promote on many users feed that why I get to see my photography have been reposted.
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