Cassidy McCoy Poetry

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I remember being seven years old sitting on the kitchen counter legs dangling into the abyss watching you light up on the porch. I remember thinking back then that smoking was your worst habit. I was wrong.

C. McCoy, “Worse” (via cassidymccoypoetry)

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I avoid your calls like I’m back in middle school playing dodge ball. Each red notification a ball that’s flown past me. I think I do this because I know when one actually hits me it’ll hurt like hell.

C. McCoy, “Dodge Ball” (via cassidymccoypoetry)

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I can’t find the words to describe you. You’d think it’d be easy only 26 letters but countless words. I got lost somewhere between a dictionary and a thesaurus. Funny little things, words they always make sense yet they’re never quite clear. So now I’m stuck here coming up with words to explain my lack of words. I love you would do if it wasn’t so overused. So maybe if I just stay quiet you’ll feel what I feel too.

C. McCoy, “Words” (via cassidymccoypoetry)

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(I) never believed in love at first sight. But when I met you, I couldn’t find a single thing to (hate). You made me want (what) she already had. (You) were so gentle with me like I would shatter at any moment. And I almost (did). But you never really wanted (to) love me. You just wanted (me) when it was convenient.

C. McCoy, “Ruined” (via cassidymccoypoetry)

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I was so excited when you touched me. If I had known then what I know now I would’ve been terrified.

C. McCoy, “Hindsight” (via cassidymccoypoetry)

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What I said to you is one of my biggest regrets. I don’t know if you remember it. I really hope you don’t. But if you do please know that I am sorry. (Please, please don’t remember.)

C. McCoy, “Amnesia” (via cassidymccoypoetry)

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For what it’s worth I would have said yes if only you had asked But you didn’t so I never got the chance For what it’s worth Smirnoff green apple still tastes like you So much so that I had to stop drinking it For what it’s worth I still think of you from time to time But you don’t think of me so I’ll try to stop

C. McCoy, “For What it’s Worth” (via cassidymccoypoetry)

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There are so many people I’ve stayed alive for. I wonder when I will stay alive for myself.

C. McCoy, “Soon, I Hope” (via cassidymccoypoetry)

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I don’t know all of me yet Maybe I will meet myself and be filled with fear Maybe I will meet myself and be filled with relief I don’t know if I want to know all of me yet

C. McCoy, “What’s Within” (via cassidymccoypoetry)

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Three years. I told you people usually last three years in my life before they get sick of me and leave. You told me you’d be different. I guess you were right. You lasted two.

C. McCoy, “You Showed Me” (via cassidymccoypoetry)

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You thought what you did only hurt yourself. You were wrong. What you did changed everything about me. I wonder how amazing I could have been if you never existed.

C. McCoy, “Selfish” (via cassidymccoypoetry)

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If you tell me you love me I’ll tell you “don’t.”

C. McCoy, “For Your Own Good” (via cassidymccoypoetry)

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You were so concerned with the ways you damaged me that you didn’t even notice all the damage I had done to myself.

C. McCoy, “It’s Not Your Fault, It’s Mine” (via cassidymccoypoetry)

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I apologize for all the damage I’ve caused in my life. I suppose I should also apologize for all the damage I’m sure I’ll cause in my death.

C. McCoy, “Now and Then” (via cassidymccoypoetry)

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Do not come to expect anything from me. If there’s one thing I’ve mastered it’s inconsistency.

C. McCoy, “Unstable, Contrary, Erratic” (via cassidymccoypoetry)

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I told myself I would never cry over someone like you. But now it seems like that’s the only thing I do.

C. McCoy, “Hypocrite” (via cassidymccoypoetry)

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I’ve begun slipping back into old habits and you know what? It feels much more comfortable here.

C. McCoy, “Safety Blanket” (via cassidymccoypoetry)

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