YOU MUST BE 25+ TO DM ME WITH NSFW MESSAGES. NO EXCEPTIONS.
[This is a KINK ONLY detrans blog. I am really sorry to anyone I led on while trying to figure out what I was up for only to discover I genuinely don't want to play that hard because my brain suddenly threw up a 'NO' banner. I really thought I could handle it/have fun with it, and discovered that was not the case after all. I hope I've at least caught this before it went on too long and that you all can feel safe communicating with me anything you need to around what you want going forward/if you need to dip as a result of this, etc. And hey, this is why we have strict clear communication baselines, so when someone like me dabbles and finds out the more hard-core variant is more hard-core than they thought and they aren't actually having as much fun as they wished they were, they can call a stop, apologise, and get everyone's needs sorted out to either end the interaction or move forward with a better understanding of each other's needs.]
(I'll update this as I go but so far this is what I know/am exploring about myself:
I'm gray-ace pansexual and I've been identifying as nonbinary for about 4 years now I think. I've been on T for about 6 months and my voice is just starting to drop and it's extremely euphoric for me. :D
Then one day I found this random contradictory kink entirely on my own when I started fantasising seemingly out of nowhere about being clocked by cis men who decide to teach me a lesson about what I 'really' am. This escalated to finding some general feminisation and bimbofication hypnosis files where I ran into MistressLillith's site and it all went downhill from there. I haven't had top surgery - can't afford it - and I've been enjoying using my big breasts in my fantasy so much I'm using that as a way to be happy with having to keep them. XD
I've never told anyone this outside of this kink space and I won't be except to people in this kink space on whichever end who understand why I'm like this/that this is kink only and doesn't define who I am or my beliefs in real life.)
[25+] PLEASE FEEL FREE TO DM ME
[KINK ONLY. I DO NOT WANT THIS IRL.]
Any ftm breakers/fixers are welcome to message or send in asks degrading, misgendering and aiming to detransition me so I can reach my full real female potential. Teach me how delusional I am and demand things of me. I won't be posting real photos of myself on my blog I think so far (partly for privacy partly to avoid tumblr annihilating me lol) but I may post photos of myself with lots of encouragement in dms (face blurred) after some time feeling you out.* You can tell me to do all kinds of things and I'll figure out as I go where my limits are on those and update the limits list as needed. Don't be afraid to ask for something you haven't seen me list as a limit or ask for further communication around the soft limit list; we won't know what I'm ok with if it's not there yet or specified in more detail until you ask.**
If you - Straight or Queer - are feeling particularly adventurous/malicious, you are welcome to try breaking me of ALL my queer delusions and 'fixing' me to be 100% Straight in every area of my identity and sexuality for the betterment of knowing my place in society.
I want my identity meticulously broken to pieces then put back together into the perfect, horny, cock-worshipping, feminine girl ready to be filled with seed and bred until my belly and tits are impossible to hide any longer no matter what I do.
On that note, maybe you'd like to break&fix me via notes? Below is my Detrans Notes Game Challenge, which you can participate in if you want to inundate me with feminisation training, with the aim of breaking my mental defences and identity, then remoulding me body and mind into a proper girly girl, to offset the nasty bad influence of my masc-leaning nonbinary identity.
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(18-24 allowed to like, reblog and interact within specific limits. Please check writing in red about 25+ only if you're 18-24 for those specific limits. Transfemmes [25+] are welcome to NSFW interact directly on this post if comfortable with helping my brain try to get over past trauma and normalise healthy consent-respecting kink interaction with transfemmes again)
THIS GAME IS SUSPENDED FOR FURTHER COMMUNICATION, SELF-REFLECTING, AND REVAMPING. THANK YOU FOR YOUR PATIENCE AND UNDERSTANDING.
Read this instead.
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Detrans Me Notes Game Challenge 17/03/2025 - 17/03/2026 So. I decided to join in on the Notes Games I've been seeing around the place. 😳 I
THINGS I LIKE OR SEEM TO LIKE SO FAR
[THESE ARE KINK ONLY]
- forced detransition
- becoming someone's detransition project [KINK ONLY. I'm very sorry for overestimating myself in the past and am changing everything to reflect my discovered boundaries. Let me know if I've missed any.]
- Play-acting stopping my Testosterone
- misgendering
- orientation play/bi-breaking [new one; still feeling it out but feel free to give it a go]
- brainwashing through forced hynosis/tied down and brainwashed via hypnosis... at least until I become happy and compliant and begin dropping so easily and effortlessly for the desired alterations to be properly cemented and consistently reinforced so I can never even think to try to undo it let alone succeed.
- feminisation/forced feminisation
- bimbofication/forced bimbofication
- impregnation/forced impregnation/breeding/forced breeding/etc
- patriarchy kink
- misogyny kink
- male superiority kink
- r@pe kink
- monsterfucking/alienfucking/robotfucking
- Furry [picky with what type though; nothing too human but also not too close to an actual real life animal so for eg a talking cat is a NO, but a Skyrim Kajiit can be a yes if sufficiently big-catlike but that is on the very edge of the limit on human-ness as well.]
(I'm also pansexual so I don't have a preference I just don't have any experience playing with afab bodies either. By the time I figured out I'm pan I wasn't in the physical dating scene anymore. Hopefully one day I'll get to expand my skillset. 👀)
Speaking of kinks, since first writing this Pinned post I lost a wager and was required as part of paying up on said wager to write a post with what he told me to say, then link it in the Pinned, so here you go.😅
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IMPORTANT NOTE FOR MESSAGING ME
(Anything in brackets is absolutely being said out of kink. Please keep responses out of kink if they're connected to anything I've said in parentheses ->().
I will do my best not to use parentheses outside of that context.
It's especially important to keep some kind of clear line somewhere with CNC related kinks due to their naturally otherwise blurry nature. I know I'd rather be told very quickly about things I need to be aware of/careful of rather than letting it become a real problem down the line, so I'm trying to do the same thing.
I am still figuring all of this out kink wise, what I am and am not ok with, etc, so I will be trying to give reasonable room to others for me not knowing or thinking to communicate something because it's totally valid to make mistakes especially while I'm figuring out where those lines are myself. You can't read my mind. If I haven't clearly communicated something - because I didn't know myself or I said something in my head instead of out loud etc etc - then you can't know it and it's not a reflection on you if you miss something because of it.
I appreciate everyone's patience with me so far as I'm figuring myself out and learning how to keep healthily on top of CNC type kinks to be respectful and fair to everyone involved.)
(CW: Mentions below of having experienced real life non-consenting situations.
Soft Limits:
- Anything anal.***
[We can talk about it/it can be referenced/it may even be ok to instruct me to do things to myself, but we'll need to feel out what's ok. I'll communicate if something is wrong, just be aware it's a more complex area]
- Transfemmes in NSFW engagement
[PLEASE HEAR ME OUT!! I believe in trans women's rights I've just had trauma because my sexually/emotionally/psychologically abusive ex happened to be a trans woman. I'm working through this and I hope one day to be more comfortable around trans women in sexual contexts again. I consciously know there is no actual problem and trans women are NOT inherently abusive any more than any other demographic on this planet. That's TERF bullshit and I do NOT stand for it and if anyone ever tries to use abusive trans women existing as a reason to write off the entire transfem community I will absolutely stand by transfem people against that. Unfortunately my subconscious brain where all the trauma shit is kept is bad at understanding that so I feel it's better to keep my distance so random transfems aren't dealing with any subconscious bullshit from my end because of one individual who doesn't represent them in any way.
I promise I will try to work through this and get better because it does suck and I really don't want to be discriminating like that regardless of what happened to me. One day I hope to have developed enough good rapport with a transfem who understands my problems/has the patience for working with them, and if she's up for it try exploring a little further and keep showing my brain the reality of the abuse not being connected to transness in any way and try to make it let go of all that so I can get over it and open up easier again to all the safe and wonderful transfems out there in whatever way we all want at that time, no bullshit baggage attached.
Until then, I am comfortable following you/you following me and engaging with each other's posts etc if any sexual content isn't specifically directed at me, and I'm fine with talking and engaging with things directed at me in nonsexual contexts. While I'm still fixing myself though, transfems please do protect yourselves however you need. I will not be offended if you block me over this. You have a right to stay away from people you don't feel safe around and a right to be fully and unconditionally accepted. You are beautiful and valid and absolutely a real woman - if you identify that way - and you ALL deserve to be treated as your identity, no exceptions, even my abuser.]
- Intox kink.****
- Fauxcest [I can compartmentalise if it pops up but I'd really rather not; I don't get it]
Hard Limits:
- NO MINORS. GET OUT.
- 25+ ONLY FOR ANYONE DOING NSFW WITH ME. THIS IS NON-NEGOTIABLE. [I'm turning 30 this year and I personally find it extremely inappropriate and uncomfortable actively engaging with anyone any younger than 25 in a kink way. I know what it's like to be in a relationship with an older adult and the risk of abusive power dynamics - regardless of who is in what role - is just too high and I don't want to perpetuate that. Maturity often comes a lot later than 18. I am fine with the youngest character in a fictional ship being 18 as it's fiction, but as with many things I hold different beliefs for real life. Also even if you're 25, if I get the vibe that you are a young 25 year old, I will respectfully disengage until you mature to a point safer for interacting with me. As you are still an adult, how you conduct yourself elsewhere is none of my business, but please respect my boundaries for interacting with me.
However, as above with Transfemmes, I don't mind interacting with anyone between 18-25 in an SFW manner and reblogging their NSFW posts, so long as none of the NSFW is directed at me and I don't direct it at you either. ]
[Your Kink Is Not My Kink And That's Ok]
- Actually going off T irl
- Anyone trying to detransition me irl [I was curious, dipped a toe, stubbed it and realised I'm not equipped for the deep end. My apologies again.]
- Daddykink/Mommykink [BIG SQUICK NO; mommykink is also pretty much a trigger for me honestly]
- Ageplay [Also BIG SQUICK NO]
- Incest
- Scat/piss play [squick no]
- Rimming [same reason]
- Anything in general that would viley disgusting in an unhygienic/disease-risk dangerous way in real life eg: licking a toilet seat or some other really dirty/mouldy/whatever thing etc.
- Wound fucking [squick no]
- Raceplay
- Zoophelia/Bestiality [ie: sex with actual animals. If you keep it fictional, I'll just mind my own business and block you like I do any other kink that grosses me out personally. If you actually do shit with real animals however, I'd like you to consider the fact they are incapable of informed consent by virtue of not having human brains to begin with. If sex with an intoxicated human who hasn't given prior explicit and well-communicated consent while sober to be fucked in that state is assault, don't you think that applies to a creature who straight up can't conceive of complex sexual interaction, can't communicate complex needs around sexual interaction, and therefore does not meet the necessary baseline human standards of informed consent? Maybe try not doing it, and instead buying a knotted dildo from Bad Dragon or something. They make horse cocks and wolf cocks and all sorts of things. I get wanted to be knotted; bitch, I love knotting. Actual dogs ain't where it's at though.]
- I'll add more to this as I remember or discover them.)
Actual transphobes will be shot on sight.
*(Obviously this is done with the understanding that consent has ONLY been given to YOU to see those photos and you are to keep them to yourself. Consent is imperative in any kink space and if you don't respect that you shouldn't be here until you do).
**(Asking is ok. Badgering and boundary crossing are not.)
***(I had a bad experience with the mentioned shitty ex who was very much NOT respectful of informed consent rules and pressured and even forced me in real life into sexual encounters before I was ready, including anal, and didn't even lube/prepare me properly and made me really turned off from anal for a long time but it's been years now and I tried putting a finger up there when I'd orgasmed several times and was highly aroused and relaxed and it went right in with barely any discomfort so I do have anal play on my soft limit list as something I want to try taking back control over very slowly and gently so she's not my only experience with it and I get to enjoy it on my own terms again with someone I trust who respects real life boundaries and proper consent negotiation etc).
**** (I actually do want to explore this at some point because that's something else my ex did to me in an actual real life nonconsenting context and I want to take it back from her and make it my own to enjoy.)
