First but not last..

Rebecca, my name. This is just my life and rages. =]

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This dream was interesting.

My sisters were here at the house with me when i found out.

They were so excited.

I was excited.

I also wasnt sure how to tell you.

But i felt excited to tell you.

Whatever the Lord wants.

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Fuck.

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This place is not perfect but its my type of imperfection.

I couldnt be happier three months in. I hope it continues and i continue to grow all my relationships that Ive created here.

Thank You Lord.

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Im very happy and appreciative of the man you became and for who Ive decided to spend the rest of my life with.

Neither of us are perfect people but we try our best for each other. Because we want the best for each other

Thats better than anyones definition of “perfect”

I dont want perfect.

I want effort and consistency; thats what I get from you.

Scrolling past all the bad posts from people makes me sad for them. Regardless if they are in my life or not, everyone deserves to be happy. To feel loved. Soo deeply loved. I hope that one day it finds you.

It is awesome.

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Its going to happen i know it.

I saw it.

Ill be ready, I promise.

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The thought of you potentially wanting go down that road does make me scared.

Scared for selfish reasons. I acknowledge that.

But i think once the time comes, I wont have this fear. I trust that its His plan. Thats what matters.

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This is fucking it.

Its go time. Back to being a work horse. But its going to be the best fucking thing, im so ready. I enjoyed bot using my brain but now i want to travel. I want to spoil my love again. I want to see the world with him.

Im gonna work fucking hard for that. Thats all i ever wanted. To see the world with someone i fucking love.

Its. Happening. Now.

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QUE MAS TIENESE!?

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I missed having that type of relationship.. but it found me again.

I didnt think that it could or even would. I wasnt looking for it AT ALL but it found me.

In the weirdest places of them all.. within your family lolol.

But im happy for it. Im grateful for it.

I still think about you and even you too.. Which is weird cause you came to me lmao.

I see memories and im like wow… i had many relationships. Lmao where are they now? Not here. 😂

I enjoy my small circle. I wish i could make it smaller hahahaah

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I cant wait to marry you.

Waking up to you for the rest of my life.

Cooking with you.

Loving our babies, with you.

I dont want this life if its not with you.

I love you forever my sweet man 💕💕

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Nervous about this rekindling.

Buuut based on the shared information. Maybe this is what you needed … the type of relationship i think would be good.

Well see.

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Little things like today make me miss you. But not in the way as if i miss having you in my life. Hahahah😅😅

But so i can share little stupid things

Maybe one day, we’ll find our way back to each other.

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Its nice working for a company that actually treats you like a fucking human.

Ill come back to this and see how it ages. Im hoping well not bad 😂

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One say ill muster? Lol up the courage to do it. But i cant right now. If something happens and it never happens i guess so be it. Even better to know it wasnt meant to be.

Fucking hilarious that you have instagram and of course i would find you this way too. Lmaooo idky i never thought of this but also thank GOD. ive never thought of that hahahaha.

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I dont want to do this again so i hope to God exteemely deeply this si nothing.

That shit is just haywire because thats how it works.

Thered be signs??

Lots of signs????

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Its close to the end of the month and i can strongly say its been scary but good.

I pray things stay well this year. I pray for my family and our new additions and for my inhereted family.

Thank you Lord for keeping everyone safe and sound. 💕

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A wild week for sure. I hope it's all up hill from here... I can't bare to see you like that again...

I'm glad you recognize im always here for you. Your my family 💕 you need me. I'm there.