Hey guys! I know I am not on here much, but Iāve been going through so much mentally and emotionally. I just need to vent. So I finally got a full time job, one that should be amazing. It has a bad stigma but itās in car sales. I have the potential to make so much, more than Iād need for bills and such. But then all this craziness happened, and no one is buying anything, so I make no money. I donāt get base pay at all. On top of that I have had to take a leave of absence yesterday because both of my parents are extremely high risk, and itās pointless for them to self isolate if I donāt since I live with them. So yesterday I told my job I had to leave for a while, they were completely understand and what not and my job is not in jeaprody. However, today I found out I wonāt be getting paid at all because my leave doesnāt fall into one of the categories of reason well enough to pay me compensation for this. So now Iām stuck with $400 for an entire month, a bunch of bills, and a sinking feeling in my heart that I may not want this job anymore. With the current situation of things, a job based solely on commission in a world where no one is buying much now, how can I live? Do I want to work for a company that wonāt pay me the compensation I deserve in this situation? I donāt know. I donāt know if my love for the job is enough to keep me going. I had a phone interview for a different job today with a base pay + compensation that seems pretty hopeful. Iām waiting to hear on that. So all of that being said, I am home and safe with my family and only going out as needed for my parents. My days have been spent listening to @taylorswift and binge watching Disney+. But the stress of my job and financial situation isnāt helping keep me calm. I just needed to vent and if anybody would like to chat Iām here! If you read this far, thank you, I appreciate you listening so much ā¤ļø
Wow I need to vent some more. On top of all of this, my MacBook screen just broke and Iām so upset. Iām now not getting paid and have bills upon bills piling up. Now this, either $500 to replace or $1500 to get a new. The only reason Iād consider a new is because I could finance and pay less upfront. But then that leads to yet another bill. This all sucks right now. Everything sucks. I just want to curl in my bed and cry. I was finally starting to get my shit together..