G&B

I'm a twenty eight year-old lad who chose the path to a life of complex roads and myths. Yet, I have decided to breathe, and add a beating of my heart with everything I come to face. I run better when the sky cries as the sun smiles. >>>Please do understand that I'm not like any other

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Just an "anniversary" thing.

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Suddenly felt the need to make a handwritten version of this.

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I feel stupid, bad and aggressive. I know things will eventually happen. It’s inevitable. Fuck. I have to stop myself.

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Oh yeah, I did something bad last 07/19/26

Crazy and confirmatory. Things might get crazier soon. Fuck.

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07/20/2026

It’s a very productive day for me. I didn’t know it was gonna be my day off so I had a lot of fun doing a lot of stuff. I was able to make breakfast, bake things for my friends and jog and hangout with them.

Today is a very nice day.

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I feel stupid, bad and aggressive. I know things will eventually happen. It’s inevitable. Fuck. I have to stop myself.

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I just realized that wanting to decompress through a good drink is drinking alone late in the evening while still trying to achieve a good skin care routine.

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Finally got a haircut

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I feel bloated, ugly and older. With so many things happening, I feel like I’m not taking care of myself recently. So yeah, imma start the positivity again. I need to improve my relationship with myself.

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Sobrang stressful maglipat hahaha tangina

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Bakit ngayon ko lang bininge mga albums ni NIKI hahaha

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Tanginang Cancer ♋️ season to hahahaha reminisce ako bigla ng mga pinagdaanan ko haha. Hayop kasi tong Oceans & Engines ni NIKI lakas makarelapse.

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Bakit ngayon ko lang bininge mga albums ni NIKI hahaha

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Missed making this kind of sht hahaha

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06/24/2026

Lately I’ve been missing all of my friends that I left from home. I usually get to talk to them once in a while but there’s always that longing from that time when everyone could just gather anytime we want. I miss my constant friends way back high school, college and those random people I got to share with. I also miss those friends who I talk consistently even if we haven’t met. The possibility of us meeting in person just got bit more complicated. I wish things could be easier, even though I know it can never be that easy because of this big life choice I made.

This reflection was already foreseen by my past self, but I never knew that during this process it can be a real challenge. It’s not forgetting my previous life though, it’s more on living with this present life I have. Do I wish to go back to my previous life? Not really. But I want to work with my current life to live the life I want.

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"Teka ijajakol ko nga lang muna saglit!"

This is how I cope whenever I get too stressed whenever I get stressed out thinking of a strategy for moving out this July.

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I’m lowkey happy that I’m slowly getting a little less anxious driving. Congrats to you, Matt!

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Notes from yesterday (06/02/26):

It’s alright na nagkamali ka and nothing bad happened. And it’s good that you know why and how you were wrong so you can learn from it. It was an honest mistake. You were just ignorant at the moment. And it’s good cause now you know.

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You've come so far! I'm so proud of you. 🫶🏻

Thank you so muchh 🥹🥹🥹

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Today I got my own car, 05/29/2026.

Damn, this is crazy. I never thought owning a car right now would be a need that really takes me out of my comfort zone. Everything’s just kinda happening so fast that I’m still having a hard time syncing-in. But I really have to go with the flow of this new chapter. Damn, adulting is really a bother.

Btw, I’m naming it “Ági” it’s really just short for “agila” (eagle in Filipino). I really fell in love with this car because it’s really zippy with its awesome engine. I also love how agile it is to drive. So hello, welcome to my life Ági!