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its not enough for my mom to be dead i need every memory of her gone

i cant usually remember the negative moments of my life, its like a weird barrier in my brain specifically blocks them out so i can remain completely unbothered and happy

so when i am truly saddned and broken down like now, why must this barrier disappear and flood my brain with every memory i've suppressed

#why did my mother have to be actually evil

i hate fucking fighting off an eating disorder i told myself id never have

#mother spent my whole childhood trying to ruin my relationship with food #and now in the end shes won #i cant fucking eat anymore #i havent eaten in days #i just cant do it anymore #i see the bloating after i drink even water and i want to cry #i have to lose so much in order to escape diabetes #so its not even a visual issue #its from my doctor #i want to be healthy again please #but why is it happening this way #im losing my job over this #i hate her so much i know shes smiling in hell right now #knowing she finally won and her daughter finally hates herself

think my phones starting to croak on me

im so so mad i hate it here, i stayed late last night despite already being exhausted to restock my cart and have it ready to go for the next day (context i have had REALLY rough times starting my rooms in the morning because my carts always been empty, leaving me to waste my first four hours on 1-3 rooms out of 9-13) and have no morning setbacks

what do you mean i come in and someone has stolen everything off my cart.

now ive been sitting in this same room for 1 hour with no progress because I HAVE NOTHING. I CANT DO ANYTHING. NOW THEYRE GOING TO YELL AT ME FOR HALF ASSING THE OTHER 10 ROOMS BECAUSE IM RUSHING TO DO THEM ALL. maybe dont steal my shit AND I WOULDNT HAVE THESE PROBLEMS

im going to acc cry, in fact i did cry already and then i played genshin for 20 min because i cant do anything i have no rags to clean, i have no sheets for beds, i have no towels for bathrooms, and the dryer cycle isnt done for another 30 min so im gonna play even more genshin.

drink-bread

Kasane Teto, in light of recent events

ok joining the discord might have been my best idea to date

#im crying i seen the cutest fanarts so far #and my eettthaaaannnn has a fanbase

myankleissprained

Being ignored over text especially in a group chat is so embarrassing like Ok FaceTime me right now we can have a group reaction to me swinging from the ceiling

#im hollering wth

damn bro idk

IM SO SICK OF BEING JESTER

what bozo requests room service at 2pm go stub your toe and eat a dorito sideways you muddied tissue

everything i learn abt the philippines convinces me further its not real

#WHAT is going on over there

i just wanna have a lil talk with whoever set their hotel room temperature to 28 degrees on a 21 degree day

#why the FUCK is your room hotter than the sun outside #dont pmo

applying for artist role in mafia discord server

kinda nervous

#what if rhey slime me out for my ethan ship

kayscloudymind

the concept of vocaloid fans being so insanely racist towards one of the most exciting up and coming underground rappers that the very talented producer behind fujo miku and mikumiku beam revealed that he’s black