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He hates me now… He thinks I’m ruined.

It hurts him to see you hurting. We all lash out. Theres no harm in trying

I can't.. Thank you but I can't. He's happy now... That's all I ever wanted and I didn't make it happy. I... *wipes her eyes, shaking slightly* Should go back to my room.

#chat:sarah

fuck-alkjfgh

Do… Do you think he would see me? He’s.. Pretty mad at me.

werewanderingbutnotlost-blog

I can’t tell you for definite, its his choice but it can’t hurt to try I guess. Maybe its something you both need.

fuck-alkjfgh

He hates me now... He thinks I'm ruined.

#chat:sarah

fuck-alkjfgh

Can I please be alone… *she whispered* And will you… Tell… T-Tell him I love h-him and I’m sorry… For what I said about his dad. Please…

werewanderingbutnotlost-blog

Yeah of course. *nods* Yeah I’ll tell him, I mean if you came to the apartment you could tell him yourself but I’ll give him the message.

fuck-alkjfgh

Do... Do you think he would see me? He's.. Pretty mad at me.

#chat:sarah

fuck-alkjfgh

*sobs and hugs herself* Just… I’m s-sorry I’m not trying to be r-rude. Please I just can’t… *looks up at her* It was so fast you know… He was supposed to love me forever. And you just… Swept in and took him.

werewanderingbutnotlost-blog

You aren’t being rude. really your not. *Bites her lip*...

fuck-alkjfgh

Can I please be alone... *she whispered* And will you... Tell... T-Tell him I love h-him and I'm sorry... For what I said about his dad. Please...

#chat:sarah

fuck-alkjfgh

I've decided not to be sad anymore...

So he doesn’t love me… fine.

rileybankks

Good luck. Easily done, mind over matter.

fuck-alkjfgh

That's what I'm telling myself...

#chat:something

fuck-alkjfgh

I've decided not to be sad anymore...

fuck-alkjfgh

Not unless you’re telling your toy that you’re going to marry them and have a family with them…

I’d rather just… forget.

zoe-stfu-deactivated20140227

I don’t have a toy, sweetie. I’m the new psycho bitch around here. I’ll make sure to choose wisely of the ones I claim. Someone that doesn’t expect much out of me.

Forgive and forget, or just forget?

fuck-alkjfgh

I see...

Just forget... Only forget and pretend it didn't happen. I'm done.

#chat:zoe

fuck-alkjfgh

I've decided not to be sad anymore...

eatonwestwood-blog

I left him because he loves someone else.

fuck-alkjfgh

*shakes her head* I would give anything to still serve my master… even watch him love someone else.

eatonwestwood-blog

Why would you want to do that… It’s terrible.

fuck-alkjfgh

Because watching him love someone else from where I am is worse... I can't live without him. But I can't die. So I'm just... Here.

#chat:eva

fuck-alkjfgh

He talks about me? To you… *looks up at her* Don’t tell me you’re sorry… you’re sleeping where I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life… just don’t. P-Please… Please j-just go.

werewanderingbutnotlost-blog

Well yeah, I mean only what he wants to but he’s mentioned you. *Closes her...

fuck-alkjfgh

*sobs and hugs herself* Just... I'm s-sorry I'm not trying to be r-rude. Please I just can't... *looks up at her* It was so fast you know... He was supposed to love me forever. And you just... Swept in and took him.

#chat:sarah

*writing*

I figured if I pushed him away it would stop hurting, that I would be able to move on. It hurts more every day. I try not to but I question out entire relationship... How was it so easy for him to let go? To find someone else to fill my spot so soon after unclaiming me... How does he look at her and not wish it was me? I wish everyone who talks to me was him... I miss him so much. I keep having dreams that he comes to get me in the middle of the night... They're so vivid that I never realise they weren't real until I roll over and he's not there. I just want him to hold me again... I would give anything. Be anything. If it meant another chance. I'm scared it will never go away. It's like he literally took my heart with him. Because my chest is in constant pain. I watch other people sometimes. To see if any of them look like they might be in this much pain. How can they all just walk around and be happy like this? Even the unhappy ones seem happy and I don't get it. I know it's my fault he left. My fault he doesn't love me back... But I can't stop myself from being mad that he just brushed me aside like that... He told me I was ruined. I'm fucked up in the head... I don't want to believe him. But I don't know how not to.

#ownedtstarter #?? i guess #thoughts

fuck-alkjfgh

I've decided not to be sad anymore...

zoe-stfu-deactivated20140227

Hm….then i’m a liar?

Loves for the weak, you could always change.

fuck-alkjfgh

Not unless you're telling your toy that you're going to marry them and have a family with them...

I'd rather just... forget.

#chat:zoe #ignore tet #text

fuck-alkjfgh

I've decided not to be sad anymore...

werewanderingbutnotlost-blog

He does care you know, at least thats how it seems when he talk about you. I really am sorry.

fuck-alkjfgh

He talks about me? To you... *looks up at her* Don't tell me you're sorry... you're sleeping where I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life... just don't. P-Please... Please j-just go.

#chat:sarah