mars

22, they/he, CW: 137.8, active may

[frostbonesbite]

Intro post & stats🦇

Hey, I'm Mars :) here's a quick 'about me'

they/he, transmasc

22 and been using edblr on/off since i was 16 (termed twice and still coming back so pls just block don't report!!!)

Currently relapsing.

dx: autistic, adhd + mental illnesses

artist

pro recovery, this is just a vent space

MINORS DNI (I won't follow back if no age in bio)

Stats:

HW: 182

LW: 117

CW (14/11): 133.6

GW1: 150 - normal bmi range threshold for me

GW2: 130

GW3: 110

UGW: 100 *

height 5'5

*TBC - for me overall physique is more important than a specifc number (I want to be lean not skinny fat)

[maleanablog]

there isn't nearly enough malespo or androgynous thinspo on here so I'm gonna try and change that

none of these pics are mine, DM for removal

credit to their owner ofc

×don't report, just block pls×

[frostbonesbite]

I've spent a decade feeling dysphoric about my fat thighs that's actually crazy...

I think with my genetics just losing weight is not enough (although I do have a lot more fat to lose)

I finally took the plunge to start testosterone the other week, which should help long term, but I think I need to stop being scared and commit to working out quads so that I actually have the muscle to get that lean look

Also I'll look into fat loss injections once I see how far the other methods get me

[frostbonesbite]

Wow I'm getting close to 2nd goal weight 👀 I was actually so busy with uni I didn't realise lol

[skinee-faerie]

I think about this like everyday

[frostbonesbite]

Slowly but surely it's working

My cis guy friend who i hadn't seen since June commented on my weight loss

Some of my old trousers and tighter shirts fit now and I use the smallest hole on my belt

My face looks better in photos and when I smile

People are slightly warmer and more inclusive to me?? That may be an energy thing too

[frostbonesbite]

Holy shit

I will not be satisfied until I have this physique

(As close as my bone structure will let me 🥲)

[minasoskinny]

Idk how to explain it, but the less I eat the cleaner I feel

[ssofibecu]

[frostbonesbite]

A lot of the weight i gained went to my thighs/hips

And most of the weight I've lost so far has come off my abdomen and face (down 4+ inches at my waist)

In other words, my fat distribution and waist to hip ratio is objectively the worst it's ever been. It's easily my most clocky feature rn 🍐😮‍💨

Being a mens XS in tops and a M or larger in trousers fucking sucks. The waist is always too big while the hips and thighs are snug. But if I get the right waist size sometimes it doesn't fit at all or it'll be unflattering af

I know it's not forever and eventually as I lose more weight my fat distribution won't have such a big discrepancy.

But this in-between stage is truly miserable.

[xoxohungrygirl]

Actually being on campus made me realize I’m not as skinny as I thought and am actually terribly average

[frostbonesbite]

I think at this point I can safely say I've recovered from my binge eating disorder. I don’t identify with that version of myself anymore

It was a pretty dark time for me, I really lost myself for a while. It's scary being that out of control.

I still have a lot of damage to undo, but at least the inertia is in the right direction now. (I started to fit back into some of my clothes!)

I'll start a new habit tracker instead of tracking this anymore, I want to focus on positive things

[frostbonesbite]

I'm getting close to not being overweight bmi anymore 🙏

Lost 1kg in 2 days, life is good

[michelellelel]

[p1nk-noise]

Fuck an UGW I want to lose until my thighs don't jiggle.

[frostbonesbite]

Frothing at the mouth bc I'm nearly at 160 but the scale hasn't gone down since Tuesday :|

[decayingdogt33th]

when someones trying to talk to me but i need to remember if i ate 25 or 35 calories of strawberries