[handoferis]

basically im eris

my life sucks but wimmin in my phone make it not suck

if you feel inclined to help - my wishlist is here or my cashapp is $gildedapple 🤍

ok so a little about me, im a bi woman living in michigan currently going through a divorce from my wife of nearly 8 years... you can filter those posts with #divorce.txt so you can opt in or out as you please, because of course those posts are going to be triggering as they come. i was working on a #dh (dental hygiene) degree, something im very passionate about but i have to put that on pause as i figure something else out to get out of here faster...

when i can breathe i absolutely love watching cartoons like beavis & butt-head, invader zim, koth. i like drawing and painting w/ watercolors, journaling, flipping through one of my zillions of wikipedia tabs. trying to get better about reading.

i quit drinking alcohol on 11/02/2023 so if sobriety is something you're even semi curious about that's definitely something i can talk about sometime. if you want my discord just ask 🩷

thanks for reading!

[handoferis]

heya so i remade but obviously for infosec reasons i cant reveal my url :') but you'll likely recognize me when ya see meeeee

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SHE KNOWS

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she was like sniffling and crying all day yesterday and she said it was because of her old therapist that she hadn't seen in years died of brain cancer and that just... seemed odd. a little sadness sure but sobbing for hours?. so i did peek at her phone over her shoulder a bit and saw that she was 1) talking extensively to someone on messenger and 2) scrolling on something suspiciously tumblr-like / lavender themed (like my current blog.) its not great but yes i did try to unlock her phone after she fell asleep to see her history, she changed the unlock pattern though and it MADE A FUCKING ALARM GO OFF ON HER PHONE and woke her up and shes like "What's going on (Eris)🙂" in this like deranged, knowing tone. So i just said "nothing" and gave her back her phone.

stbx- why were you trying to get into my phone?

me- you know why. to check your history. your messages.

stbx- but why? you blocked me from your tumblr <- random as fuck

me- 🤨 (neither confirming or denying it)

stbx- what the fuck is on your tumblr? (already looking it up) (way too calmly for supposedly new information) oh... so is that a... permanent change you want to make?

me- no! no, i want us to separate and work on ourselves.

stbx- okay 🙂 can i have some of the gfm money for going to my friends house and getting fast food?

me- what the hell is wrong with you?! NO! thats not what its for!

stbx- why not? you dont need that much money to travel. who's doing your itinerary, are they retarded? just take a greyhound.

me- no. The answer is no.

stbx- k. do you wanna do couples therapy virtually?

me- sure that sounds fine.

stbx- okay cool.

and then that was like... it. im sure theres going to be more craziness as the days go on (5 more days holy piss) but um yea def about to move blogs. sad, i like this url. but ummm what the fuck lol

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SHE KNOWS

[handoferis]

Im like if someone who always got treated like small potatoes was big potatoes

[dogpuppy]

[rherlotshadow]

Another ruin of another mill in a wooded gorge in Lot, France. Moss and mill stones.

[pam3pr]

Grand Island Ice Caves, Michigan 1978

[handoferis]

acting like stuff is normal around here is getting harder and harder though. Like local people keep trying to make plans and I have no poker face, I get awkward. It's telling. And then its like the fuck am I gonna say to the STBX day of though. Ummm so my uber is here and I'm grabbing up a ton of my stuff cause I'm moving in with my friends 2,000 miles away from you cause I reallyyyy didn't like that time you woke me up out of a dead sleep cause you went through my phone and you were yelling and calling me a whore. Yeah. Yeah and I know you're disabled and your life is easier with me but like. You should have thought about that before you violated my privacy and said mean things. Um. Bye

[handoferis]

I can't begin to tell y'all how much the puppygirl thing parallels my divorce it was an insane read, just the way that simple tasks just don't get done, sex i dont wanna have, can't talk to her about anything cause no matter what she perceives it as an attack/fear of loss so i have to spend time reassuring her instead and nothing gets done or is solved. My wife is not a trans woman though or a puppygirl so at least there wasn't that aspect of it

[gravitcat]

a thing for mermay i guess

[rabiesofficial]

I added the tortured one to my island

[antiyourwokehomophobia2]

God putting me on earth

[handoferis]

i hate the dissonance between my appearance and my personality lol. being someone who looks very feminine and gets constantly described as a "gay little fairy" and stuff like that just because i can be whimsical and find joy easily, but being someone that grew up on a chicken farm (and therefore has butchering experience and is unphased by gore), swears like any sailor, has thwarted muggings & knife attacks no problem, can't drive yet but desperately wants to learn to drive, and also wants to learn to repair cars so i can maintain them... and then of course the XYs just think i say these things to impress them, when they see it in action they absolutely SHIT themselves at how tough i truly am. like, yea? women are human beings just like you? lol

[modogoblin]

[diehellasrache]

I think I'm going to remember this phrase every time I cook for the next five years

[handoferis]

asks shatjipiti how to talk to my wife about separating

[handoferis]

ONE WEEK until i leave this address... it's really real im gonna explode