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blame it on my BPD baby

[grmplng]

me: i love you!!!

fp: ✔✔

me, throwing my phone at a wall: WHATEVER!!! i am INDEPENDENT now. i have NO fps. today is a ME day. dont talk to me EVER AGAIN

[7l7l7l7l7l7l7l7]

i always be so hard on myself for no reason like chill tf out bitch we on the same damn team

[pterribledinosaurdrawings]

it’s actually not that cold out right now, I just wanted to draw a mitten being worn incorrectly

[democrips]

fake conversations in your head of you venting to someone

[blandyblaugh-deactivated2018121]

working through trauma by yelling at no one while driving alone

[dandelionpuppy]

validating yourself by imagining situations where bad things happen to people and you save them

[solarpunksoftie]

reinforcing trust in your loved ones by imagining situations where bad things happen to you and they save you

[galaxies-of-apple-trees]

Explaining things to your therapist in an imaginary session

[rootfauna-deactivated20180326]

Projecting all your trauma onto an imaginary character and imagining others comforting them

[strangerinsidethetardis]

Wanting fictional characters to have all the emotional support and physical affection you’ve always wanted

[thatoneanimefangirl365]

Writing a character that goes through the same troubles as you and give them loving family and friends to help them cope

[reveuse-compulsive]

Here a quick explanation about the “maladaptive daydreaming disorder” in a not so perfect infographic. All the informations are based on what I’ve read so far on tumblr, some articles and about my own experience. 

[toastbutteregg]

[etthereal-deactivated20180821]

*slams tiny fists on table*

wheRES MY ATTENTION

[cyber-worm]

[dhawandyke]

My daydreams: *coping mechanism to help me overcome my traumatic abuse and neglect- even if my emotional investment and time spent in them is unhealthy and has become an issue now that it is less necessary to emotionally survive my childhood*

Me: :)

My daydreams: *reenact my trauma in more dramatic, horrible, gruesome ways to make me feel justified in being traumatized by those events or situations, make me realize things i internalized as "character traits" or non-toxic behaviours and reactions that are actually signs of serious neglect and abuse, make me confront the fact i may actually have some level of at least sexual attraction to men but i'm absolutely terrified by it subconsciously and in denial about it because of said trauma*

Me: :(

[This is okay to reblog, but please don't add anything unrelated to trauma, abuse and/or maladaptive daydreaming. Thank you!]

[steviestevington]

[champagne-zaddy]

Oh myyy goodddddddddd

[sirartwork]

reblog for noises

[grmplng]

me: i love you!!!

fp: ✔✔

me, throwing my phone at a wall: WHATEVER!!! i am INDEPENDENT now. i have NO fps. today is a ME day. dont talk to me EVER AGAIN

[bruisedpeachbaby]

me: wow this person seriously hurt me

them: *doesn’t apologize*

them: *acts like it didn’t happen*

me: ❤💓💕💖💗💟 I’m so sorry I was so mean I would die for you

[grmplng]

That bpd feel when your fp jokes about you being annoying

a: SPLIT

b: Suicide

c: D i s s o c i a t e

[fiberglassbunny]

my bed is the only safe place in the universe. everywhere else is too loud and too much!!!

[drawandchill]

Some conseguences of emotional abuse

Feeling guilty all the time

Depression/ anxiety

Lack of self care

Developing avoidant personality disorder or social anxiety

Feeling that is your fault if the other person is angry

Feeling that you are never good enough

Inferiority complex

low self esteem

suicidality and/or self harm

Feeling anxious bc you fear other people hate you for silly reasons.. or no reason at all

Avoiding conflict at all costs

Feeling like a disgusting piece of shit

Social isolation

Fear of saying ‘no’

You stop share things to people and keep everything to yourself

You never stand up for yourself.

[bean-pd]

tbpdfw you need validation for your own feelings to make sure that you’re allowed to feel that way

[grmplng]

Someone: wow you're really mature for your age

Me: thanks, it's the childhood of abuse and neglect that forced me to grow up and learn how to care for myself and protect myself long before a child should have had to