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[ Poly sci since 22 ][ she is free in her prison of passion ] Zionists do not interact

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Rather personal poli sci blog that focuses more on my life as a student than studying ~ let's gooo

Next exam: basics of Sociology (aka the exam I flunked in first semester that’s been haunting my narrative ever since)

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Just finished the worst university group work to date. I would have never thought I'd go through such an experience but here I am.

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Haven't used this acc in a whole while bc I've gotten too caught up in aesthetics politics. Thought I couldn't post a study session unless it looks aesthetically pleasing, but the truth is none of them do these days. 🥴

Currently studying for my absolute nightmare exam that’s hung over my head like the sword of Damocles since the first semester bc I've never had the guts to actually pull through with it. First semester introduction to sociology … other people are scared of statistics. I'm scared of the exam that I just have to memorize a lot of information for. I could have it so easy. Make it make sense. I‘m creating one anki set after the other, hoping I'll still get to look at them at least once before the exam in ten days. Also, I should be working on this group paper my group has to finish by the beginning of April, but this exam comes first so I just like to pretend that the paper doesn’t even exist lol

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Was at the book store the other day trying to decide what to get with the Christmas gift card I got. I lend wild dark shore from my library since then so I think I'll go for a cook book. Does anyone have any good recs for Vegan cookbooks?

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19.01.26 —

Photo dump of the month of December. I was busy enjoying the holidays so I kind of went mia here on this acc. Also, I just didn’t study much in general over the winter break. My sister came over and we had a great time as a family. She and her boyfriend gifted me these cute teddy socks. Between the years, I challenged myself to read 8 more books, including this one I got in London last year, to hit my reading goal and I completed that challenge.

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08.12.25 ——

Worked some more on the presentation and read a bit more in the last book of the emily wilde series. I gotta say my opinion on it has waned quite a bit. I set myself a challenge that I want to finish reading ten more books this December so I can finish my overall reading goal for the year. That‘s why I really force myself to read by the end of every day now. At this point, I‘m kind of hopeful that I‘ll achieve my goal. Has anyone here read the series?

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07.12.——

Its the second advent here and my dad finally allowed me to eat some of the jam filled cookies he made today, but only the broken ones lol. The rest has to be saved for Christmas Eve. Eating them and drinking an evening coffee and working on summarizing a part of a paper about ethnic origin and gender based discrimination in German bureaucratic structures on the city level for a group presentation I am in the middle of preparing rn. Also eating this other snack from my organic snacks advent calender.

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06.12. ——

Forced myself to do late night work yesterday. I worked on this internship report that my university asks for in order to give you the credits for the mandatory six weeks internship of my degree. I did the internship months ago and have since been avoiding starting on the report like the plague bc the last time I had to write something for uni, it took a part of my soul with it that I haven’t regained since. But it’s time now. The report needs to be done, so done it will get. Eating waffles from the organic advent calendar a colleague of mine got me a hefty discount for.

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Raise your hand if you have to work on a group presentation over the weekend yay. These tasks are never my favorite but at least I don‘t have to do it all alone again like last time.

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I think I entered a new era. I rid my desk off all of the unnecessary stuff that has accumulated over the recent years and I took down a good 89 percent of all the pictures on my wall and I've just felt this immediate spike to my concentration and willingness to study. It’s astounding. Somebody should study that.

Also, I bought myself a new mug while I went to the bookstore to pick up the third installment in the emily wilde series yesterday. Halfway through the book and I must say I‘m enjoying my time and I love love love the mug 💕

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Haven't been at the top of my game lately but this current semester I only have to take three classes so I'm hoping it’ll get better bc of that. Frankly, I'm kind of over my degree and university. My plan rn is that once I finish my bachelor’s I'll go into a completely different direction career wise. We'll see.

Reading local heavens by K. M. Fajardo rn.

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Things I do instead of studying: edit this stupid quote into the sketch I drew the other day to motivate myself to study. Well, if Mr. Darcy tells me to, I might as well …

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No mr darcy don’t be disappointed in me for my horrible academic performance. Oh wait, Matthew Macfadyen supports a terf, so I no longer care for this image at all

Remind me to change my pfp in the morning

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Genuinely contemplating dropping out of college over these papers what

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Horrible news. Prof just confirmed I have to work quantitatively when I write my paper. Day officially ruined.

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Things I do instead of studying: edit this stupid quote into the sketch I drew the other day to motivate myself to study. Well, if Mr. Darcy tells me to, I might as well …

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Have to do another presentation in three days. I really wish I had a weekend for myself again. It‘s been so long since I‘ve last had a bit of time on my hands. This semester is putting me through the ringer.

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Lowkey beefing with someone in a study group for this one seminar right now. Group work at uni is the bane of my existence. Basically, every week we have to upload something about the course lit, like for example a question, so the prof knows we engaged with the text. We should have already uploaded it yesterday, and for some reason no one in the group was saying anything. Like, none of them send their questions into the group chat so I thought I'd wait a day to see if perhaps they will get the idea themselves. But no, nothing followed. Phone stayed silent. So I text them today. Turns out, one person just didn’t do it at all. Okay. Not okay. Not my responsibility to do the work for them, but what can I do, really? As long as it doesn’t happen anymore I guess. The other person said they would do it now. Okay. Should have technically already done it yesterday but whatever. So I wait some hours. Then they send a question. Asking me if its okay. I don’t understand why they need my blessing. I don’t care frankly. I just want it to be done. It’s not graded or anything. So why would I give a f? But okay, I tell them its okay and they should hand in the questions. They say they will do it. I wait. And wait. Two hours. Its almost zero o clock now. Still nothing has been uploaded. I go to text them. At that extact moment they send me an audio basically saying they’re tired and that they’ll upload it tomorrow. Completely disregarding the fact that tomorrow it’ll be one hundred percent too late. bc the prof will wake up early and when they go to check the uploads and see that ours is missing, they will literally kick us out of the course. And that's it.

Why am I forced to ho through this shit all the time? How can it be so hard to just fking upload the shitty questions like it has been agreed upon. Why did I have to do it at the end still? Why does this need to be a group activity? University explain.