tenshi ni mieru sa

LAUREN. 34. CANADA. personal. not spoiler free.

[sweetestperv]

sorry for getting wet just from making out it’s because i’m a slut for you

[sehnsuchtnachmirselbst]

sorry not sorry

[gunsandcarouselhorses]

I can't help it. That hope that arises every birthday that it'll be special. I know better by now. But I just can't help it.

It always ends with sadness and tears and the pain in my chest.

I will never be treated or thought of, like I do others.

I try to cling to happy things, but they feel so fleeting. Easily suffocated by the disappointment.

[gunsandcarouselhorses]

Brokenhearted again. Are we surprised?

It's supposed to be for the best but I already miss you.

Why couldn't it just fucking work out for once?

[gunsandcarouselhorses]

Why am I not enough?

I'm a good person. A good friend. I'm appreciated. But I'm only good enough for single hangouts. I'm the filler friend.

It's all I'm good enough for.

Why am I not worthy of more?

[mothicalspoken]

"am I being annoying" are you aware that my heart is trying to crawl out of my chest to get to you

[gunsandcarouselhorses]

I deserve to be loved.

But no one HAS TO love me.

[gunsandcarouselhorses]

I don’t know if it’s even depression anymore or if I’m just that fucking lonely.

[sarahseeandersen]

[gunsandcarouselhorses]

The mask will always be on. It's getting heavier and harder to wear.

[gunsandcarouselhorses]

If you ever see me happy, smiling, laughing, remember that's only in that moment. You'd think I'm two separate people; you'd never know.

Because I'm so far from okay.

[theamazingmothmanisnotonfire-de]

hey girl you’re reblogging fanart of your comfort ship from 2016 are you okay

[lun4lovegood]

am i looking for validation from strangers on the internet to make me feel better? yes.

is it working? no.

will i keep doing it? absolutely.

[dovesndecay]

i’m okay with fictional men becoming unhinged over the loves of their lives actually 

[bamsara]

tricked myself into drinking water by putting a silly straw in it

[gunsandcarouselhorses]

put a straw in anything and I will down it like nobodies business.

[reinerist]

[thebootydiaries]

me: i'd love to be in a relationship

*is shown any kind of affection*

me: yikes yikes yikes yikes yikes yik

[gunsandcarouselhorses]

I wish the water I'm downing was vodka instead.

Drowning in it would be more peaceful.