I LOVE LOVE LOVE HIM!!

pfp cred: icekana_ (twt)

[goudere--doe]

Hello, this is my 'obslove' and goudere (extreme/'worship' type) posting sideblog, for me, a John Doe fictive! Just call me Doe, though ^_^

my main is over at @amore-roseae ; I will follow you from there!

in terms of gender, I identify with libramasculine + xenogenders he/they/it 28

Everything in terms of who I am being so obsessive over on this blog is in reference to my beloved husband, Messiah 💚 TWs for this blog: obsessive love, goudere + yandere themes (although i don't view myself as a yandere), talk of SH, intense desires, toxic thoughts, jealousy issues, 'weird' devotion, etc.

DNI: proship, transID, endo/willow/etc. systems, narc abuse truthers, shitty towards Cluster B people in general

[iamparasite]

treat me like a dog, I don’t mind. I want you to see how pathetic you make me, how my knees are bruised just for you. 🖤

[enamouredcarcass]

──── ♡. °·───┈୨୧°.·꒰♰꒱·.°୨୧┈───·°.♡ ─────

What a thrill it is to belong to you, to devote my very being to you. I'm ready to give myself to you in my depraved entirety. I love you darling, I love you.

If I could find them I'd invoke ancient rituals in your name, I'd spill my blood and leave you offerings just to remind you of my adoration.

──── ♡. °·───┈୨୧°.·꒰♰꒱·.°୨୧┈───·°.♡ ─────

[plushdove]

made of love & made to love

[enamouredcarcass]

──── ♡. °·───┈୨୧°.·꒰♰꒱·.°୨୧┈───·°.♡ ─────

i will gulp down your sin, i will relish in it, in the fact that sin was warranted so was it even sin? you are so complex, so perfect, so incomprehensible — everything has a reason, a reason i can see, that i can understand. i know you, your perfection, your faultlessness. i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you

──── ♡. °·───┈୨୧°.·꒰♰꒱·.°୨୧┈───·°.♡ ─────

[idamiann]

I wanna be covered by your name, full of bruises made from you, anything that leaves a mark. a reminder of you

[lunamonchtuna]

— Amal El-Mohtar, from This Is How You Lose the Time War (via lunamonchtuna)

[gouderedere]

[PT: A poem, thus formatting is partially important. "I want to meet you in every place I ever loved. / Listen to me—I am your echo. / I would rather break the world than lose you." PT END]

[hysblade]

Relationship where you're my God and I'm your favourite (and only) follower

[landmineguy-deactivated20250903]

I’ll worship you like god if you’ll let me

[4nd-th3-g0d-w4s-sil3nt-deactiva]

"I want a yan partner! >w<"

Until I cut myself, cause your text seemed too dry for my liking.

Until I get jealous over every single interaction you have with other ppl.

Until I spam you with basically everything 24/7, cause I feel like you're losing interest.

etc. etc...

[goudere--doe]

yes, i view my love as a god, and i worship him, and think he deserves the world and i want to start a cult in his name. what about it

[lacedboxcvtter]

sorry, i think cutting each other is romantic. Do you still want me.

[gvtyoualive]

I get turned on every time youre jealous.

[revenant-coining]

Losergoudere Flags

[pt: Losergoudere Flags]

[IDs: 2 rectangular flags with 17 horizontal lines. the inner 7 lines are straight and the rest are wavy. line sizes in this order from top to bottom: 2 medium, thick, 2 medium, thin, 2 medium, thin, 2 medium, thin, 2 medium, thick, 2 medium. colors in this order from top to bottom and reflected after the last listed color: dark grey-blue, darkish grey-blue, grey-blue, lightish grey-blue, grey, dark grey-blue, darkish grey-blue, lightish grey-blue, grey-blue. in the center of the first flag is a dark grey-blue symbol outlined in light blue. the symbol is a megaphone with 2 hearts next to it. End ID]

Losergoudere: a gendergoudere subterm; a gender connected to losers and gouderes, being a loser and a goudere, loser gouderes, etc.

Etymology: loser, goudere

originally coined here (link)

@radiomogai , @imawanokiwaaa

[ID: a light blue line divider outline in blue. in the center is the google bubble emoji. End ID]

[ruinforme-deactivated20250824]

“Yes, i don’t mind you having other people close to you” me when i lie, me when i am the biggest liar in the world

[isobug]

NPD Gay man / NPD Gay / NPD MLM flag

Made for anon on request, combining the Ocean Gay flag with this NPD flag by @acidkeylime. ( You can use this regardless of what terms you do or don't use for your orientation!! I'm just using exactly what anon sent me for clarity. )

The symbol is optional but is a combination of two Mars symbols and my alternative NPD symbol. Here's a plain version for anyone who'd like to reposition it ( for icons and such!! )

Free for anyone to use anywhere! High-quality files will go up on my Deviantart ( isobug ) if Tumblr compresses these. Ableism will not be tolerated on this post and will be deleted / blocked!

Taglist - @radiomogai, @revenant-coining, @npd-archive, @npdarchive

[angelicpuriity-deactivated20251]

making you a shrine that I pray to every last day and night , worshipping you like the god that you are. <3