GravitySAD

Just wanna sesh and nap 25/8

[pomegranate-prince-deactivated2]

I needed you yet again i find myself alone no friendly crutch to lean on no shoulder to drown with tears i needed you i needed a rock to hold me to keep me from blowing away to ground me and stop the chaos I needed you I needed your love and patience your arms to comfort and console me your hand to help lead mine I needed you the strength you offer to even strangers the effort you give to those undeserved the love you have for everyone else I needed you but you had no time for me no soft spoken words, no sympathy no empathetic kindness even tried I needed you but you cared only for yourself only for your wants your needs only for your ego and id I needed you but i got no one instead

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[trans-girl-nausicaa]

Oh You’re Drinking

Binch Water?

[paleinthenight]

I’m 50% tired 50% sad 

[sunsetquotes]

“People go but how they left always stays.”

— Rupi Kaur; Milk & Honey

[senseitive]

too busy watering my own grass to check if yours is greener

[suspend]

[gravitysad-blog]

Really sick of hurting, how can I make it stop

[0nly-an-illusi0n]

[tokiobordell]

[gravitysad-blog]

Fuck I needed somewhere to write and post this shit... I got cheated on, multiple times ranging from flirty texts to actual sex. Some may not say this all counts, if you need to lie to me then there is an issue with whatever you have done. My heart is fucking aching, I am so angry and so sad and still so fucking in love. I don’t want her to feel bad, or think I’d be better off without her cause the pain of even thinking about losing her is much worse then I feel now... but when I think about the fact that it happened.. I feel so worthless, so lowly, so disgusting... why am I not enough and if I wasn’t then will I ever be? What can I do to be better, to do better... fuck I just want to be happy, I want to make her happy.. but I know I don’t... my heart is aching and I don’t know how to fix this, I want that innocent and naive love i had before I found out she cheated on me. And I don’t want her to hate herself or leave me, I want her to care and I want her to love me, yes I want her to regret what she did and I want to know if she feels like I am someone not worth losing... did it ever run through her mind she could lose me and if it did, was it scary. My brain knows all the awnsers, the actual realistic and not dumb part of me knows that I’m probably overthinking (but maybe I’m not I deserve to feel this way) and my heart just aches when I even think about it, pure confusion and I don’t know... I needed to get that out and this post is everywhere and if she ever saw this I hope she knows how deeply fucking in love i am, how much I rely and depend on her, how much she hurt me and how much I never want her to hurt me again.. how much I would never wanna hurt her.. and how much I want to build a happy life with.. I just don’t know if I can do this, deal with my anxiety’s and feelings .. it isn’t all related to her and I love her relationship, bringing these things up make me afraid she will blame herself.. I don’t want that, I only want her comfort and support, if the issue is her I tell her.. Idk xx