I keep myself busy, but everytime I pause... I can't help but think of guppy. I miss him so much. I miss his singing in the morning on his way to work, I miss his cheesy looking surprises, I miss video chatting him. I miss him so much. I tried liking others, i tried meeting people. I still miss him. Maybe no matter who I end up with. He will just be the love of my life. I wish I was mentally healthier and stronger when I was with him. I wish I had treasured myself a lot more. I wish I know how to communicate better. I wish he knows I gave him my heart and soul. My heart still yearn for him but... just but.....











