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the angels will return, and when you see the one that's meant to help you, you will weep with joy.

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24 ; star ; any pronouns ; bi ; armenian ; basic dni criteria ; 18+

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british mutual on twitter made posts talking about it being so insane to see people posting 'Come On England!' and then immediately after they lose all they saw were domestic abuse hotlines and how they hated football. something about this just brought me so much doom and emotion today why do women lose in every fucking battle

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ive been in a really strange mood since yesterday but im assuming its because of 1) my period and 2) the fact that i saw a bojack horseman edit to a lana song (it was not in favor or praise of him; 'come on you know you like, little girls...'). it put me in a really odd mindset because i guess these feelings never really do go away. in 2021 when shit hit the fan for me, i had no idea what was what in my life anymore. i had so much to lose and absolutely no motivation to do anything, so i started watching the show because i needed SOMETHING to do. during my first watch, i always thought bojack was a charismatic, charming, handsome, and funny character. some of the things he did were weird, yes, but it didnt strike me as gamechanging. same with other characters in the show who had a tendency to lean towards age gap relationships, despite being 'nice.' i would watch the show while i worked in the backroom of my old retail job, at home, and when i couldnt sleep. it didnt hit me how much of a predator and terrible person bjh was until the end of the show when they laid it all out in detail on the news broadcast callout what he was. i remember having to pause the show and just process because i felt sick to my stomach. i started to understand. so i watched the show again. and again. and again until it clicked to me what had happened to me. what was okay. what wasnt. im not necessarily a sarah lynn per se, but a mixture of characters, which feels even more important to me to be able to relate to so much. in a way, it helped me find solace in not being 'special,' not just in my experience and what happened to me, but with my abuser. if anything, the character i felt the most connected to was probably diane! and princess carolyn.

diane was the first character in any media ive watched that i truly felt captured my experience of what it was like being an immigrant daughter who also wanted to become a writer and journalist, who thought her trauma had to always churn out something special for it not to be just damage. worked bullshit jobs in popular hollywood media only to know that she wasnt doing important work, all while married then divorced in an age gap relationship that moved too fast. but her idea of 'important work' got redefined 5 million times! she ended up becoming a writer for a children's book and felt fulfilled in that way. her happy ending was my everything. its just put me in a weird, weird mood. i know a lot of that is coming for me but it is important to me that young people understand now how bad this really is and can get. im glad i know better now, too, but i have a lot of work to do. idk what im saying i guess i just wanted to type this out

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really enjoying that the witchcraft ive done with minimal herbs and just my self sacrifice and a dream had outperformed anything else i did that didn’t come from my flesh and blood

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i wish it was still socially acceptable to tell people to kill themselves when theyre acting a fool

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ive debated posting about this for a while bc idk but i was listening to afghan music today and just started to cry because i am so deeply saddened by how much our world hates women. i cant believe we live in such a cruel place where women arent allowed to speak in public or go anywhere without a man presence. how are we supposed to go on every day and act normal when the reality is people in our home nations or nearby our regions are actively suffering and not allowed to go to school? i have been haunted by this news for weeks. i dont know what to do or say. all we can do is advocate the best we can

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i tried playing around on procreate and failed soooo miserably lmfao maybe another day

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i wish i was born to a different life. very often

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TWIN PEAKS: FIRE WALK WITH ME (1992) dir. David Lynch

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in that phase of life where people i went to high school with are getting married and im at home all day #ohwow

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im not really jealous because i know some of these girls’ only life goal (as well as their parents’) was/is for them to get married young and have children but how easy must it be to live a life of cognitive dissonance and not have to worry about gender roles and power dynamics… even when i get phone calls from overseas i get shunned for not being married yet bcoz all the elders in my life will say, “you need to get married NOW while you’re still young and stupid because the older you get the less you’ll want anyone!!!!” well yes … ugh i wish this stuff didnt bother me so much or clog up my mind but i really am forced to face these realities every day when im called a chud or told xyz behavior i have will make me unwanted by any man

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in that phase of life where people i went to high school with are getting married and im at home all day #ohwow

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my mom is def a bird and raised me to be one but on my life no matter how much i get called difficult i will break free 😭

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shanks in luffy's memory one piece ; episode 1168