gives you positive ptsd and whenever something reminds you of me you start to get happy and smile against your will no matter how much you try to avoid it. in fact it only gets better if you try to avoid it.
your ability to trust others skyrockets. you become unable to withdraw from others. people often notice that weird look in your eyes where it looks like you're looking directly at them and you're completely mentally there and in the moment, moreso than they could imagine anyone else being. you suffer from hypovigilance and feel like something good is about to happen all the time.
