[hanaloa]

'They all wish so dearly to be loved but none of them want to be seen while searching.'

from Pelothea (revised)

[hanaloa]

'Maybe you were just better at goodbyes than me. Knowing how kind your heart is 'better' is probably the wrong word. Perhaps the right word choice is more'efficient'.'

[hanaloa]

'Letting go has been easy work compared to trying to forget how much you are missed here.'

from Pelothea (revised)

[hanaloa]

‘And when you are prepared to put at risk losing those whom you hold dear,

to maim with a thousand tiny cuts,

delivered by misspoken words and many thoughtless small offenses,

… it seems only then that you are ready to love.’

[hanaloa]

she and I abandon all safety when my lips trace her collarbones this can't be what love is like if it feels like ignoring speed limits on highways

- from Pelothea (revised) (2026)

[hanaloa]

back on your sofa of course I still care love's never wasted when it's shared

[hanaloa]

‘Perhaps love feels like humiliation All because part of me knows I won’t ever be fully ready, and all there is to do is try my hardest and be the gentlest possible at all times. Perhaps the other part of me remains frustrated at the knowledge that the outcome is only ever partly in my hands.’

[hanaloa]

Christian you say

And yet the fruits of your faith

Are a small table

A tongue quick to cast judgement

And high walls around your life

Curious I wonder

What Christ you know

And whether we both know the same one.

[hanaloa]

it'll do u some good to finally get it into your mind kid don't matter what you dress like or how u speak they ain't ever gonna like you cause of what you look like simple as that

[hanaloa]

Demand for my trust has been going up because unfortunately supply has been forced down lately I can’t lie 

[hanaloa]

If compassion is what paints memories of my company

Long after I am gone

Let it be known I consider it life lived well

[hanaloa]

is sorrow not something deeper than a bruise?

[hanaloa]

maybe if I saw less of you in my dreams I’d be happier to see you now

[hanaloa]

Perhaps love is as simple as choosing who you want to share your most intimate joys with

And in time

Whom you will allow yourself to be hurt most deeply by

[hanaloa]

I allowed my heart to grow hard in a season of life it needed to protect itself And now it need be hard any longer, well Look how helplessly I observe I am unable to be soft again

[hanaloa]

revenge's consistency is mortally hollow yet I could only study its properties close enough to realise when I held it in my hands

[hanaloa]

'coffee?' becomes a simple excuse to see friends these days, each smile and laugh and conversation slowly chips away at the stone growing to envelope my heart

my head demands solitude from me, but I know now what's good for me and it is to surround myself with these beautiful people

I realise now that they are the respite I prayed through tears for so long ago