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Quinacridone burnt orange🧡

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New version Not a new drawing but whatever. Should start using thread again even though it's not that visible through all the filtering but I doubt the effect could have been the same just drawing the lines, also sewing on the drawing is part of the process so. Yeah should pick that back up

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Please not the videos of shirtless trans men in their bathrooms presumably with access to hot water I am very envious and haven't had access to a shower in a week if I can't have T can I have the touch of hot water or just cold water I can boil Always forget basic human discomforts are a little worse when you're dysphoric fuck

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Tree man

Graphite + digital drawing

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Another older sketch + color pencil

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Color pencils on older sketches because I haven't drawn much lately. I've felt kind of down, a bit overwhelmed by gender dysphoria. Contemplating getting a piercing but I probably won't. Idk. I've been playing a lot of sudoku

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Old reworked mixed media, thread + graphite + digital . Also moved a nipple

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Rewatched Sebastiane (1976), fave saint sebastian movie also has music by brian eno

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Lots of digital sketches, love how they turned out. Now could i turn these into proper illustrations. Probably not

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Idk a thing

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googled "jesus gives me gender envy reddit" to see how many people shared my experience and nobody had posted anything of the sort mmm. I'm not even religious I'm just realizing all the exposure to catholicism during my formative years couldn't have saved me from the transgender thoughts I'd go on to experience decades later. If anything it made it worse and I unconsciously built an archive of gender insp from paintings of jesus and male saints

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Got inspired to paint w my oil pastels today :)

Ref is wrestlers-5 by mjranum stock on dieviantart

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Sketch dump :)

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Reupload because the video version stopped working

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Idk if it's better to upload as vid or gif. Gifs used to be the way to go but that was in like 2015 (actually I just realized one vid I posted a few days ago is dead so gif is probably better)

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Recently I watched Dance of Darkness (1989) and Butoh: Body on the Edge of Crisis (1990), two documentaries on butoh (the latter was the better one)

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Reusing old works again. I mainly make these to post reels on insta but it's always fun to experiment w old stuff. old as in everything I've made past 2024, I kinda dislike previous drawings bc I was still trying to convince myself I was cis and it showed in my art I guess