A life of Lies.

Ind. Sel. Pri.

[glacieswaltz]

Hello and welcome! My name is Shanelle, and this is an Independent and private role play and ask blog for Kaeya! From Hoyo's Genshin Impact! Mun has been writing on Tumblr for a while now. So I'm sorry if my rules seem a bit strict.

Mun is 30+, as is my muse. She/Her!

Rules are under the cut!

First things first-no God mod, info mod, power play, meta gaming, all that stuff. That's a no go here at all. Please ask me before you do something involving controlling my character, and I'll do the same for you of course.

Let's not rush for replies. I am rather busy irl, with many activities. Small gentle reminders are fine, but don't be a hard ass and rush.

Let's keep drama to ourselves and be mature people, yeah? No call outs and all that shit here. I prefer to resolve things in person. Unless it's something major that needs to be made public you won't see call outs here.

This blog is private, and that means I only write with my mutuals. No ifs, ands, or buts about it. If we follow each other, then we are mutuals and can interact. Or, if you're a RP side blog and your main blog follows me, and I follow your RP side blog, then that counts as mutuals. Sorry but it's just for my comfort and ease, given I do read my partner's replies and all.

I shouldn't have to say this but given this day and age I'm gonna say it: fiction =/= reality. What I write does not mean I condone it. What my muse thinks of you does not equal what I think of you. Enough said.

Triggering content will be present on this blog. Hoyo's not shy of writing things like death and war and all that, so you can expect that-especially with this character. NSFW content will be here, but I will tag it and read more it.

OCs, SIs, etc are all welcomed here! I don't mind it at all! In fact, it's encouraged!

Please tag irl pictures of spiders, gore, horror, body horror, and vore.

I should note: My kaey is in a poly relationship with some of Aisuru's charaters. So you may see / hear mention of them and such. These are relationships we've built for a long time now.

I should also note: I follow the Japanese translation of the game, and do read the original Chinese translations of the game as well. Thus, I do not mind romantically or platonically shipping Diluc and Kaeya. If this bothers you, please just block me and move on.

Last but not least, reblog from the source please and thank you.

Otherwise, I'm pretty chill.

[glacieswaltz]

Kaeya's just looking at his inbox like 'bruh'.

[thunderousmemes]

SLOW–BURN SPARKS & QUIET HEARTFIRE

roleplay starters inspired by slow burn love — lingering glances, almost-touches, and feelings that simmer for months before finally spilling over

LONGING IN THE LITTLE MOMENTS

soft looks, subtle shifts, that ache of wanting more but not daring to reach

“Why do you always look away right when I catch your eyes?”

“You keep brushing my hand. Accidentally… right?”

“You don’t have to leave yet. Stay—just a few more minutes.”

“Why does being around you feel… different?”

“I notice the way you soften around me. Even when you try not to.”

ACCIDENTAL INTIMACY

hands brushing, falling asleep near each other, warmth passed back and forth

“You’re freezing—come here. It’s just body heat… nothing else.”

“You can lean on me if you’re tired. I wouldn't mind.”

“Hold still, you’ve got something in your hair—just let me…”

“Didn’t mean to fall asleep on you, but… I didn’t want to move.”

“I like it when you stand close. Even if you pretend you don’t notice.”

DENIAL THAT’S OBVIOUS TO EVERYONE ELSE

everyone sees it except the two falling in love

“Why does everyone keep asking if we’re together? We’re not… right?”

“No, I wasn’t staring. I was… observing. For reasons.”

“We’re just friends. Totally normal friends who… talk every night?”

“Why does it bother you when I flirt with other people?”

“We’re close. But not that close. Unless… you want to be?”

RISING TENSION, UNKEPT DISTANCE

the space between you shrinking, breath catching, lips almost touching

“You keep stepping closer. Are you doing that on purpose?”

“Tell me to back up. If you don’t, I won’t.”

“You can’t look at me like that and expect me to think straight.”

“If you touch me again, I’m not sure I’ll be able to stop myself.”

“We’re either about to kiss or make the world’s worst decision.”

LATE NIGHTS THAT LEAD TO CONFESSIONS

quiet rooms, tired voices, guards slipping

“I shouldn’t say this, but… I feel safer with you than anyone else.”

“You’re the first person I think about in the morning. And the last at night.”

“I don’t know when it happened, but you’ve become… important.”

“Why do I only tell you the things I’m scared to say out loud?”

“Stay up with me. I don’t want this feeling to fade yet.”

FEAR OF RUINING EVERYTHING

the hesitation, the trembling, the hope

“If I told you the truth… would it ruin us?”

“I’m scared of losing what we already have.”

“I care about you too much to risk it unless you feel the same.”

“Don’t lie—there’s something between us. You feel it too.”

“Tell me you don’t want me, and I’ll pretend none of this happened.”

FINALLY CROSSING THE LINE

the moment where holding back isn’t possible anymore

“Come here. I can’t pretend I don’t want you anymore.”

“I’ve been waiting for you to make the first move.”

“If we’re doing this… don’t pull away.”

“I’ve wanted to kiss you for months.”

“Tell me this isn’t just one moment. Tell me we’re choosing each other.”

[glacieswaltz]

Yep. not a singular thing known.

[indomitablechivalry]

    Ah.  He  had  seen  right  through  all  of  this.  Index  finger  traces  the  rim  of  his  glass,  pondering  how  to  even  fully  respond  to  this…  Kaeya  would  want  to  know  why.  Want  to  know  what  was  going  on  in  his  head  &&  Varka  wasn't  sure.  It  was  a  mess.

                   ❝ I  haven't,  no.  Every  time  I  think  about  it  or  attempt  to,  words  get  stuck  in  my  throat.  My  personal  feelings  come  into  play…  I've  got  the  whole  ❛  Grand  Master  ❜  part  down  pat  it's  just…  Everything  else  I  want  to  say.  I  don't  want  to  scare  him.  I'm  well  aware  I  can  be…  Overwhelming  with  how  intensely  I  can  love  someone.  Then  add  in  all  of  this  shit  &&  what's  a  man  to  fucking  do?  ❞

[glacieswaltz]

                 𝐒𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐇𝐎𝐖,  𝐇𝐄'𝐒  𝐍𝐎𝐓  𝐒𝐔𝐑𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐄𝐃  𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑  𝐇𝐀𝐒𝐍'𝐓  𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐔𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐘  𝐓𝐀𝐋𝐊𝐄𝐃  𝐓𝐎  𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐆  𝐌𝐀𝐍  𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓  𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆  𝐇𝐄  𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐃  𝐓𝐎  𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐂𝐔𝐒𝐒.  However,  Varka  was  never  the  time  to  go  in  without  thinking  things  through--well.  At  least,  when  it  came  to  the  emotional  side  of  things.  His  stunt  in  the  leylines…was  a  different  case.  One  that  even  Kaeya  had  gotten  on  him  about,  but  that  was  neither  here  nor  there.  He  supposed  they  were  all  a  little  stupid,  at  times--taking  risks  and  gambling  their  lives.

It  was  what  they  did.

           ❝  Didn't  think  you  had.  ❞  He  out  right  stated,  taking  a  sip  of  his  wine  as  a  singular  azure  watched  the  blond  in  this  moment.  But  of  course  he  was  worrying  over  such  a  detail…well.  Kaeya  supposed  he  had  a  reason  to.  However….if  he  decided  it  was  better  to  not  love  on  someone  just  because  he  was  worried  over  such…

Then  he  should  never  chance  with  romance  to  begin  with--and  he  knew  Varka  understood  that.

           ❝  I  think  you'd  manage  to  find  a  balance  in  regards  to  how  deeply  you  love.  In  the  end,  that's  just  how  you  express  it;  with  all  you  are.  Everything  you  are.  Sometimes…it  does  scare  people.  It  will,  at  times. Yet  at  the  same  time,  I  think  it  will  comfort  them  as  well,  knowing  nothing  in  the  world  could  make  you  leave  them…  ❞ 

Not  the  blue  haired  male  speaking  from  experience  with  a  certain  phoenix.

[indomitablechivalry]

@glacieswaltz preplotted accompanying thread to Lohen && Varka's srs talk.

    A  heavy  sigh  leaves  him as  he  &&  Kaeya  sit  alone  on  the  second  floor  of  Angel's  Share.  The  place  was  empty  &&  Diluc  was  turning  a  blind  eye  to  it  being  after  hours.  Especially  since  the  bartender  could  sense  how  heavy  the  subject  was.

                   ❝ Kaeya,  I'mma  be  so  real,  I  don't  even  know  where  to  begin.  My  mind  has  been  nothing,  but  a  mess  when  off  hours.  I  can't  get  the  memories  I  saw  out  of  my  head.  I  can't  believe  there  are  people  so  fucked  up  that  they  were  kidnap  kids  to  do  that  kind  of  shit  to.  I  can't  believe  it…  ❞

[glacieswaltz]

                𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐕𝐘  𝐒𝐈𝐆𝐇  𝐈𝐒𝐍'𝐓  𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐃  𝐁𝐘  𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐕𝐀𝐑𝐘  𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍,  𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐔𝐋𝐀𝐑  𝐀𝐙𝐔𝐑𝐄  𝐖𝐀𝐓𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆  𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐃  𝐌𝐀𝐋𝐄  𝐍𝐄𝐗𝐓  𝐓𝐎  𝐇𝐈𝐌  𝐀𝐒  𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐘  𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐂𝐔𝐒𝐒  𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑  𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐑  𝐃𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐊𝐒.  Angel's  share  was  quiet--as  it  should  be,  given  it  is  after  hours,  and  Diluc  was  quietly  ignoring  the  fact  that  it  had  long  since  closed--if  only  due  to  the  topic  that  was  being  discussed  and…well. 

Admittedly,  Kaeya  wanted  to  speak  to  Varka,  anyway..and  Diluc  as  well.

           ❝  It's  like  you  said,  Varka.  That  kid--all  of  them--went  through  heavy  things….and  they  all  reacted  differently  to  it.  Unfortunately,  there's  always  going  to  be  people  like  that  in  this  world…  ❞  He  would  know…but  that  was  neither  here  nor  there. 

           ❝  We  should  just  be  thankful  they  got  out  alive…unlike  some.  But  speaking  of  Lohen…you've  yet  to  talk  to  him,  have  you?  ❞

[glacieswaltz]

Tag drop: Relations.

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Tag drop: Characters

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Tag drop: Verses

❅ ▌𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐋𝐒 ( genshin ) the calvary captain and his secrets ❅ ▌𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐋𝐒 ( modern magic ) more to him than he seems

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Tag drop: Interactions

❅ ▌𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐀𝐂𝐇 ( dash comm ) thus he watches from the side ❅ ▌𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐀𝐂𝐇 ( threads ) be it the mundane or battle; he is here ❅ ▌𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐀𝐂𝐇 ( nsfw threads ) behind closed doors; his heart bare ❅ ▌𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐀𝐂𝐇 ( memes ) a list of objectives ❅ ▌𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐀𝐂𝐇 ( crack ) here's my horse ❅ ▌𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐀𝐂𝐇 ( archived ) and thus history is written

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Tag drop: Kaeya

❅ ▌𝐂𝐀𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐑𝐘 𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍 ( kaeya ) the quartermaster behind the scenes ❅ ▌𝐂𝐀𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐑𝐘 𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍 ( hcs ) only one of his secrets ❅ ▌𝐂𝐀𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐑𝐘 𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍 ( shared hcs ) a library of secrets

❅ ▌𝐂𝐀𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐑𝐘 𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍 ( mind ) his head wanders daily ❅ ▌𝐂𝐀𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐑𝐘 𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍 ( interests ) indulgences of the mortal flesh ❅ ▌𝐂𝐀𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐑𝐘 𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍 ( aes ) the beauty he gazes ❅ ▌𝐂𝐀𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐑𝐘 𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍 ( closet ) he dresses the part ❅ ▌𝐂𝐀𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐑𝐘 𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍 ( music ) tunes to soothe himself ❅ ▌𝐂𝐀𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐑𝐘 𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍 ( powers & abilities ) what he can do ❅ ▌𝐂𝐀𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐑𝐘 𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍 ( cravings ) food and drinks for the soul ❅ ▌𝐂𝐀𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐑𝐘 𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍 ( romance ) the heart will yearn ❅ ▌𝐂𝐀𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐑𝐘 𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍 ( nsfw ) the body will crave

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Tag drop: ooc

❅ ▌𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐃 ( ooc ) the voices behind the cavalry captain ❅ ▌𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐃 ( tbd ) the waltz is over ❅ ▌𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐃 ( psa ) important announcements ❅ ▌𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐃 ( que ) the captain sleeps ❅ ▌𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐃 ( wishlist ) hope for the nation ❅ ▌𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐃 ( ooc inbox ) letters for home ❅ ▌𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐃 ( ooc saved ) for the people of the nation