Hey I hope you’re well, I’m going through some shit and would appreciate it if you just left me alone and stop having you or whoever threatening me all because I blocked you. I’m sorry but you don’t know me fully or my life. You’re not the only one going through things. I’m as well and to have you or someone anonymously threatening me is the last thing I need right now so please just quit it and leave me alone. Respectfully.
I honestly haven't checked my asks in a whole year because of messages like these & I'm so confused and hurt where it has all come from. I don't understand it. If you "knew" me at all the last thing I'd want is for someone to feel hurt and i'd never do anything to give that to someone and it was so hurtful to not know wats going on and be receiving all this when I hadn't done anything wrong. I received all these awful messages about suicide and you have no idea how that made me feel!!!!! I can't bare to even think there are ppl putting that feeling on someone when they clearly haven't gone thru that with someone in their life to want to throw that subject on someone else. Don't tell me I haven't been thru that when you have no idea! I've lost my uncle in a horrible way and had to take a family member to the hospital at 4am and felt their body all cold in my arms to understand what that fucking feels like and be traumatized by it and have to have that feeling be brought up again with all these messages. I don't understand how I can message someone and be doing all this if you say you have blocked me? And also continue to "anonymously" text me. This doesn't make sense. I don't have the time or energy or headspace for it. This is childish and I honestly have more important things in my life I have been thru that makes me the person I am and it IS NOT this. I don't choose who stays or who goes in my life, as heartbreaking as it is for someone to even want to that's on you to have blocked me. I'm nice ass person to everyone, I give ppl my whole heart and I don't have a bad bone in me to do anything horrible and I will never allow myself to be pushed into something awful. Don't wish me well if you have no care to speak to me in private but instead be apart of this childish messaging. Instead I have to post this for the whole world to see in order for it to stop when I thought it did when this is suppose to be my "safe place" and escape from things in my life like i assume it is for you. These messages hurt just as bad as the others and just like I don't wish you to go through what you are, I hadn't asked for it and would never. So please leave me alone and ignore what ever it is your recieving and don't let it take you away from what's more important in your life, please because yes we all have our problems and don't need this. I clearly wasn't important for you to "block me" so stop making me feel horrible for something I'd never do. I don't want to be apart of it when i was never that important and shouldn't be. It's like knives gutting in your chest when some random person is blaming you for horrible things you'd never do instead of talking about it personally because your not the one suffering for it, I am and it's an awful feeling.
I hope you choose to ignore it more than you've made the effort to come at me. Please focus on you and no dude... I wish you better in your life, I hope you find love, in someone, in the small things just as you do in skating💗 focus on things that make your life better and give you happiness you can find in the moments that bring you down because we both don't need this crap. Skate on thru life with the heart your mumma gave you and stay strong. I am truly sorry. That's how you wish someone well...
Bye.
