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Jin Ling  and Lan Jingyi - Mo Dao Zu Shi 3 episode 02

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when it comes to romance, jin ling doesn’t know how to go about it at all, especially his feelings — considering the two adult figures in his life have either: had the biggest realization 13 years later OR been blacklisted by every female, collectively. he knows his parents loved one another, but not seeing it firsthand ? __ ? i wish this poor boy LUCK. but to be honest, considering what i have plotted, he’d take after his dad in the confessing aspect. blurt it out and RUN.

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dishengs:

WEI WUXIAN REMEMBERS THE TIMES he could only see the top of Jin Ling’s head if he so much allows his gaze to drift southward, watch the decors of little peonies embedded beautifully around the crest of his headband. Five years have passed since then, his nephew has grown into a fine young man with an admirable physique. Now when he sees him, he finds himself staring at Jiang Yanli’s very own two eyes on the same level of vision. He couldn’t help but smiles, allowing the corners of his lips to reach his ears, flaunting his significant smile. To show off wasn’t an uncommon trait coming from the Yiling Patriarch, but right now he couldn’t help but wants to show off Jin Ling. See that? That’s my nephew! My Shijie’s son! Those were words he’s longed to say since the day he was born—a tight grip seizes his chest, feeling pain and emotional drifting into his chest and settled there, blooming into many more feelings he’s not sure if he was capable of describing.

❝Nothing,❞ his voice was always cool, soft and deep since he was seventeen, yet it had a pleasant ring to the ears when he was abrupt with words like this. ❝I was just thinking, how proud Shijie would be to see her son had grown into a fine young man.❞ The mention of Jiang Yanli hurt still, but he’s learned to accept her death as a fact. With all due respect, Jiang Yanli would not have wanted her family to dwell in misery over her death. You have a mother. And a father. And they loved you very much. I know because I’ve seen it with my own two eyes. He would hold her to memory—be one of those that remembered her. And now, he’s found more reasons to move on for her death: a distraction, that was Jin Ling himself.

     as years had passed them by, jin ling couldn’t say nor proudly announce the relationship between wei wuxian and himself had fully &&  completely mended. regardless of how his life was lead at that very moment, he would still think back to his younger self left. abandoned. grown up parent-less due to several of the yiling patriarch’s own offending actions, though he had learned to let him in. little by little; slowly. at a time, his mother did love and care for him, despite all the misgivings. he doubted she would look down upon him all too favorably if he fought against any form of communication. he had softened, to say the very least.

   at the mention of his mother, his forward steps halt. as time went by, it did continuously hurt, though not so much to a point he would turn with a raised weapon upon hearing her being brought up in such a manner. ( especially against who dared to speak of her existence in his presence. )  boot-clad feet unexpectedly kick at the gravel beneath, overcome with a rush of emotion before he’s steadily regaining a bit of his previous composure. ❛  ... do you truly believe she would be  ??   ❜  quietly, those words flow from his mouth. unexpected. being only a small child then, he no longer was able to see her face within his memories. while there were large portraits of both of his parents, ones of which came specifically from their wedding, he - himself couldn’t pull an old memory of her to revert back to.   

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spiritzjourney:

    it had been many years since sizhui had felt this bad before .  . in fact he hadn’t felt this sicksince he was a child. he didn’t remember much of it aside from what he had been told about it from those who took care of him. as a child he was so sick to the point he had forgotten a lot of his childhood, though those memories had returned, and it seemed this sickness was too.

     he knew it wasn’t as bad as back then thankfully since he was older and his body could handle a little fever but he couldn’t help but feel weak. there were even moments in time where he felt as if he would faint from the dizziness he felt but he didn’t want to worry anyone around him, trying everything in his power to seem as if he was okay. it was a quick failure and defeat in keeping up the act as he couldn’t help but cover his mouth as a coughing fit and dizzy spell had reached its peak, sending him stumbling back a bit as he grabbed the closest and only person next to him to keep him standing.  ❛  sorry .  .  ❜    was all he could mutter out behind his hand as the coughing continued.

    truly; he could determine there was something clearly wrong with his friend. while it’s very truthful he would never admit so aloud, he did care. said unease nearly evident as he observed each of sizhui’s actions. the strange, yet quiet air about him had set off internal alarms to point out all wasn’t well. jin ling had long forgone his usual stance trudging behind, choosing instead to stay closely to him if he were to need assistance of any kind. though, he hoped he hadn’t made that too obvious.

                        &&  as it turned out, his worry hadn’t been all too far off. palm seizing sizhui’s elbow as he stumbles into him, uncaring to make any sort of offhanded comment about their unforeseen closeness.      ❛  you --  ❜   cutting his remark there, he’s adjusting his hold to allow him to take step back once balanced onto his feet properly.   ❛ are you . . . okay ??  ❜  even the inquiry sounded strange coming from his lips; each word embedded with genuine concern.

[xiuyaas]

☼ jin ling is a good boy ☼

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bloodied knuckles ･ tear stained cheeks ･ rust  ･ a busted lip ･ claws ･ fangs ･ a bloody nose ･  chattering teeth  ･ a dark space underneath the bed ･ scratching noises on a wall ･ creaking metal ･ fog ･ dancing under moonlight ･ blood dripping lips ･ heavy breathing in the dark ･ a feeling of unexplained dread ･ a figure in a dark corner ･   dirty peeling wallpaper ･ a bloody handprint on the wall ･ sobbing in the dark ･  bite marks on the skin ･ eerie whispers ･ a hood covering a stranger’s eyes ･ the growl of a hidden animal ･  the sound of a blade being sharpened ･ a deep, dark forest ･ walking on the streets alone at night ･  a cobweb-filled, abandoned building  ･ eyes darting in paranoia ･ a heavy beating pulse ･ the feeling of being trapped ･ struggling to get out a scream ･ boards covering broken windows ･ a quiet graveyard ･  a gas station in the middle of nowhere ･ a road that never ends  ･ heavy fog rolling in ･ the scent of blood in the air ･ eerie old photographs  ･ walking along traintracks at night ･ a chill going up the spine  ･  gathering crows ･ a dusty, dimly lit study ･ mist over a deserted cobblestone street ･ ghost towns ･ shadows around a campfire ･ the sound of chanting ･ church bells tolling ･ an orange harvest moon  ･  a broken down carnival  ･ a dirty stuffed animal abandoned  ･ wiping bloody hands on fabric ･ nightmares ･ waking up in a panic ･ a power outage ･ heavy lightning storms ･ a secret trap door  ･ the feeling of being watched ･ fear from trauma ･  a Ouija board set out on a table  ･  an eerie doll  ･ a scream of anguish & pain ･ withered plants ･ a room that’s been forgotten & gathered dust ･ owl eyes in the dark ･  curled, dead tree branches ･ a ritual altar ･ flickering candles ･ a lantern held up in the dark ･ fear of being followed ･ creaking floorboards ･ repressed, horrible memories ･ clenched teeth ･ soft, echoing piano keys･  an old book covered in dust ･  many pairs of glaring eyes ･ stumbling in pitch black darkness ･ being stranded in the middle of nowhere ･ tarot cards on a table  ･ a trail of blood.

tagged: @jiangswanyin / @alloycoded tagging: anyone who hasn’t done this already!!

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   && @dishengs: 

   merely at a suggestion, an offer, to be escorted alongside with on a night hunting expedition, he hadn’t thought much into it.  with such a chance to meet with his friends, yes friends, jin ling couldn’t muster up any appropriate excuses to turn it down. not as if he wanted too, either. which is exactly how he found himself within the depths of the mountainside, eager eyes bounce this way &&  that, taking in every bit of scenery engulfing them. to be out without his uncle or his disciples, it helped ease a bit of tension upon his ridged shoulders.  unaware of the almost carefree expression in place (  the very same that usually remained hidden behind a mask that had always protected him ) he didn’t fully realize there was an delightful upturn to his otherwise sour appearance. 

         by all means, it didn’t last long. flitting if that. once his eyes settled forward, it morphed into that everyone could easily recognize. inclining his head, he’s met with an almost similar gaze, though his momentarily hardens (  just a fraction ) -  a scowl easily slipped into place.  ❛  what are you looking at ??  ❜  

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why are my friends (read: jingyi) so stupid !! 

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shuoshuzhe:

           “ r — red ?! who’s red ?? me ?! ” he stammers, volume getting louder as if it could cover his embarrassment. trying to mask his discomposure with loudness and anger, jingyi was definitely the exception to the gusulan sect. “ i’m not RED !! you are !! ” he retorts ( smooth ), arms crossing over his chest as he GLOWERS at the other male. “ and it’s really HOT right now, anyone would be red wearing as much as we are !! ” he uselessly defends.            he doesn’t want to be bested by the young mistress master, he refuses !! he puffs his cheeks out in protest ( much like a child, ), “ well, you’re also as red as a tomato too, ” he flings back jin ling’s words. 

                    ❛  yes, you!!  ❜  proudly so at his reaction a sneer flits into place upon his lips, even going so far as to point a finger in his direction. while it was a very much unbecoming image for a future sect leader - thankfully, no one other then themselves had seen such a sight. though at jingyi’s next remark, he too, is gasping loudly. visibly wounded at such an accusation.  ❛  i’m not red !!  if anything it is you  who cannot see clearly. ❜ mimicking his own stance, each fists clench tightly together by his side.

                                       ❛  is that your excuse ?!  ❜  scoffing, form leans backwards as arms cross, judgement openly clear on his features.  ❛ you !! shut up !!  ❜ without a retort in place, he’s left grasping for substance within his words. to end up saying such a thing .. well .. jin ling had been too flustered to think anything completely through.

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jiangswanyin:

                             “——A-Ling,” he says gravely. “Sit still.” Jiang Cheng knows, though, it will simply become yet another warning that will go entirely unheeded. He purses his lips together, having lost count of the number of times he has attempted to ask his nephew to comply; however, the boy has resisted each gentle nudge, each tilt of his head in favor of looking anywhere but straight ahead as if it were all a game. When he moves again, this time with an incriminating giggle escaping his lips, Jiang Cheng is forced to relinquish his hold in fear that he might accidentally yank a few strands right out of the boy’s scalp.

                             As Jin Ling’s hair cascades back down to exactly where his shoulder blades are located, he can’t help but wonder if Jin Guangyao has just as much trouble handling the energetic six year old or if it was just Jiang Cheng himself: awkward, ill-tempered, and clearly unfit to care for a child? How long have they both been stuck in his chambers with Jin Ling nearly prepared for the day and Jiang Cheng just barely presentable? How long will this drag on? “Jin Ling.” He draws in a deep breath. “The more time we waste here, the less time we have to do anything else! Aren’t you hungry?”

           booooooring; it was all so boring, dreadfully so. jin ling couldn’t begin to fully comprehend why this part of the day is so important to his jiujiu, he didn’t see anything wrong with his appearance !!  however he had to sit patiently and very still, despite his reluctance to.  being an active child & having to be seated for such a vast amount of time, those weren’t two things that could be combined well. his neck begins to act almost as if on its own, tilting this way and that - unable to contain the slightest of giggles as he’s chided for each offending movement. truly he couldn’t help himself !! he wanted it to be finished already !!

                          upon feeling his unkempt hair be let go, he’s questionably glancing backwards at his uncle, brows furrowing deeply in effort as lips pulled into a visible pout - checking to see if his uncle was angry with him. he didn’t mean to make things difficult, not purposely at that.  pondering the question, his lips further point outwards into a pout. now that he thinks about it .. he was hungry .. the idea of a meal all too tempting.   ❛ i am hungry .. ❜ he nods to himself in agreement; once again stilling in his seat.

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“you’re going to have a bruise.” [ from lan sizhui ]

hurt sentence prompts ⇾ closed.

                peering upward at from his crouched position, there’s a flicker of genuine terror mixed within his features at those words. how could one possibly word their way out of punishment if caught; especially so when he hadn’t been granted any sort of permission to be out. though that bit of information he hadn’t spoken up about - willingly. 

                                    ❛  … do you truly believe so ??   ❜   he couldn’t muster the courage to raise his voice much higher, considering his previous bad behavior. however, it only took a moment or two before a plan had formed in his mind, one that even he was pleased with. dusting himself off, he resumes his stroll as if he hadn’t unintentionally harmed himself.  ❛  i’ll worry about that later !! let’s go, let’s go !! we’ve gotten so far behind, by now, haven’t we ??  ❜  & with that; he turns on his heels to catch up with the rest of their so-called squad.

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spiritzjourney:

  words so easily spoken before were now a regretful burden on the undead lad’s shoulders. had he taken the time to remember how much hatred the child had for him, had he not opened his mouth or stepped foot towards him it could have easily been avoided. there was no denying how much guilt and pain he felt over turning this child into an orphan, no matter how hard he fought his own feelings he kept the thought in his mind to remind himself of the pain and suffering he caused.

                            it was all his fault. all of it was on him. it was his responsibility.

       ❛  I sincerely apologize for saying something I shouldn’t have … I’m just looking out for you . . ❜ his voice was soft spoken as it normally was, his nervousness obviously on display with the look on his face upon seeing the sword become unsheathed. he didn’t want to fight, especially not someone he cared so much about. he was quick to take a small step back, though his arms reached out as he saw the unsteady step from him, not wanting him to fall and damage any part of him. he was going to protect him, even if it meant harm to himself.

      spoken words do little to quell the bubble; almost as if it were lava, anger as it settles deeply within his belly. fingers grasp tightly while arms waver in their stiffened position, outstretched with his sword all to keep him in his place. surely, the boy ( even at his age: always a boy, always the child who was left, abandoned by loving parents in such a cruel && harsh matter ) couldn’t do much to fend himself if the ghost general chose to battle against him - in any attempt to oppose his actions. overwhelmed by each sheer emotion swirling within him, jin ling couldn’t cease the tears from welling up.

                    ❛  apologize .. ??  ❜  lips curled distastefully so, practically spatting the word out into the air about them. such a simple word, though no matter how he pondered it - it felt as if he were to be slapped in the face.

                                              ❛  how idiotic.  ❜ 

                openly eyeing him; a step backwards doesn’t go unnoticed. unwilling to see him flee so soon, whether he had the intention to or not, jin ling closes in. stepping closely -- blade threateningly so edging towards his throat.

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(    *   & .   —   THE  HAUNTING  OF  HILL  HOUSE  SENTENCE  STARTERS

*   warning   :   may  contain  spoilers  for  episodes  one  through  ten .

‘  if  you  were  me ,  you  wouldn’t  be  such  a  fucking  asshole .  ’

‘  the  world  out  there  has  teeth  and  it  is  hungry  and  it  is  stupid  and  it eats  and  eats  mindlessly .  ’

‘  you  listen  to  your  gut .  even  if  it  makes  them  hate  you .  ’

‘  i  am  a  dream  and  so  are  you  and  so  are  we .  ’

‘  you  are  a  looker ,  aren’t  you ?  ’

‘  honey ,  someone’s  in  the  house .  ’

‘  i’m  dreaming ,  right ?  ’

‘  i  just  need  a  little  time  away .  it’s  nothing  more  than  that .  ’

‘  you’re  saying  it  was  an  accident ,  so  you  accidentally  put  your  hand  through  a  mirror ?  ’

‘  i’m  scared .  that’s  all  i  am .  there  is  nothing  else .  i’m  only  scared .  ’

‘  do  you  think  there’s  something  wrong  with  me ?  like ,  really  wrong ?  ’

‘  it’s  alright ,  sugar .  it’s  just  a  dream  —  just  a  screaming  meemie .  ’

‘  we  yield  to  it  or  we  fight  it ,  but  we  cannot  meet  it  halfway .  ’

‘  i  seldom  am  well  behaved .  ’

‘  i  enjoyed  the  conversation ,  but  i’m  gonna  say  goodnight .  ’

‘  did  you  just  punch  me  in  the  boob ?  ’

‘  just  enjoy  me .  i’m  loving  you .  ’

‘  i  wouldn’t  have  changed  a  thing .  i  need  you  to  know  that .  ’

‘  forgiveness  is  warm  like  a  tear  on  a  cheek .  ’

‘  i  loved  you  completely  and  you  loved  me  the  same .  ’

‘  that’s  all .  the  rest  is  confetti .  ’

‘  forgive  a  girl  for  being  lonely .  ’

‘  there’s  nothing  sadder  than  a  cold  bed .  ’

‘  journey’s  end  when  lovers  meet .  ’

‘  journeys  don’t  end ,  not  if  you  love  someone .  they  don’t  end  at  all .  ’

‘  probably  best  you  didn’t  say  anything  to  them .  ’

‘  i’m  asking  you  to  love  me  hard  for  the  next  few  minutes .  ’

‘  i’m  gonna  jump  and  i’m  asking  you  to  hold  my  hand  while  i’m  falling .  ’

‘  i  have  something  that  i  have  to  tell  you ,  but  i  need  you  to  remember  when  i  do  that  i  love  you .  ’

‘  i  wish  i  would’ve  loved  you  better .  ’

‘  pandas  don’t  like  macaroni .  ’

‘  i’m  just  floating  in  this  ocean  of  nothing  and  i  wonder  if  this  is  it ,  this  is  what  death  is .  ’

‘  i  wonder  if  this  is  what  death  is ,  just  out  there  in  the  darkness ,  just  darkness  and  numbness  and  alone .  ’

‘  i  wondered  if  that’s  what  they  felt ,  just  numb  and  nothing  and  alone .  ’

‘  he  was  a  light  in  the  darkness .  he  was  a  life  preserver  in  the  ocean .  ’  

‘  i  reached  for  him  because  i  had  to  feel  something .  i  had  to  feel  anything .  ’

‘  god ,  i’m  so  glad  i  did  it  though .  thank  god  it  worked .  ’

‘  i  felt  scared .  so  fucking  scared .  ’

‘  honestly  i  had  to  do  it  because  it  felt  better  than  feeling  nothing .  ’

‘  that  thorough  fucking  shame  was  so  much  better  than  that  horrible  empty  feeling .  ’

‘  you  have  to  live .  ’

‘  i  don’t —  i  don’t  know  how  to  do  this  without  you .  ’

‘  i  learned  a  secret  :  there  is  no  without .  i  am  not  gone .  i  am  scattered  into  so  many  pieces ,  sprinkled  on  your  life  like  new  snow .  ’

‘  when  we  die ,  we  turn  into  stories  and  every  time  someone  tells  one  of  those  stories  it’s  like  we’re  still  here .  ’

‘  we’re  all  stories  in  the  end .  ’

‘  you’re  supposed  to  protect  me ,  but  you  say  the  meanest  things  to  me  when  i  try  to  tell  you  things .  ’

‘  that  was  really  wild  stuff .  ’

‘  that  was  really  wild  stuff  considering  you  were  asleep  for ,  what ,  like…  ninety-nine  percent  of  it ?  ’

‘  i’m  sorry .  i  should  have  made  more  of  an  effort  with  you .  ’

‘  you  tried  the  best  that  you  could .  i  should’ve  met  you  halfway .  ’

‘  people  fuck  up .  i  guess  you  don’t  get  that  —  you  really  don’t  get  it  until  you  fuck  up .  really  fuck  up .  ’

‘  i  felt…  nothing .  just  nothing .  and  it  spread  everywhere  in  me ,  this  nothing ,  until  i  couldn’t  feel  anything  anymore .  i  was  just  this  dark ,  empty  black  hole .   ’

‘  i  felt  nothing  and  so  i  drank  and  i  drank  and  nothing  worked .  i  couldn’t  feel  anything .  ’

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“where’d you get that bloody nose??”

hurt sentence prompts ⇾ closed.

             a clear as day you should see the other guy  could be heard through each staggering movement;  certain swagger entwined with his stroll, shoulders elated &&  held oh so high. one too many cruel comment directed at him  &&  with each quick-witted reply, clearly the result had come as they were. brawling hadn’t been all too out of the standard for him, even so as the new day brought more rounds of torment. while he had gotten jabbed in the face, jin ling could not let the offender go without as much as a hit. with a tightly curled fist, he’d nearly knocked said bully out cold. 

                               however ..

          he knew he couldn’t say so to his uncle, out of anyone; unbeknownst of what punishment he would possibly face.  rather to save himself from further suffering - he could lie. but .. he hoped it could not be seen through.

                                             ❛  … it’s all fairy’s fault. ❜

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weiwuxiian:

❝Of course! Jiang Cheng is good in a lot of things. Actually, Jiang Cheng is very good. But things like how to cheat in games, how to win a dare while not getting caught, how to find the best foods and wine, and how to hook up with the prettiest girls, no one will claim to be first if I’m second.❞

❛  hook up .. ??  ❜

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shuoshuzhe replied to your post:

jingyi; is genuinely concerned but also wants to just throttle jin ling as well bc gosh, this kid!!

jl be like: “whats this?  genuine concern?  let me deflect because i don’t know how to act with it.”

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weiwuxiian:

WWX vc: Let me teach you things your uncle ( Jiang Cheng ) >>ᑎEᐯEᖇ<< teaches you.

so ... uncle doesn’t know everything? i knew it.