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“A poem begins with a lump in the throat.”
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Books To Avoid With ADHD (Pt. 2)
For the 100 people that follow me, apologies for being MIA. I have been in a reading rut recently: nothing has been able to really keep my attention, besides I'm Glad My Mom Died by Jeannette McCurdy. I did an in-depth review about that on my YouTube channel, if anyone is interested.
Anyway, this blog is for books that work, and DON'T work for people with ADHD. So here are some books that just haven't worked for me in the past couple of months.
The Girl on the Train - Paula Hawkins
Before I really get into it, let me say - this woman can write one hell of an action scene. She described domestic abuse as "being underwater," which was extremely effective and powerful--had she only used it once, and not found one metaphor that worked and continued to overuse it to the point where it lost all of its value.
The ending was somewhat predictable. And honestly, her portrayal of the main character, Rachel, was horrendous. She wants Rachel to be hated because she's going through a rough time in her life, and she's an alcoholic, and she's depressed (although her portrayal of depression is also pathetic). But honestly, I felt bad for Rachel.
Also, there were SO MANY comments about how Rachel got fat. Extremely fat phobic book, as if fat = depression.
Took a while to get through. Would never read again.
The Silent Patient - Alex Michaelides
I feel weird putting this book on this list because it honestly kept my attention the entire time, but the ending was HORRIBLE. Like the idea was there...I think? Honestly, to this day I am still very undecided about it. It just had so much lead-up, and it was decently written, but the ending just didn't do it for me.
I really enjoyed the idea. Execution just wasn't there, for me.
Alias Grace - Margaret Atwood
This book just couldn't keep a consistent pace. I couldn't put it down during some chapters, and during others I couldn't read two more words without my eyes glazing over. Keep in mind that I think Margaret Atwood is one of the best writers in present time, but this book was just not it.
But I must mention the hypnosis scene. That scene was fantastically written, and I'd read just that scene before reading any other part of the book. Then you will have experienced the best part of the book without any of the boring tidbits.
The Golden Couple - Greer Hendricks
Honestly this is not a memorable story to me. I read it over the summer, and it just wasn't it. The villain, (spoiler) her husband, was not a realistic villain at all. He was meant to be some sort of twisted masochist, or something, and it just fell flat. No one talks like that.
The portrayal of manipulation and gaslighting wasn't convincing, which ultimately led to this book being on this list.
When the Sparrow Falls - Neil Sharpson
This is a sci-fi novel, and I'll be 100% honest when I say I do not remember a single thing about this book. I remember it took a while to get through, and that there were some good parts--and there was this one long, weird 50 page story near 3/4 of the way through that was horrendous to get through.
Local Woman Missing - Mary Kubica
The ending was such a let down! It kept me entertained--for the most part--but I just wouldn't recommend it. It wasn't all that exciting and I would just spend your time on another book!
Again, these are all my own personal opinions. If you were planning on reading any of these books, feel free! You may have a different opinion than me, and that's okay! :)
Book Banning | An Essay
Banning books is a harmful act of censorship. The idea of book banning is not only an infringement upon the first amendment, but it also disproportionately affects minorities, including LGBTQ+ persons and black Americans. Banning books is old-fashioned, unlawful, controlling, and silences communities most in need of a voice.
PART I: The History
Though the first book ban in the United States is difficult to track, most can come to an agreement that the first widespread book ban was Uncle Tom’s Cabin by Harriet Beecher Stowe, due to Stowe’s abolitionist themes. About ten years after the Civil War, Anthony Comstock, a government official, convinced the United States to pass a law prohibiting the mailing of pornographic materials. But Mr. Comstock’s definition of “pornographic materials” is absolute ludicrious: anatomy textbooks, doctors’ pamphlets concering reproduction, anything by Oscar Wilde, and The Canterbury Tales. And yet, this law passed, and the then-slang term for banning was dubbed “comstockery” due to his influence (Brady).
Then, in the court case, The United States v. One Book Called Ulysses (1933), the judge overturned a federal ban of James Joyce’s Ulysses, which had been in effect since 1922. This book was originally banned due to explicit depiction of sex, though the judge decided that the depiction of sex, even if unpleasant, should be allowed in serious literature. There were numerous court cases following this one, trying their definition of pornographic materials, though it was ultimately decided that these books that continued to be challenged were not pornographic or excessively violent, but they were simply depicting the real world. Yet, there are people today who still struggle with the idea of letting the nation freely read whatever they please, and though many consider book banning to be something of the past, in the year 2021 we have seen hundreds of attempts to ban works of literature due to citizens being unhappy with the message of the book, or even the authors’ sexual orientation and/or race.
PART II: Infringements Upon Human Rights
The same people who threw tantrums over Donald Trumps’ ban from Twitter are the same people who don’t realize, or refuse to admit, that book banning is a form of censorship. The First Amendment provides that “Congress make no law respecting an establishment of religion or prohibiting its free exercise. It protects freedom of speech, the press, assembly, and the right to petition the Government for a redress of grievances” (The White House).
Books that are most targeted for bans typically contain violence, disrespect for parents and/or family, are sexually explicit, exalt evil, lack literary merit, are unsuitable for a particular age group, or have offensive language. Book bans usually take place in educational settings, which is further discussed in PART III, but there are people who attempt to ban books world-wide. Frequently challenged books include Gender Queer by Maia Kobabe, Lawn Boy by Jonathon Evison, All Boys Aren’t Blue by George M. Johnson, Out of Darkness by Ashley Hope Pérez, The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas, among hundreds upon hundreds of others (Meckler). But, typically, books are challenged in the educational setting, as book ban court cases typically only take place on the state and local levels, and are rarely ever upper priorities.
PART III: Schools
In numerous sources, people claim that children’s literature is the primary target for book banning, as many parents want to censor what their children read and learn in the classroom, which is understandable.
But there is a difference between restricting access and banning, as most schools are coming to realize. Banning is not constitutional, but restricting access is. That is to say that school libraries cannot physically remove a book from the shelves, but they can restrict access to it, or require parent permission for the child to be able to read it. However, schools are unable to ban books from notorious/generally accepted authors, such as Mark Twain, J.K. Rowling, R.L. Stine, Judy Blume, or Robert Cormier (Webb).
Another court case, Board of Education, Island Trees Union Free School District v Pico (1982), ruled 5-4 that public schools can bar books that are pervasively vulgar or not right for the curriculum, but cannot remove books simply because they dislike the ideas within those books (Webb). Many people remember that over-told story where one teacher from the south refused to read a book about evolution since the idea of evolution went against the beliefs of the Bible, a prime example of what this law is protecting against.
There’s also the issue of parental involvement in their children’s education. Many parents wish to ban books in the name of being a good parent, protecting their children from the horrors that life will bring them down the road. Is this protecting or just temporarily shielding?
The simple solution is the development of a strong parent-teacher relationship. Typically, teachers do not have much control over the literature chosen, as it must coincide with the education curriculum. But, as long as the teacher is transparent and honest about the material being discussed within the book and the classroom, it shouldn’t be an issue.
Oftentimes, the banning of these books in the classroom, which typically target LGBTQ+ authors/themes, is just a cowardly action to avoid having serious conversations about life outside of the classroom, even though that should be the aim of education in the first place: to prepare students for life after school.
PART IV: Who is Banning Really Censoring?
Banning books silences voices that are the most in-need of being heard. There’s a lot of politics involved in the book banning dilemma. Generically, conservatives move to ban books involving race, sexuality, and gender. But there are also liberals who move to ban books that “marginalize minorities or use racially insensitive language” (Harris), such as the infamous To Kill a Mockingbird, which heavily discusses racism and why society has so much work to do towards equality, but uses racial slurs as is consistent with the time period of this book being written. Recently, a Tennessee school district removed a book about the Holocaust: a topic heavily discussed in history classes, which is paramount for a full understanding about the inhumane actions taken against Jewish individuals.
Most targeted books for banning in 2021 were by or about black or LGBTQ+ persons, according to the American Library Association (Meckler). As previously mentioned, this censorship removes the possibility for discussion and better understanding of topics that are in need of discussion for better comprehension at a young age, such as gender expression, race/racism, and sexuality. The lack of these conversations will only lay the groundwork for increasing bullying, disrespect, violence, and attacks against others.
Homophobia and racism is likely the driving force behind book banning. One example of homophobia playing into the banning of books involves the Mayor of Ridgeland, Mississippi, who had recently withheld funding from the Madison County Library system. “He would not release the money until books with LGBTQ themes were removed,” says the library’s executive director (Harris).
It seems that for every step forward American society makes in regards to gender expression, LGBTQ+ rights, and equality, there are two steps backward, returning to transphobia, homophobia, and racism. Now that these groups are finally able to tell their stories, something that had rarely happened in literature, they are once again being silenced due to a prejudiced political climate.
Book banning should be something of the past, as it does not benefit anyone except the silencers. This form of censorship blatantly defies the First Amendment, as it silences the press and also other communities that have only recently been able to express their feelings and experiences without being met with gruesome repercussions. The banning of literature, especially in schools, will create an unaccepting environment with increased bullying and prejudice, undoing any work that had previously been done for equality rights. Not only does this harm students, but by going through all the motions to get a work of literature banned— a work of art that an author may have spent years of their life on— instead of just having a conversation about the abnormal themes of the book, or the language used, shows that these people are cowards and/or do not understand enough about the content material themselves, which actually shows that these books are a necessity in order to move toward a progressive, educated society.
Work Cited
Brady, Amy. “The History (and Present) of Banning Books in America.” Literary Hub, 22 Sept. 2016, lithub.com/the-history-and-present-of-banning-books-in-america.
Goldberg, Erica. “When Are Book Bans Unconstitutional? A First Amendment Scholar Explains.” Virginia Mercury, 20 Apr. 2022, www.google.com/url?q=https://www.virginiamercury.com/2022/04/20/when-are-book-bans-unconstitutional-a-first-amendment-scholar-explains/%23:%7E:text%3DThe%2520government%2520cannot%2520create%2520laws,such%2520as%2520obscenity%2520or%2520libel&sa=D&source=docs&ust=1653325376487195&usg=AOvVaw0blOVUlZ5bUV0pE0RqoHoO.
Harris, Elizabeth, and Alexandra Alter. “Why Book Ban Efforts Are Spreading Across the U.S.” The New York Times, 8 Feb. 2022, www.nytimes.com/2022/01/30/books/book-ban-us-schools.html.
Klein, Lisa, and Carrie Leff. “Our Book on Puberty Has Been Banned. This Only Puts Kids at Risk.” The Washington Post, 4 June 2022, www.washingtonpost.com/opinions/2022/05/02/our-book-puberty-has-been-banned-this-only-puts-kids-risk.
Mazariegos, Miranda. “Efforts to Ban Books Jumped an ‘unprecedented’ Four-Fold in 2021, ALA Report Says.” NPR, 4 Apr. 2022, choice.npr.org/index.html?origin=https://www.npr.org/2022/04/04/1090067026/efforts-to-ban-books-jumped-an-unprecedented-four-fold-in-2021-ala-report-says.
Meckler, Laura, and Perry Stein. “These Are Books School Systems Don’t Want You to Read, and Why.” The Washington Post, 28 Apr. 2022, www.washingtonpost.com/education/2022/04/28/book-banned-why-locations.
The White House. “The Constitution.” The White House, 20 Jan. 2021, www.whitehouse.gov/about-the-white-house/our-government/the-constitution.
Webb, Susan L. “Book Banning.” The First Amendment Encyclopedia, www.mtsu.edu/first-amendment/article/986/book-banning. Accessed 23 May 2022.
Wikipedia contributors. “Book Censorship in the United States.” Wikipedia, 10 May 2022, en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Book_censorship_in_the_United_States.
Wikipedia contributors. “List of Books Banned by Governments.” Wikipedia, 30 Apr. 2022, en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_books_banned_by_governments.
Circe
Madeline Miller
If you have heard of the Song of Achilles, you have been led astray by booktok! Madeline Miller is such an amazing writer, and it shows in both of these books that she has written. But, this one is just better.
Circe is a nymph who is hated by her family and unknown by the mortals. She does everything she is told, and yet she is still ridiculed by her fellow nymphs and her own father.
She recalls her story involving the numerous men she had met, the ones she had turned into literal pigs, and the birth of her son.
You can literally see the progression of Circe as a character. You can see the moment she no longer wishes to be the victim. When she finally takes matters into her own hands.
I will add, though, there is a scene involving r-pe, so proceed with caution. I will forever recommend this book, though.
It. Is. Captivating.
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You’ve always hated dating and never got any hits. To switch things up, you join a dating app for mythical creatures and gods, you are the first human ever to join and inundated with offers.
The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo
Taylor Jenkins Reid
I got this suggestion from BookTok, which I must say, has been very good for suggestions lately (although The Song of Achilles did not live up to the immense hype it received, but it was nevertheless still good and worth reading).
Evelyn Hugo has had, as the title says, seven husbands. And she didn't kill a single one of them, which was what I went into this book expecting, yet not disappointed whatsoever with the outcome.
This book celebrates the fact that humans are gray. We are not good, we are not bad, we are all a mix in between. Evelyn Hugo is truth.
She was tired of living the lie that Hollywood has portrayed her as, and she reached out to a very non-famous writer to tell her story.
It's a must-read, to say the least. I love the way it talks about Hollywood, the film industry, and fame in general. It's exactly what I needed from a book right now.
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The truth is that monsters are real, and ghosts are real, too. They live inside us, and sometimes they win.
Stephen King (via quotemadness)
Someone you haven’t even met yet is wondering what it’d be like to know someone like you.
Iain Thomas (via thoughtkick)
maybe one day I’ll let you look through all these poems
with your name hidden deep in every line.
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maybe one day you’ll get to see what i thought of you
and just how often i did.
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maybe you’ll think It’s stupid,
how Much i wrote about you.
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or maybe you’ll have something to show me too;
somethIng to make me realize it’s not just me,
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that we were crazy for each other from the Start.
whatever the Start may be,
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because there were a lot.
but i wouldn’t change a thing.
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Yet i wonder,
if we continue tO wait,
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will we grow too different from each other?
what if i see yoU,
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and we’re just Strangers,
with tOo MUCH knowledge
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of each other's pasts?
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Books That Will Ruin Your Life
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A Little Life, by Hanya Yanagihara
This book, which is about 800 pages long, is one of the best pieces of literature I have ever read. It follows four friends after they move to New York City and pursue their goals, but most of the story focuses on one of the men: Jude St. Francis, who has a mysterious past that has wrecked him emotionally and physically. But despite the darkness of the subject matter (and it gets DARK) the acts of love and kindness and friendship from the people in Jude’s life will bring you to tears. It’s a gorgeous study of trauma, human relationships, and the marriage of joy and pain that inevitably comes with living. I read it two months ago and have thought about it every day since. It’s one of those books you want everyone to read and no one to read. (DEFINITELY check out the trigger warnings for this one.)
The Traitor Baru Cormorant, by Seth Dickinson
This book is a sprawling political fantasy, packed with detail and diversity and some of the best, most complex worldbuilding I’ve ever seen. Baru grows up under the shadow of imperialism and eventually joins a rebellion to break free of the empire that has begun to take over the world. She’s also a lesbian, which is forbidden in the new empire, but against herself is drawn to the enigmatic Duchess Tain Hu. There are devastating twists, loves, and heartbreaks that will break your heart along with Baru’s. To say anything else would be a spoiler, but if you like complex, morally ambiguous fantasy, check this one out.
As Meat Loves Salt, by Maria McCan
This book follows a man named Jacob as he slowly falls in love with a fellow soldier during the seventeenth century English Revolution. After the war, they attempt to establish a utopian farming commune and keep their relationship together. This book is a really interesting foray into 17th century England, but it is ultimately a dark, passionate tale of obsession and vindication that will leave you as sick with the actions of the protagonist as he is with himself.
The People in the Trees, by Hanya Yanagihara
This book is written as a memoir of a disgraced scientist, who discovers a hidden tribe in a small Pacific island that he believes holds the key to a longer (and even immortal) life. You almost forget that the events of the book are fiction and not a real memoir–everything described seems meticulously researched and vividly real. As always, Yanagihara’s writing is gorgeous, absorbing, and well-paced. It’s a haunting tale of how science, hubris, and greed can lead to someone’s personal downfall, as well as colonialism and cultural genocide.
The Goldfinch, by Donna Tartt
You might have already heard of this one, but I had to put it on the list anyway! After a traumatic accident kills Theo Decker’s mother, his life is thrown into turbulence and eventual crime, all stemming from a stolen painting. The story is tense, beautifully written, and will make you root for yet another morally gray narrator. For fans of dark thrillers, art history, homoerotic friendship, and/or coming-of-age stories, this one is for you.
Daytripper, by Fàbio Moon and Gabriel Bà
Although Daytripper is a graphic novel, it deserves a spot on this list. It follows Bràs, a Brazilian writer, and his journey through specific turning points in his life, each represented as a “death.” The art is gorgeous and the story flows impeccably, capturing the beautiful mundanities and joys of life. This book will leave you touched, inspired, and deeply affected.
The Vintner’s Luck, by Elizabeth Knox
After a vintner saves his life, an angel named Xas visits him every year for a single night. As the vintner grows, so does their relationship, just like a fine vintage. It’s difficult to say too much about the plot without spoiling the story, but I can say that this book explores the nuances of human relationships and the love we feel for each other, as well as the hate and fear that can pervade those relationships.
Beloved, by Toni Morrison
Toni Morrison is one of the greatest American novelists and Beloved is my favorite of her works. The book follows Sethe, an ex-slave, and her daughter Denver as they reckon with a ghost from Sethe’s past that begins to haunt them more literally than metaphorically. The story is both captivating and difficult to read, but Morrison’s writing is gorgeous and the characters come to life on the page. It superbly explores the depth of trauma and motherhood, as well as depicting the horrors of slavery in a way that doesn’t feel cartoonish or exploitative.
We are all drowning slowly in the tide of our opinions, oblivious that we are taking on water every time we open our mouths.
Jodi Picoult
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A Spark Of Light
Jodi Picoult
Abortion is a difficult subject to have a civilized conversation about, especially when you disagree on the opposing person's perspective. It's easy to see why someone would believe in one side or the other, but everyone believes that their belief is just better, and how could you even think otherwise?
This book brings this close-minded thinking to the spotlight.
It takes place in an abortion clinic, where many women give their perspective on the occurring events of an armed man, storming into the clinic and shooting innocent women.
This story focuses on not one, not "the right" perspective, but all of them. Its purpose is not to change your perspective or beliefs, but to help you understand why others could potentially disagree with you.
Regardless of whether you're pro-life, prochoice, or undecided, I'd recommend this book to every single woman or feminine-identifying individual that I know. No, just anyone. Regardless of your gender, race, background-- read this book.
I was hooked from the first page. This is one of those books that change you for the better.
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We Were Liars
E. Lockhart
A rich family, the Sinclairs, owns an island. There are three aunts, who each have children of their own. One of each of the children are roughly the same age, and become inseparable friends. And, a niece of one of the uncles continuously visits every summer as well, who has an on-and-off relationship with the protagonist.
But, one summer, dubbed “summer fifteen” because of their ages, there was something that happened, that destroyed the narrator’s (Cady’s) memory of practically that entire summer. She remembers something about swimming, but she was alone. Why was she swimming alone?
She tried to keep contact with her close friends from the island after the accident, but they never wrote back. Only when her mother finally let her return to the island, did she receive the answers she had been looking for.
This book destroyed me emotionally and physically. My skin burns from tears, I cried so hard that mucus clogged my throat and ears. I had to stop numerous times.
And yet, I already plan on reading it again in the future.
I was in a reading slump, and this pulled me out of it. I finished it in roughly two days. It’s one of those books that you think about while doing other things. Where you’re doing the dishes, and you think, “I could be reading We Were Liars right now.” It’s a love story, it’s a tragedy, it’s a soap opera. It’s everything. And it’s one of the few books I will ever re-read, along with Looking For Alaska.
I would recommend this to anyone with a short attention span. Anyone. If you need something that’ll keep you entertained, which you’ll actually enjoy, read We Were Liars by E. Lockhart.
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