Admiration. @gayrae - Tumblr Blog

I miss my life.

I miss my home.

I miss my dog.

I miss my independence.

I miss my friends.

I miss feeling comfortable.

I miss feeling joy.

I miss feeling contentment.

You took my away from my life.

You told me to move out of my home and I with you.

You killed my dog.

You've stripped my of my independence.

You've estranged my from my friends.

You make me uncomfortable in your presence.

It's to dark to feel joy. To feel content. To feel at peace. Everything is different and difficult. I regret meeting you.

Youre abusive. Emotionally abusive. I feel tense and on edge when you enter the room I'm in.

I'm feeding my escapist heart and applying to jobs far enough away to move and not look back. I've begun donating and selling things I no longer need.

#I'm so tired of being sad

I'm gonna fkn off myself some day soon I stg

gayrae

Three years later, I've finally been able to open my heart up to someone.

And it's good. So overwhelmingly good.

gayrae

No it's not. It turns out they're abusive. They got me to move in with them. It felt good at that point though. No red flags. But now They've stripped me of my independence. They've killed my dog. I feel like I can't see my friends. Everything upsets them. I can't even shower alone.

I have a party planned for late July.

No one knows it's likely the last time I'll be seeing some of them.