just tracking and venting :)

Height: 5'3 Sw: 260🤮 Cw:194.9🤢 Gw1:180🔒Gw2:170🔒Gw3:160🔒Ugw: 115...or below😳

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Me: (explains how I lost 60 pounds by my Ed when I was like 17)

Friend: oh so fasting? You don't have an eating disorder lol, you're still fat

[keeleycs]

binged cause i was sad that i didn’t lose weight i am so fucking dumb

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I'm forcing a relapse. I can't do this anymore. No one loves me if I'm fat. They only respect me if I'm skinny. I'm just another hole for people. I'm going to get so skinny and hot that they'll love me, only for me to reject them. I'll make them regret using me. Skinny people get everything and I want a piece.

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YOU'RE LOSING YOURSELF TO GLUTTONY, YOU GAINED 5 POUNDD YOU ABSOLUTE PIG

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Yeah sex is good but have u ever broken a plateau?

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When you don't feel hungry enough but there is literally nothing you can do about that

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No matter how much I hate myself, I can not eat gross shit😭 I'll just suffer, blame myself then suffer some more cuz I'm not drinking leaf water

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These little fruit cups are life savers OH MY GOD they're only 50-70 cals each and are JUST filling enough to push me through

Eating one for breakfast having literally WHATEVER I want for lunch and eating one for dinner works so much better for me

Keeps me in big enough of a calorie deficit to lose 0.8 lbs a day while still being able to eat whatever I want. Not complete binge but a big lunch.

I'd rather actually starve to death than eat shitty Walmart salads

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Losing weight you've already LOST IS SO ANNOYING

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When you know you ate too much today to lose a pound in the morning so u just sit in self pity until u can try again tomorrow

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Hungy

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Daily reminder, don't starve yourself :) It literally doesn't work long term and don't listen to any posts telling you to do so :)

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Starving doesn’t work. It never will

Starving only takes a couple of pounds off TEMPORARILY. Fasting works. Calorie counting and reduction works but if done too harsh, your body WILL fight back. Your body will almost always win against your mind. Whether it’s an seemingly unstoppable binge or storing fat because it doesnt know when its eating again. Have control over your diet. Is starving really control if it takes over you? If you REALLY want to be skinny, fast. Don’t starve. I used to weigh less. I tried to starve myself to get out of a plateau and it worked. For a week. The moment I ate again, my body HELD onto that weight and did nothing but hold. It took me 30 pounds to realize I was doing it wrong. Don’t Starve.

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YOU'RE LOSING YOURSELF TO GLUTTONY, YOU GAINED 5 POUNDD YOU ABSOLUTE PIG

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Cheated. Ate too many grapes and some tuna and crackers. I'm better than this. Be better. The fast you lose this weight, the better. Stop and think before you eat.

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Losing so little weight after a long fast is so annoying😐😑😐

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I'm on my way. Slowly yet steadily. I will become skinny so I won't be used anymore. No one good will love who I am now. My soulmate is waiting for a skinnier me.