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Hi I'm J. 30s. Avid runner and Wanda simp

[ginnsbaker]

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Wanda Maximoff * Reader

Series - AU

In Flames I Sleep Soundly (18+) (Completed)

In Silent Screams (18+) - (Completed)

In Losing Grip On Sinking Ships (18+) (Completed)

Series - MCU

Bulletproof (18+) (Completed)

Prophylaxis (Completed)

All Of Your Pieces (18+) (Completed)

IFISS/ILGOSS One-shots

puppy love

empty crib (18+)

brooklyn

right here, right now

???

One-shots

Maybe You Were The Ocean

Mastermind (18+)

My Sundown

Yelena Belova * Reader

IFISS/ILGOSS One-shots

Rivers and Roads (Til I reach you) (18+)

Shattered (drabble)

Yelena Belova * Kate Bishop

IFISS/ILGOSS One-shots

what comes of telling the truth (or even part of it)

Kate Bishop * Reader Soon

Other Elizabeth Olsen Characters

Leigh Shaw (Sorry for your Loss)

Series

If I bleed (you'll be the last to know) - (18+) (Completed)

[ginnsbaker]

Hello guys, I miss being here. I miss Wanda and Lizzie, but life's been pretty good, too. I hope you're all doing well :)

[ginnsbaker]

How would ILGOSS Y/N react to the Knicks being champions??

Oh yeah! I remember Y/N and Yelena going to the games and being a fan :D

I'm sure that Y/N would have secured all the home game tickets, dragging Wanda with her, and Yelena and Kate will be there as well. It would probably be Y/N and Yelena being the loudest fans lol, and Y/N will totally fangirl over the win, and Wanda would be so hyped for her wife (though she doesn't care about sports in general), but will take photos of Y/N losing her mind over the championship :D

[ginnsbaker]

https://www.tumblr.com/ginnsbaker/821117030153519104/hello-hello-its-been-a-while-so-just-wanted-to?source=share

Ayyy i also watch some tennis. Wimbeldon currently.

Im doing good thank you :) i have 5 weeks left of my summer break before my second year of college. And it's nice having 8 weeks break from school, even tho my first year went surprisingly fast and good. And im still on cloud 9 after my exam results... as you know, I did very good on my first exam. And then on my second wich was chemistry (physics, science, whatever you call it) and i actually 100% thought i would fail it... but i got the best grade again😅 and i know it's just a grade and nothing special, but i have always hated school and been bad at school stuff, so im just extremely proud of myself for how good i have been doing in my first year of college. And also even more proud of how far i have come in regards to my social anxiety, cause i have come soooooo far with it this year, and it feels so nice to not be so scared anymore of all sorts of social interactions and that kinda stuff. So yeah, im doing very well, and right now just enjoying some relaxing time off, and looking forward to go on a small holiday trip in 2 weeks😁

Don't remember if I wrote it in the last ask, but i hope that law school is going good for you :)

-🐮

Wimbledon!!! Alex Eala all the way. I'll always be rooting for my countrymen.

Wow! That's so amazing! I'm so glad for you! Told you, you'd do well :) It's such a nice feeling getting good grades especially when you do your best. I got my final grades as well, and I passed all subjects. My average now is less than a percentage for a cum laude honor when I graduate from law school. So I'm really making my studies a priority right now alongside tennis (lol!) and running (will never go away) :)

Yeah, as I mentioned, law school has been good to me. But now on my 2nd year, it's going to be tougher they say. Wish me luck!

[ginnsbaker]

Hello hello👋🏻

It's been a while so just wanted to hop on here and ask how you are? I hope you are doing well :)

-🐮

Hello! Still in law school, and my latest obsession is tennis lol. i rarely check tumblr these days.. have written any stories in a while. how are you?

[ginnsbaker]

LIZZIE'S REALLY PREGNANT!!

She looks even more hotter 🥵

i think this is the first time in gonna say this but…

she looks so mommy right now 🙃

[ginnsbaker]

Thank you for sending me this copy, with loads of sweet treats on top (literally!) @vendra-reads This is the best softbound copy of my fic that I have so far, no local print shop can beat this. I’m forever grateful 🥹

[ginnsbaker]

Hello :)

I had my first college exam today. Thought it would do very bad cause it was for science/biology/geography... but I got the best grade you can get😅 im not trying to brag or anything, but im just so fucking proud of myself cause in highschool i was always so so trash at those subjects, so im just so proud that i did so good on a more difficult level🎉

Well on another note, i really like that you put the lyrics for "Olsen" up, i listened to the song and wanted them too and was gonna ask you, but i must have forgotten to do so, so thanks to the other anon who asked for them :)

Hope you are doing good

-🐮

Hello! Sorry late reply! I was away the last several days, went to my gf’s province and we had so many activities planned out by her family.

Wow congrats!!!! I knew you’d do well :) keep it up! I also got my grades for the semester and my lowest was 84, which isnt bad for law school when a grade of 80+ is considered a high mark already.

I’m glad we both did so well :)

Olsen is becoming a fave amongst my friends who are not lizzie fans, and im itching to write more songs while im on academic break :)

[ginnsbaker]

Hey, it's the anon from earlier, I talked about school and bullying... Well, i have some news

First of all, thank you for your answer, I read it while I was still at school and it bought some comfort 🫶🏻

To be precised, it's not "school" exactly. I don't know the the equivalent of this word in English but I'm in France and following a course for a certain work branch.

It's four months of intense classes and internships and then I have a diploma degree at the same level of what 3 years of high school grant you in France. So there's all type of age, over 18, anyone is accepted. So I talked about it to the oldest woman in class with me, who noticed my discomfort. Because she was the one who opened up the conversation, I was surprised that she cared so much, and honestly shared her feelings about that guy.. He's just a typical "middle school type bully" but he's like.. 23? Like me.. and I found out I'm not the only one who's bothered by him. She is too, and most of the class, lol.

So she stayed behind after class and talked to one of our "professors" who are just as bothered by his comportements than us.. The professor told her to get everyone's opinions and put in a nicely formed letter that he will personally share to the director.

I'm trying to look tough when I talked about it to my friends, but here, I admit, I'm a bit worried.. I hate conflicts and arguments and I'm worried that guy will be like, more upset after finding out we "snitched" because I'm worried he won't be fired.

Even tho his actions are very very concerning. For example He threatened the woman I talked about and made it look like a joke in front of one our professors! , and it's like, not even top 3 of the worst things he's done.

He also kinda make fun of people who are really trying hard in class (like me, I'm dumb so I really have to write everything to do revisions) it's annoying :c

Sorry, I hope it's not a bother than im opening up here about it but I'm a bit overwhelmed and it's just reminding me of old scars I'm still trying to heal from

Hello, sorry if this took a while. A lot happened for me last weekend.

I’m glad you found the courage to open up to someone. And it gave you more confidence knowing that you’re not alone in feeling this way towards him. You did the right thing. You’re always doing the bully a favor because he needs to grow up, own up to his mistakes. but be careful okay? try not to be alone when you’re going home or going somewhere. always update your friends where you are. im not saying he’s going to be dangerous, but there’s nothing wrong in being careful. i hope it all works out in the end. :)

[ginnsbaker]

Ate. Thank u so much for literally being anywhere. I always find solace in your words and your songs. I'm just really glad you are here and thank God for creating you. I'm also thankful for being my online ate, it's such a privilege to get to know you. Hahaha

- I'm being sappy rn and I know I can send u this via dm but I somehow missed sending you asks especially the #advise with J or J'column where u can seek advice on things and life and general and probably soon legal advice? Hehe.

P.s. Final exams are done but I can't be Happy cause it's the final verdict if I can be an intern next academic year.

Hahaha Im not sure I give good advice, but thanks if you think so :) im also bad at replying on time cause dameng ganap lagi. Sometimes im tired of it all, but that’s adulting :)

you’re always so nice and kind to me, thank you! i really wish everything will to according sa plan mo:) kayang kaya mo yan!

[ginnsbaker]

Nag lalabor na po ems sa aking brain child (hardbound) last stretch and then final exams this week. I miss this place so muccccchhh I missed maging tambay sa inbox mo atee I have a lot of chika sayo po! Anddd omoo hahaha u remembered my username lolol

How was law school ate? Grabe no iirc, 1 academic year and half na ung natapos mo ate no? Congrats on passing the semester! I will send u updates too after my finals week if papalarin ako 😭🥰

Miss u! God bless u always mwah!

Hello! sorry i just signed back in after two days :) i went home this weekend to my parent’s house and attended the cup of joe concert :) puyat, so ngayon lng naka recover haha!

Law school is tough, but I enjoy it!

Good luck sa finals week! I’m sure you’ll do great :)

[ginnsbaker]

I need an advice

I'm kinda being bullied at school, but behind my back. But people report to me something a guy said to a professor

He's a troublemaker, rude and disrespectful but the school kinda protect him, not the professors, they are tired of his shit but can't do much, they have to keep him and can't fire him

So now, I'm there, I know what's going on behind my back but can't do much

It makes me sad tho, I'm quiet and in my corner I don't bother anyone

I don't know what to do :/

hey, im really sorry you’re going through that :( honestly being talked about behind your back hurts a lot, especially when you’re just minding your own business and not bothering anyone.

i friggin hate bullies. i wanna blame their upbringing, but at some point, people are supposed to be conscious of the decision whether they’ll be a jerk or a decent person. it’s always a choice.

try not to isolate yourself too much because of him. stay around the people who are actually kind to you and don’t feed into the drama. and if it ever gets too much, it’s okay to talk to someone you trust about it too.

also, being quiet doesn’t make you weak. some people just mistake kindness or silence as someone easy to target. don’t let him make you feel small.

when you’re done with school, it gets better.

[ginnsbaker]

i love your new song!! Retro pop really suits you :) I was wondering if there's any chance we could get the lyrics to them? Thank you!

Thank youuu! I’ve yet to post it to musixmatch, but here it is:

[Verse 1]

Evening is the hour of her eyes

They light the darkest pavement by design

They wrap me in a leash around my neck

tug at the strings when she stands in the middle of the height

[chorus]

olsen, im a plant you water in your garden

olsen, you’ll never know the hearts that you have broken

[verse 2]

morning is the hour of borrowed lives

you wear these faces just as they describe

I watch you disappear between the lines

and wonder what’s behind the curtains of your smile

[chorus]

olsen, im a plant you water in your garden

olsen, you’ll never know the hearts that you have broken

[bridge]

i’ll keep the part that feels like you

california’s dreaming of you

i’ll keep the part that feels like you

california’s dreamin of you

[outro]

olsen

olsen

olsen

olsen

[ginnsbaker]

lol, my mom keeps telling me how much she loves the new song I dropped this month.

she’s talking about the song I wrote for Lizzie. she has no idea how gay it is 🥲

[ginnsbaker]

In Losing Grip On Sinking Ships Masterlist

Status: Completed

Summary: Sequel to In Flames; After the divorce, Wanda refuses to give you up

Tags: Smut, Cheating, Angst, Slow burn, Fluff

Relationships: Wanda x Reader, Yelena x Reader, Kate x Yelena

Total word count: 166,348

Part I : One, Two , Three , Four, Five , Six , Seven , Eight

Part II: Nine , Ten , Eleven , Twelve , Thirteen , Fourteen , Fifteen , Sixteen, Seventeen - Part One, Seventeen - Part Two

Part III: Eighteen, Nineteen, Twenty , Twenty-One , Twenty-two, Twenty-three, Epilogue

Playlist: mine, fefe, notquitelove

Discussions: related asks

PDF Download: Here

Main Masterlist | Oneshots

[missmonsters2]

I've FINALLY had time to sit down and read ALL of this. I'm going to put my main thoughts here and you may see me in the comments for other chapters.

I want to say you are the actual reason I'm tired at work AND also doing no work LOL

Most genuinely, I have to say this is hands down the best Wanda AU fic I have ever read.

Additionally, for anyone who reads, do pay heed to the tags or any trigger warnings.

Spoilers below

I'm so glad I read this with my frontal lobe fully developed because I genuinely think this would have made me mentally ill LOL i need to express how much I loved this fic and I'm so for serious as I find graphic cheating tropes where they reconcile at the end a very hard nuance to navigate.

This fic is truly had me in a chokehold that two people could do such EXTREMELY fucked up things, not just to each other, but external actions as well. And ultimately, at the end, come back together in a sincere way.

This story really genuinely feel like this story is two real people. Typically, fics are almost play to me like a movie or a show, but reading this felt like I was watching two real life people navigate this plot.

Reader to me, really felt like a fully developed and fleshed out character. And getting to read a lot of the story from Wanda's perspective also gave her such depth and nuance that made her feel so much more real.

I have to give you flowers, applause, the whole works for truly being able to write your characters do such fucked up things and showing such an ugly side and having to face very hard consequences. Like i'm gagged.

Obviously, we start off with Wanda's cheating. I read a lot of comments about how people reacted to Wanda's cheating and the progression of it throughout the chapters (you are also strong for that LOL) and in some way, I relate as cheating has personally always been something that I could never work out. I think as i've grown older, I can see that cheating is not always so black and white, and a lot of internal things can lead to it the way it did for Wanda. I think you did a really outstanding job labelling and explaining that for Wanda. Especially in the prior series, Wanda isn't able to explain it and often said "it just happened" to this series where she's able to clearly reflect what led her to her actions.

I also thought it was particularly interesting to know that her mother and Pietro were also cheaters. It made me think about this interesting article that talks about how the link between genetics and infidelity.

Of course, as all psychology and therapy leads to—a lot of people's actions are formed and shaped through our childhood traumas.

I genuinely thought it was crazy that reader bashed Vision's head in with a vase 😭 and then their actions towards Wanda esp the very violent sex. I think it did showcase they have a difficult time emotionally regulating and expressing it through very real anger issues.

I think in some ways, respect Reader's choice to not push the lawsuit with Vision through the means of illegally recording Wanda and their illicit affair. Quite frankly, i actually think the vase to the head was justified LOL i sit here wondering if settling was the right thing to do as in some ways, Vision experienced no legal punishment for his own actions towards Wanda.

I think as I read it, I was able to look within as a woman, to separate the act of cheating and what the affair partner "deserves". Was Wanda's affair wrong? 100% yes, but did she deserve what Vision had done to her (violating her privacy and the attempt baby trap assault)—no, she did not deserve that.

Crap this is getting so long LMFAO i sorry!! I will try to condense the rest of it 😭

Personally, super crazy of reader to get with Yelena so soon after her messy divorce while on and off keeping in contact with Wanda. Even if they had no feelings truly for Wanda left, I personally would never go for my bestie's sister in case it didn't work out for ANY reason.

I felt bad for Yelena and also kate. And also Natasha. Just straight up collateral damage.

Ultimately as I read further through and could see the damage of Wanda's betrayal and how reader reacted to it, i could also say I didn't agree with a lot of what Reader did as a way to "punish" Wanda. Actually, by the end of it, i just felt really bad for Wanda 😭 a lot of it was prolonging the break up and exacerbating the pain on both ends.

The long journey of growth and healing did justify then getting back together and of course, the real MVP of this story is THERAPYYYYYYY.

All in all, i love that this story had so many think pieces to talk about and ponder. I love that this story tells us about what love alone is not enough. I loved seeing what forgiveness could look like.

I will end it here cuz deadass this is too long LOL thank you for writing this fic!! <3 it really renewed my love for writing and this fandom.

[ginnsbaker]

Wow. While I was reading this, I kept having flashbacks of certain scenes that are forever engraved in my head. 3 years after writing this, I’m shocked as well, except for how fast she got together with Yelena because they have history (I’m not sure if you’re aware of another canon prequel to in flames. it’s about reader and Yelena, called Rivers and Roads).

But for everything else, you’re spot on, and I have a slightly different opinion of them now. Being in a long teem relationship, I’ve tolerated things I told myself I will never tolerate when I was single lol (thankfully, no one’s cheated, and I hope it stays that way).

I cherish this commentary and I’m grateful and in awe that you actually read my story, because you’re one of my fave Wanda x Reader authors around here. Not to mention, your published fics at ao3 introduced me to it and made me fall in love with it. And I wish to read more of your work :) please please please

[ginnsbaker]

Thank you so much for your answer, it's so sweet and I'm so happy about the things you expressed. What a gentle attention from the other anon! I do hope you become a published writer, you have us on your side, I'll always be in love with your writing and I will always come back to "Ginnsbaker"

I have a big exam today, I was stressed out and checked your answer, just thinking about something else made me relax a lot

Sorry, I always end up yapping too much it seems lol

Good luck on your exam! You got this :) and yap away I never mind :)))

[missmonsters2]

I feel like i'm writing so much like i have 4 different stories opened and cycling through them.

Am i even coherent anymore 😭

[ginnsbaker]

I’ll be one of first ones in line to read something new from you. Is it coincidence that earlier this week, I was re-reading Drive Her Crazy? I’d like to think not :p