PARANOID. Since March started, wished everything goes back to normal like it was. Wished everything is exactly the way it is I thought about. However god plans different for everyone. Not everyone is lucky. Some get the pure gems & some get the fake ones. Some also get the dirty gems for them to polish and make it shine. Maybe mine was the last statement. I just have to keep polishing it to make it shine. Worrying about the dirt doesn’t change anything. Only polishing does.
Ya allah, pls polish our hearts and clean off the dirts from ourselves.
I can’t survive a single second seeing his face with guilt.
Make us surrender & make us repent to you.
Make us feel very weak on our knees and call upon you.
Make us feel terrible everytime we commit or even think of commiting a sin.
Make us be closer to you in every daily task we do.
I seek your help.
I seek your forgivenss.
I seek your guidance.
I seek you.
