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i feel like i know her but sometimes my arms bend back

[haretic]

Present Day; 18/06/24 | Present Time; 10:57am

apostate

she/he & 19 :: names are made up, so make one for me

This blog acts as my diary/personal media archive and a place for me to post about my interests and thoughts freely

May get weird and introspective. Girlboydom and ur fav local psychic spellcaster and occult non-expert. Animal motif poster.

Post ironic autistic filmbro, mysterious internet deity and female hysteric. I like emo and hxc. Studying anthropology, so talk to me like a human or i will be able to tell.

I have a lot of other interests I may post about at times. Things will be tagged to keep some semblance of organization (if I remember to)

Sociopathic borderline. I like talking to people, but I get tired easily. Message at your own risk, but feel free to do so. Interesting and original people will get a response.

Don't get your hopes up.

I post mild NSFW sometimes, but I am not an NSFW blog. Minors pls DNI with these posts. I will block you.

[haretic]

i dont have to live in fiction now that i have you

[saltedume]

[haretic]

i don't know what i could've done to make people like me better. maybe they didn't like me from the start, maybe the whole time they were thinking of ways to get rid of me, but i wish this would stop happening.

every time i think things will change, think they'll be different, they never are. every time i think that i've found my people, i never truly have.

i feel like i'm over-optimistic that i'll ever figure out where i fit in, because two decades in i still haven't, and i still keep trying.

maybe i'm stupid, for ever thinking i could have the life and relationships everyone else has. i think that that has to be the case. i must clearly be suffering from some sort of ineffable braindeadedness that i'm too much of an idiot to even notice, but to everyone else indicates i'm not suitable to be around, like a big red warning signal that flashes above my head that i haven't had the idea to look up and see.

or maybe i did something to deserve this, but i don't know i could've possibly done to be so alone. nobody reaches out, nobody thinks to care for me, even though i'll do everything i can to care for them in the hopes that maybe, just maybe, things will be different. they never are.

[haretic]

boyfriend is taking me to snoqualmie soon to go look at all the twin peaks shooting locations and hes been watching a couple episodes a day to try and finish the show (or at least be far enough along he understands where we're visiting in relation to the show) before we go.

Ladies, never settle.

[patronsaintofweepingmothers]

"angels" (2004), ian sanderson

[haretic]

nipple piercings and modest clothing because i'm secretly a massive pervert ‪‪❤︎‬

[sendmeyourflowersindecember]

[feelingsoftheday]

i choose you over and over, and every time it gets easier than before.

[haretic]

I CAN'T FUCKING SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[threumorkt]

[rubiharts]

[haretic]

i wish my boyfriend knew how to braid hair. i wish he would braid mine. i think he'd be good at it. and i also just like having my hair done but don't want anyone but him to touch me.

[b0ttleb10nd]

[niitroglycerin]

i hate learning new things from the beginning. why am i not immediately good at this ? why should i need to learn? Is this reflective of my overall worth as a person? if i do not pick it up quickly does that make me a useless and worthless idiot? and the answer is Yes

[haretic]

I want more mutuals,

I'm a fan of both Davids (Bowie and Lynch), and a massive Twin Peaks enthusiast. Also a big fan of similar movies or shows, such as X-Files, Alice in Wonderland, Crash, Like Minds, the Passenger, and am especially a fan of Fight Club. I like hardcore music and also have a soft spot for emo and pop punk. Circa Survive is one of my favorite bands. I read, I watch movies, I have mental illness and I get incredibly introspective and write long paragraphs about it on here. I have issues and I like hares, and vampires, and nature. I'm studying anthropology, which is just a glorified reason to be nosy, and i like to read other peoples deepest thoughts and desires and sadnesses, and post a lot about academia when I'm not on break. Overall I'm just a very odd girl with a lot more assorted interests.

If you'd like for me to orbit your solar system. let me know. Also, send me asks.

[girltalk]

July will be filled with joy.

July will be filled with love.

July will be filled with trust.

July will be filled with peace.

July will be filled with clarity.

July will be filled with miracles.

July will be filled with blessings.