GEMᴜɪɴᴇʟʏPᴇᴇᴠɪsʜ

𝚒 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚋𝚞𝚒𝚕𝚍 𝚊 𝚌𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚕𝚎 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚋𝚛𝚒𝚌𝚔𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚎𝚠 𝚊𝚝 𝚖𝚎 | ᴠɪɴᴛᴀɢᴇ sᴏᴜʟ

[gemuinelypeevish]

𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖...

my heart is so full. thank you to all of these shops for helping me make my teenage dream come true.

when i was younger, i didn't have the means to buy myself even a single @taylorswift album, but i promised myself that i would work hard to be able to buy them, one at a time.

now, i don't just have a regular one, i have four signed taylor's version albums [couldn't score signed lover anymore because it's too rare and expensive 😭]! i didn't buy them all at once; as i've said, one at a time. it took me hours of work and a lot of budgeting 😊

this might be a little unnecessary for some, but to me, it felt like a gift from me to my younger self. to me, this is an achievement unlocked, a reward for hardwork, and just pure bliss 🤍

[gemuinelypeevish]

BLUE

seldom the color of a rose;

most of the time, she's coated with gold.

sometimes, she's only loved when

she's bright cerulean;

oftentimes, she drowns in oblivion.

she's deep and pitch black half of the time,

but in her darkness she makes sparkling dusts shine.

the other half she glistens

behind the brightest star—burning!

she tries hard to evaporate hate,

condense all hurting;

and when she couldn't take it no more,

she cries a billion droplets of rain.

sometimes, she's the sky...

and me all the damn time.

~gemuine, 26 Apr 2019

[gemuinelypeevish]

i'm in a happy relationship right now but @taylorswift just has this stubborn ability to make you feel all types of pain through her songs. will never be able to give this song justice the way she does but hey, i can't stop singing it 😭

#illicitaffairs #taylorswift #folklore #covers #taylorswiftcover #taylorswiftcovers #ts8

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"...this part of the world is often underrated... i'm constantly frustrated by that. you're beautiful, young, smart people..."

-@Ashton5SOS, #5SOSJustWokeUpInMNL 2019

🤘

a night that my heart would gratefully remember even when my mind no longer could! 🖤

[gemuinelypeevish]

insanely fuzzy photos 😬

thanks to the tall people in front of me, to all of those who kept pushing me from behind, and to my nerves 😂

didn't take much videos and photos though coz i wanted to savor and enjoy every bit of it. thank you for the love, @5sos 🖤

#5SOSJustWokeUpInMNL

[gemuinelypeevish]

it's a not a drill, son, this is the real deal! 🤘🖤

more photos from #5SOSJustWokeUpInMNL 🤭

endless thanks, @5sos (@calumhood, @lukehemmings, @ashtonirwin, @michaelclifford) for that wonderful show. i hope to see you again real soon. i love you! 😘

[gemuinelypeevish]

"Don't joke around if you can't take one. You're making your life a big irony."

-- g.a 💚

[gemuinelypeevish]

there she is, slipping into the dress her mom gave her when she was sixteen.

there she is, staring at the best reflection her bare eyes have ever seen.

there she is, brushing a crooked smile onto her innocent face.

there she is, realizing how the old her is slowly fading away.

-- g.a 💚

[gemuinelypeevish]

An Idea from Pinterest Edited By Myself

I am sick. Definitely. Even if I don't look like I am to others. As much as I wouldn't like to be.

From just a teensy-weensy prick that keeps on bothering me, to every part of my body constantly aching and getting weaker, until it feels like I could just explode from too much excruciation.

But, regardless how run-down and exhausted I feel, I realized that also live in GUILT.

I'm beating myself up on the inside.

I feel guilty that I cannot do my job well, like I'm expected to. I feel guilty that I can no longer do the things that I used to. I feel guilty that I cannot be there with the people I love as often as I did before. I feel guilty that I turn my friends down most of the time and barely see them. I feel guilty that my partner has to see in me in pain, deal with my symptoms and my grumpy attitude when I'm not feeling well.

Nonetheless, I have to let go because IT'S NOT MY FAULT.