i love terrible ships

hey i'm halobolts from ao3. you can call me grace or halo. she/her. talk to me about tiny fandoms and villain ships

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tired: don't write dark fanfic because you might romanticize unhealthy dynamics

wired: don't write dark fanfic because seven years later you're writing far darker original fiction and you mention to your parents that you wrote a really problematic fanfic in 2019 that got popular and then infamous for its clumsily ambiguous take on a coercive relationship that led to you getting called out, suicide baited, and cancelled before you eventually left the platform and now your real human 70 year old father keeps asking to read your teenage lego movie fanfic

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revisiting the strong must protect the sweet is like... on the one hand, i was 17/18 years old and going through several major life upheavals and traumatic events while i was writing it and coped by getting way too emotionally invested in the story and then had to dip out of tumblr because of the harassment to the point where i still can't watch tlm2 and that is definitely reflected in the tone and events of the story...

...and on the other hand, it's like, "oh shit, maybe my 17 year old self was cooking, actually."

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on the other hand i def didn't handle those topics with the sensitivity required and in my quest to make emmet and rex's relationship ambiguous, i fear that it read more as "this is consensual because the author thinks it is" vs "emmet is trying to tell himself that it is consensual bc the alternative is worse," which came from what i had going on at the time. lotta regrets surrounding that fic and what happened re: the fandom. but. not much i can do but move forward.

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anyway the wasp au book is going really well

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revisiting the strong must protect the sweet is like... on the one hand, i was 17/18 years old and going through several major life upheavals and traumatic events while i was writing it and coped by getting way too emotionally invested in the story and then had to dip out of tumblr because of the harassment to the point where i still can't watch tlm2 and that is definitely reflected in the tone and events of the story...

...and on the other hand, it's like, "oh shit, maybe my 17 year old self was cooking, actually."

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

new fem lucemond fic. hope you guys like it!

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hope you're doing well writer <3 i saw you privated some of your pieces and wanted to toss a message your way. i really enjoy your writing and i hope everything is alright with you!

hey, thanks for checking in. everything is fine (work on ganymede and slash and burn is coming along, albeit slowly). i privated WASP AU because i'm actually trying to mold the two of them into an original thriller! obv a lot of changes have to be made, and it will take a long time, but i don't want to run into any legal issues/have someone copy the old versions and spread it around if i ever get it published. if i don't get it published, they'll go right back to being publicly accessible! i appreciate your support, and i love your writing as well!

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Just want to say how I really enjoyed Quality Time! <3 Thank you for your hard work! Your WASP AU was great.

thank you for this message! i've been in kind of a bad spiral lately about my writing, and the fact that you took the time to write this message means a lot.

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yeah i can write multiple stories! here we have quality time, quality time europe edition, and quality time girl edition!

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so yeah i'm working on a modern au fem lucemond kidnapping story

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yeah i can write multiple stories! here we have quality time, quality time europe edition, and quality time girl edition!

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i write a whole line in quality time calling out how you can't get clubbed over the head without brain damage, and a year later i'm writing a fic where luce gets clubbed over the head and is fine. i may be a hypocrite

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hey! I was just re-reading quality time and was again left speechless in awe and horror. And I just keep wondering so I might as well just ask. You're free to not answer ofc. Is there any chance of luke and aemond meeting again? Like.. just seeing each other or will their families do anything to keep them apart now that all that shit has happened? In the fic aemond mentions the family reunions but will rhaenyra or alicent allow that to happen? Like will they invite aemond? That would be awkward lol and I'd love to be a fly on the wall if such an event comes to pass 👀 also I feel like now that luke has been through the things aemond has forced him to, he's now more liable to be attracted towards aemond. I mean who else will understand him or know what it's like to be through such an experience. Now they are linked in such an intrinsic way that it'll be very difficult to stay away.

I always imagined it to be like.... maybe after a year or two luke will be healed enough to maybe send aemond a letter and they talk and maybe tentatively luke agrees to call him after a few months and aemond is also at a RELATIVELY better place (he's had some time to think his actions through) and maybe when aemond gets out early Luke's the only one he tells in hopes they could meet and whether luke will show up or not that is up to him.

Idk. Did you have in mind any ending for them? I'd love to know it. Also, thank you for sharing your writing with us. I read your lesbian lucemond and just 👏💯👌 I hope you're doing well xoxo

hey!! i'm actually planning to release a little piece about luke meeting aemond after he gets out of prison, as part of my wasp au epilogues! i don't want to spoil anything, but i will tell you that family reunions are absolutely chaotic after aemond gets out. jace is giving aemond a death glare across the table, alicent won't talk to luke, rhaenyra keeps bringing it up like, "oh, is the food better here than in prison, aemond?" aemond wore a tank top to show off his knife scar. luke wants everyone to stop staring at him. viserys just wants everyone to make it through dinner.

one thing i do think is no matter what, their fates are linked. aemond made sure of that when they killed hugh and ulf together. they have a secret– they know something about the other that's too shameful and wonderful to ever tell anyone else. but it's isolating, and only time will tell whether they pretend to be normal or lose control altogether.

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i'm alive! take some lesbian lucemond

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imagine being able to write

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I have a question was does wasp mean like wasp au ?

WASP stands for White Anglo-Saxon Protestant, and (in my experience) refers to New England old-money socialites. A lot of country clubs, ski trips, cocktail parties, that sort of thing. Financially well-off and snobby, but not too overt about it, because they want to seem refined. It's a culture that I grew up adjacent to, so for fun I stuck the Targaryens into the setting for "the horror of seeing your family, and then that spiraled into quality time and the epilogues!

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have resorted to making memes about ganymede instead of writing

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did you like quality time, but wish luke and aemond made it to canada? boy do i have the fic for you!