no longer the fool

Thomas Gabriel intro . nb . twenty-two . canadian . queer . he/him pronouns please ao3 || ffn || twitter skype: gimmickpuppets  Fan(s) background

[gimmickpuppets]

Things are a shitstorm. Things aren't good and I'm sorry I'm rarely around. I'm still on twitter, and I've been hopping between various blogs. I just.. don't feel well. mentally, I'm edging so close to some sort of mental breakdown. My holidays were violently spoiled, and I'm just. Not well.

I've been spiraling downward into self-harm and have seriously contemplated suicide. I hovered on an attempt and ended up in the hospital. It's just not going well. I want 2015 to be a good year for me, but I'm at a very low point in my life.

I'm trying really hard to recover... I'm trying to get better. I don't know if that's an option for me at this point. I'm heartsick, unstable, afraid, and trying to find the constant strength to continue on. I don't really know what I'm trying to say. Sorry, I suppose?

I don't know if I should stay or go. I don't what to do. I just want to sleep.

[py2alxby37ufioxh]

ちょっと猫背でメモとる姿がかわいい。隣にいるだけで癒し(っ˘ω˘c )

[joshramsay55-deactivated2015062]

[nyan-galaxy]

[hrunting]

I did it. I don’t know why I did it but I did it.

[pochowek]

[editorialcounter]

[stierhai]

shingetsu isn’t even my name.

[untitledacrylic]

How New Years is going down this year.

[udaudaru]

オダ君の腰細い。

[lordtrash-deactivated20161201]

what a year, everything was terrible and i was tired

[bitstupidart-deactivated2016032]

I have no idea what this looks like on other monitors, I hope the brightness is ok

anyways. joseph from the evil within. ps6. I had fun with this.

[oofthisstillexists]

[neeeeeon]

[composerlost]

I’ve compiled this list of resources to help trans* people like myself. Even if you’re not trans* and/or can’t use any of this, please reblog for the sake of others. Thanks! Passing The Tumblr Transgender Clothes Exchange How to Take Measurements Reflectore Voice Pitch Tracker Masculinizing The FTM’s Complete Illustrated Guide to Looking Like a Hot Dude The Male Fashion Fit Guide AK’s Guide to Suits (this is a drawing guide, but contains useful info) Throat Exercise to Deepen Voice Big Brother Binder Repository & Re-Disbursement Program In a Bind Binder Donations Underworks Pullover Binders Les Love Boat Binders, Packers, Underwear, Shoe Lifts, Etc. Cheap Clasp Binder Discreet STP Device Feminizing Women’s Clothing Terminology Tucking How-to Guide Realistic Breast Form Tutorial The Breast Form Store Mastectomy Bras with Built In Flap for Breast Forms How to Contour and Highlight Using Makeup How to Apply Eyeliner with a Spoon How to Apply Foundation How to Apply Blush How to Apply Eyeshadow Emergency National Suicide Prevention Lifeline IMAlive Online Crisis Network Transgender Housing Network Legal National Center for Transgender Equality Transgender Law Center Change your Name for Free - Civil Indigent Status (Tumblr post) Copwatch Infographic Guide Medical Transgender Surgeons in the U.S. Center of Excellence for Transgender Health FTM Hormone Guide FTM Surgery Guide MTF Hormone Guide MTF Surgery Guide Mcalc Gender Neutral Menstruation Calculator Mental + Support Online Gender Therapy (can also issue letters of recommendation) Emotional Baggage Check TransSpace Reddit School + Education Trans Student Equality Resources Study Abroad for GLBT Students Applying to College as a Non-Binary Trans* Person Additional Resources Susan’s Place Transgender Resources and Forums Laura’s Playground Transgender Resources

[insertpalindromehere]

The safety of trans people > cis people's feelings.

[liaokay-deactivated20150204]

Source - Twitter

Artist - disdoHCL