Update
Either things go really well for me then in a blink of a eye it'll go down the shitter. I honestly haven't felt this stressed out ever before. And I'm so sorry you have to be by my side to see this. I already closed off many other people. But I feel like it's for the best UNTIL I get my shit together. (Plus I also really need to lay low for this to happen I hope..) Or it's not, I don't fucking know anymore. I just wish I had my life planned out already. Please let this stay on track. This job and goal is my ticket out of hell. My ticket to happiness. In other words being 21 sucks major monkey's ass.













