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26 | Supp Main | ECE | ECT | Music Prod | DLS-CSB

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Michael Cunningham, The Hours

[haciendero]

man it’s been so long since i last opened tumblr and wow im just overwhelmed that people still send me messages damn thank you all for making me feel remembered

im 25 now and im still studying music lmao i think i have a year of uni left if everything goes smoothly and i do have plans of leaving the philippines because i feel like wages here can’t support the lifestyle i’ve been used to lmao anyway hi do people still use tumblr? 

[haciendero]

Screamo, Charlie?

Damn. I’m officially an Electronics Engineer. I thought I would feel great for passing the board exam but it turns out it’s the exact opposite. I still wanna pursue Music Production in Benilde but, like, most of my family members are forcing me to get a job. We all know I won’t be getting a job until I get what I want. I’ve been fighting for shit meant for me my whole life; things that were promised to me. So, this isn’t new. 

When I was choosing a college degree, my dad promised me I could pursue Music after I finish my Engineering degree. That was just the deal: finish Electronics Engineering a.k.a graduate. See? I even passed the board exams for them. Passing the boards wasn’t for my pride. It was theirs. I was just happy for a day because I didn’t disappoint people who were expecting me to pass. 

My parents have hinted that they won’t support my education even though I know they’re hiding a lot of money from me ever since I was a fucking stupid child. My mom even said I need to learn to “sacrifice.” Bitch, as if 5 years of studying shit I never wanted wasn’t enough. I told that in front of her and she shut the fuck up. I would be grateful for their support all these years, you know, if they actually supported what I have always wanted.

Now, I’m just waiting for my stupid cheating dad to step on my dreams so I could finally have my revenge and get what I want. Vengeance and hatred have fueled me the whole period of review for the boards. I ain’t backing down now.  My passion for music has never burned brighter. It’s starting to feel like an all-consuming flame. I already told them my plans in the form of a threat. Seems like the flame they were taming has gone out of their control.

Love always,

Clyde

P.S. I love my mom and sister

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