ai'sya.

nothing to see. be nice and go back :)

[mitushipandey]

sometimes i think about all the ways i could save the people i love if i ever had to.

i’d jump off cliffs for them. i’d jump into water even if i can’t swim and i know i’m the one who’ll drown.

i’d slap the monster back if it meant the monster would look at me and leave them alone.

there are so many ways i wish i could take their pain away. so many versions of me that are ready to fight to the death for them without even thinking.

and then there are days when i’m so distant from all of them that it scares me. it makes me feel as heartless as the monster i’m trying to protect them from.

[mitushipandey]

sometimes i think about all the ways i could save the people i love if i ever had to.

i’d jump off cliffs for them. i’d jump into water even if i can’t swim and i know i’m the one who’ll drown.

i’d slap the monster back if it meant the monster would look at me and leave them alone.

there are so many ways i wish i could take their pain away. so many versions of me that are ready to fight to the death for them without even thinking.

and then there are days when i’m so distant from all of them that it scares me. it makes me feel as heartless as the monster i’m trying to protect them from.

[nightarcane]

[genofalesfera]

rewatching Wind Breaker, and this literally speaks to Sakura🥹

[authenticity2025]

[genofalesfera]

.

[fleur11294]

I don’t hate you, i hate what you did .

[genofalesfera]

i really dont. i just need you to realize what it is that you did that hurted me this bad and just own that mistake instead of saying sorry.

[remanence-of-love]

[genofalesfera]

to realize only one could love me like this is...

[remanence-of-love]

[genofalesfera]

looks like, i would have to make a run for the rest of my life

[remanence-of-love]

[mitushipandey]

so literally nobody is talking about the rage that you feel when you see the person who broke you to the core all happy and proud. so you have to spend your entire life reminding yourself healing is non-linear. that you must have been the problem, too clingy, too expressive. too much and still not enough. nice.

[genofalesfera]

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[poetryforall]

[genofalesfera]

"i hold onto the heartaches for years and years"

w.x

[feral-ballad]

Joy Sullivan, from Instructions for Traveling West: Poems; “Instructions for Traveling West”

[genofalesfera]

indulging her life into affairs that gives momentarily fun and joys, somehow managed to treat the wounds in her heart

from afar, silently, as she watched the first snow falling, only tears managed to escape through the window of her eyes

she did not know the exact name she should give to the warmth that slowly resided in her heart that she wanted to throw away badly

probably she just wanted to see the old house again, just to experience the nostalgic feeling of missing home after been sick for a long time.

but even in this life, she has started placing bets whether such thing as love meant for her-- even if it does, would the price be the same?

emptiness, longing, and pain. it's trickier rather than living lives that fills of loneliness

[genofalesfera]

I can't force to bring myself admitting how I wanted things to get back like what we used to have in the past. But, we can't. a.c

[dumblr]

I'm old school. I just want one person.

[genofalesfera]

.

[genofalesfera]

between the spaces visible from the distance

i crafted a world for us to fit in

for the birds to drop by and visit you often

as the fire grows bigger in the wilderness

only its brightness had helped the lost wanderers to find its way again

between the two mountains, lies a thousands stories people never knew of

the bell ringing from afar, giving signs it has passed way mealtime

the little child cries out, and from the windows

the grandma sits by solemnly and asking

"where should i bring myself and make myself useful?"

probably no one knows the answer to that

as the tears dropping and the book has its own scent

far in the future she might have turned into the rain

calling out to her asking about her final wishes

but she can only pray and hope for the Heaven to take her side

after the long grief, the night turned into day

and the day turned into night

she watched the sky changes and how the clouds carried the evaporated rain

she made thought to herself again

probably it is the end.

#poems

[quotefeeling]

“They start missing you when they fail to replace you.”

— Unknown

[genofalesfera]

I hope you will never find me in anyone else after this. May your heart burn in flame and aches just at the thought of me. Let me be your curse from now on.

aamiin. i will keep on praying until the day my aches have finally gone. I hope you taste every bit of it, just like how I went through it.

[thoughtkick]

“There are people who take the heart out of you, and there are people who put it back.”

— Elizabeth David

[genofalesfera]

Congratulations, for unlocking my side I never wanted to look at myself as.

I hated you so much.

Deep down.

I blamed everything on you.

| I hate you. |