🗣just an obese bitch is yapping

if u know me irl unfollow me🦍

[geceinthebuilding]

Just had an heart attack but its ok cause i overreact

[geceinthebuilding]

When your reasons to stay alive

Becomes to reasons to attempt

So u just want to isolate and hide yourself

[geceinthebuilding]

I Exist

I Exist

Look at me

Please look at me

Cause I exist

I exist

I exist

Please

Don’t abandon me

I do exist

Please stay

Look at me

I exist

I try to exist

I care deep

Don’t use me

Please

Don’t use me

Please

I just exist

I exist

I exist

I am not enough for anyone I know

But I exist

Please don’t leave me

Please

I exist

I still do

I still do

[geceinthebuilding]

yeah… i hate when people want my normal self when they can literally see i’m struggling. and when they ask “why are you acting like that” like what do they expect me to say? if i say i’m depressed, it’s not okay. i have to be calm. but do i look calm? do my wrists look calm? no. but i still have to be the calm one. the giver. because what am i if i’m not that?

[geceinthebuilding]

There is 2000 reasons why i love him 1 i dont love which is he cut contact out of nowhere

[geceinthebuilding]

Everybody lookin’ at me like I’m some kind of fool,

But they don’t know the nights I froze just to keep my cool.

I ain’t in a race with egos, I don’t need to prove,

But they judge my silence, think I got nothin’ to lose.

If you ever walked a mile where my pain begins,

You’d see the world I faced with no next of kin.

Had no hand to hold, no soft place to land,

Just a broken heart and my own two hands.

Try to be in my shoes for a day,

See how I survived, how I found my way.

They call me easy, call me slow, call me dumb

But I been fightin’ battles they don’t even run from.

Had a family? Nah, had a battlefield instead,

My dads fists my moms rope

Words cut deep, left scars in my head.

They see a quiet soul, think I’m weak or mild,

But I been fightin’ storms since I was a child.

So don’t confuse peace with not carin’ at all,

I just learned not to beg when they let me fall.

I ain’t a jerk, I’m just tired of pain,

Still standin’ tall while they play their games

[geceinthebuilding]

Its so weird if i die here is the only where they fan see my whole thoguhts

[geceinthebuilding]

I miss someone holding me in their arms with care again

[geceinthebuilding]

I have been thingking about my life

Is it better if i die

I wanna go to sleep

2005 the year i came to life

I have been.thinking about my life

Before falling a sleep which will last forever

I have been thinking about my 20 years

Is it.better if i die

Before falling a sleep forever

I need to clear the mistakes

What do u wanna be when u grow up

I have been thinking about my life

What do i wanna be when i grow up

I have been thinking about my life

Is it.better if i die

Before falling a sleep foreverly

I have been thinki g about my life

In the name of gece

I came to this life with purposes

I have been thinking about my life

What are my purposes

I have been thinking aboht my life

Does my exsistence really matter

Why do i live

Is it for finding an answer in this meaningless universe

God gave us an option

I have been thinking about my life

Before falling a sleep foreverly

You need to have a degre a hobby a group

Or you will be a loser

I have been thinki g about my life

Is it better if i die

Before falling a sleep forever

I have been searching for answers

I am thinki g about my life

[2catnip4me]

[geceinthebuilding]

Thats alright because i love the way you lie

I know we did things wo labels

I know i am a volcano you are a tornado

Told u this is my fault

I apoligized even tho i know its lies

You are just gonna stay in this denial

I love the way this breaks me

Just wanna be able to have you before december

Love this way hurts me

[geceinthebuilding]

So you’re still holding on to your old story,

even while I’m standing right here,

trying to write a new one with you.

I hope this time, it ends differently for us.

I know she left you with shadows,

and I can’t compete with a ghost.

You still keep her song in your heart,

you still speak her name in silence,

you still love her — I can see it in your eyes.

But I love you, too.

I love you enough to stay,

even when your smile isn’t mine yet.

There’s so much I want to learn about you:

the way you take your coffee,

the way your hands play with your hair before sleep,

the way your laughter spills when you’ve had too much to drink.

I wonder if one day,

your mother will look at me the way she looked at her.

I wonder if one day,

you’ll stop giving promises to the past,

and finally give one to me.

You’re in love with her — I know.

But I’m in love with you.

And that’s the story I keep writing,

even if you never read it

[geceinthebuilding]

I write to here since everything fell down

I grown up in this thoguhts

But these days i dont want to wrote here

Maybe i wanna open a new blog but its my all past here

I am griveing here

My feelings are heavy

I need somewhere to write

But dont feel safe here anymore

Really i dont

[geceinthebuilding]

Oh okay so everyone knows me better than i know myself

[geceinthebuilding]

I love how my friends predict stuff wo knowing anything at all its making me wanna laugh its likei am seeing my dad inside of them

Maybe i should really go distant

[geceinthebuilding]

I wanna vent here so badly but i dont think its possible

[geceinthebuilding]

WHERE IS MY HEAD AT

Probbaly lost so much brain cell to addciton but i wanted to lice