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Can never shake this feeling of sadness and wanting to go “home” even when I am home. Idk what home is tbh 🥲

Thinking of deleting most of my social media apps. Not tumblr bc I have no moots on here lol but I’ve been chronically online since MySpace and MSN days, and there is a genuine fear of cutting this out of my life bc it’s been such a huge part of it. I love memes and I know so much internet lore but what is that actually bringing to my life? I checked my ‘social’ folder on my phone and why do I have 14 different apps for ways that people can contact me?? Like that’s genuinely insane and no wonder people get overwhelmed with staying in contact with people. This isn’t natural to have SO much access to each other.

I might do it gradually idk yet but I think TikTok and Twitter need to go first as they are both the most triggering and brain rot central. I’ve learnt a lot from them but the time wasted on them out weighs that. The only ones I want to end up with is discord, tumblr and maybe fb or insta but I’m unsure even on those bc they still have reels. I would have to do a clear out on my friends list bc I don’t want strangers on there I wanna be private.

I’m nervous but that just shows how bad the addiction to social media is. I’m tired of living my life through my phone. I’m tired of how people treat friendships on social media as it’s so easy to cut people off or be mean bc it’s behind a screen/keyboard. I’m tired of how influencing things are, how every-time you log on you have to question whether something is real or not, all the ads being pushed in our faces every 2 scrolls!! This is one of the reasons I let my online business die, apart from the burn out, but I hated how every-time you log on people are trying to sell you things and so I didn’t want to contribute to that.

This is the other thing my degree is in film and media. A lot of my jobs have been social media, or promoting on socials so I think that makes me nervous to disconnect from that but tbh I don’t really want to be in that line of work anyways. My nervous system is so fried that I can’t work anyways and I guess if I ever wanna come back to il pick it up if I don’t it’s not meant to be. But until things change on the internet it doesn’t align with me rn so it wouldn’t be right.

It’s time to detox and if I lose touch with the world and its events then so be it lol but at least il be living my own events and there is always google 😂

#digital detox #social media detox

Hail Hekate! 🖤

#hekate

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I’m actually repulsed by this last episode of euphoria.

In fact this whole season 3 is kinda gross. Reposted something I genuinely was already thinking but this creator hates women bc wtf is this shit?? Real weird perverted guy for sure.

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For a show whose third season is so heavily focused on sex workers, this Sam Levinson guy verrrrry clearly has no fucking respect for women working in the sex industry. In fact, I might label it a genuine hatred at this point

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It’s extremely fucked up that some ppl try to make you feel stupid and immature for hoping for a better world. You say you want world peace and mfs think you need a pacifier; dawg, I just don’t want ppl dying from violence. This idea that ppl simply must die as casualties of war is misanthropic to say the least.

I can understand why some people get spiritual psychosis bc sometimes il be reading shit and feel insane for believing it 💀 and like when you look up the symptoms of psychosis it’s similar to what in the spiritual community would call epiphany’s or ego deaths or enlightenment etc