Retroactive Voices

New to Tumblr, New Poet, Living for 25 years and counting.

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@zigg-zaggi

Swing Dance Lessons !!!

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My dog like ways has scared the ally cat away. Her purr her fur her warmth. we were always alone when we were together we left our hearts at home when we were together we would howl in the ally making such music the our fans would throw flowers in the form of bottles and cans. I would feed her sexual needs while satisfying my own craving for attention. Two slave escaping the thought of slavery. found freedom through each others body's. I made a temporary place for her in my home. I messed up I should have known better. This young geezer committed treason against the very thing he found peace in. Scared the alley cat to never come back by forcing his needs down her throat so much so she threw up feelings... I always knew this would be temporary... I always knew I would grow attached you see I love that pussy and you aren't your ordinary alley cat! . . . #poetrycommunity #alleycat #fuckboy #fuckboi #sex #poem #poetryincaption #poetsofig #askingforafriend #wordporn #poet #poetry #spokenword #sexslave #slavery #freedom

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[agileo-101]

Hirohiko Araki’s….  

Jojo’s Delivery service

Caesar’s Moving Castle

Standed away

Steel Ball Run in the Sky

Castle of Vento Aureo

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I wrote this.

I don't want you to understand me. I want to be felt. I cant make sense of my life so that it can be easily read and interpreted. For there are no easy parts and I don't even know whats happening half the time. But I know I'm not the only person going through life. and Though we may describe things differently the picture is always the same. There is no hidden underlying secret meaning. Just my feelings and emotions. And if you read my work and feel nothing then I am envy you...because I cant help but feel sadness, the longing for love, heart ache and the struggles of depression and loneliness. I cant paint the picture for you but I can leave a description. I am simply an author to my life's Illustration.

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blink

drifting away never really here remnants of the past fading into the darkness I am the thought in the back of your mind I am there with you in the pitch black room staring you in your face. Inhale your carbon dioxide exhaust. until it suffocates me. sleep!

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Prologue

Leave me in your mind like happy thoughts remember all our good times and I'll help you fly Take you to a place where today is everyday. and love is everywhere. stimulate your current state with pleasant smiles. Stories of how I won't let anything come between us. As long as you trust me and never do me wrong... as long as you never cheat or deceive this could be our fairytale ending... but fairy tales don't exist This Casper never met his Wendy This Peter stayed lost.. and these type of poems continue to be written and sad song continue to be sung. because these feelings still exist and I embody everyone of them. I am not the narrator, I'm the author !

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I been on a roll, I would sell my soul for peace nights filled with sleep. when I sleep alone. I'm always on my own. And those are the times when my mind wanders the most.

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Subscription

Today Two days Too many days I guess I won't be hearing from you again I get mad at you then mad at myself for waiting. You don't have to come up with excuses i already did that for you. busy right? you know life? work? stress and personal issues? you meant to reply but never hit send... I mark it up as a loss your loss and I start over A week Four weeks For weeks "hey, how's it going" You speak as though you just got back from a trip yet I was convinced my existence was none existent in the world that you exist in. Then those four words gave me life and here I was ready to forget how mad I was at you. Break my vow of silence I made against you. ......and so I did Thats why I feel stupid. Two days Too many days to count... but I've been counting. "Try it for free for 30 days no emotions attached"...so you did then you cancelled your subscription. "Don't go come back Here's 1 week free on us" And you came back. I mean who doesn't like free stuff. I've changed the policy now. "Free to play"

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Nyquil

Mold me like clay, run your fingers through my hair planting seeds within my garden so that fruitful thoughts may grow. I allow myself to be eaten letting your words consume me. Use me... use me as a tool for your own bodily satisfaction. All I ask is that remember my name and cuddle me afterwards so that I can sleep at night. so that I may forget about the construction site plagued by thunderstorms which is my life. Oh how difficult its been... and I don't know if this umbrella you provided is safe for me or just increases the risk. I don't know how many times I been through this with other people. Promises of sunny days and clear skies. Just for it to end with my parade being rained on. ...just lie to me...use me...at this point it doesn't matter anymore. All I ask is that you remember my name and cuddle me afterwards so that I may sleep at night.

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Reverie

It wasn’t you that i wanted nor was I in pursuit of you I was merely in search of love and this was where I found it. In that sense I’m selfish and foolish as love manifests itself in many forms. my ex my best friend my roommate my eyes were a broken compass always misguided, unreliable. and once i realized that there was no love here I leave. sorry wrong person…thought you were someone else. love eludes me yet again though to you I might have been the right person. sometimes its best not to say goodbye ….said no one ever.

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I allow myself to be eaten....i let your words consume me!

me

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My heart left sometime time ago…I guess that makes me heartless all I have is my physical body and mind and my body craves contact, my mind prefers conversation and currently thats all i can offer in return so these feelings I’m having are purely physical my intentions are anything but pure you see I’m a selfish human being and though my advertisement scheme may peak your interest the product itself is only temporary. there is no warning label I disguise my true nature with dressed up poems of past acquaintances I am merely a well dressed murder with an increasing body count. waiting… waiting… to be caught… and be put behind bars so that I may not harm another human being

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I mean its cool or w/e

I dont know what I’m doing anymore well i know what I’m doing but the end result is unclear to me I’m at the point where i have started to ramble and this conversation is being guided by my vivid imagination  and as much as i want to continue about waiting for the day i get chosen to save the digital world I really just want to know... do you like me? because I like you and well I fall easily as if me and gravity were inseparably... which logically thinking as long as earth’s gravitational pull.... those details are unimportant. do you like me? I never just come out and say because that would be too easy but its not easy...for me at least the easiest thing for me is just continuing to wonder whether or not you do or dont.

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*sigh* and *inhale*

You don’t know me you just know the person I show I’m hiding my emotions cant let my feelings be shown I’m become way to vulnerable like some people I know I don’t really know them but I read about them I don’t really read but there’s a show about them they are actually fictional characters but I care about them because I see myself in them and it really hard to doubt it. That my life relates to a show you’ve probably never seen just like you’ve never seen the real me.

I can go on and on  off and on not so much up and down though I do coast  the ride isn't bumpy  its more like reaching the climax of the coaster but the descent is in slow motion you scream until you run out of breath but its not over yet so you take a deep breath and you keep screaming. did I mention you are in the front by yourself You aren’t sure how you got there those details are fuzzy but do they even matter at this point? because you are trapped in the current moment when you told her you love her and she hasn't replied yet.

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Ughhhhh

How does this work again?

how many messages is too many messages

have i liked enough of your photos yet or did i go overboard?

maybe i shouldn't have called after you didn't text me back

you’re probably busy you know life and what not.

do I tell you how i feel?

or do i keep it to myself until the time is right but what if the time is right for me and not for you?

are you following? 

what if  we are reading the same book and same page 

but different illustrations

leaving the interpretation to your own minds

thoughts of you seem to occupy my mind 

and i stare into your eyes with hopes that words aren’t necessary

yet that doesn't seem to be the case

 so me not knowing how to proceed i ask

“are you ok?”

I mean why wouldn't you be ok nothing has happened we are just sitting here.

you laugh and reply “ yeah I’m fine”

I’m not sure if you saw through my question and are turning me down or if you were just simply answering it.

I’m not sure how this works again...so i just say

“cool, just checking” 

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I avoid your calls like I’m back in middle school playing dodge ball. Each red notification a ball that’s flown past me. I think I do this because I know when one actually hits me it’ll hurt like hell.

C. McCoy, “Dodge Ball” (via cassidymccoypoetry)