Ona

we'll be a fine line, we'll be alright

[hautetae]

hi everyone, i'm ona

a little bit about me:

- i'm 17, currently doing my A-Levels's (well sort of they're cancelled so I now have assessments between may-april😫)

-ethnicity: bangladeshi (any desi mutuals here let's be friends👯‍♀️)

- kinda depressed, just want to talk wwithout acc talking

why am i making this blog?

ummm well this is horribly embarrassing of me but this is an appreciation blog of...small things.Especially with the pandemic, I feel we turn a blindside to the little things that once would have made us happy because we're stuck in this dark place, likewise myself(oops). so this is my coping mechanism that i hope will benefit me but also anyone reading this, even if it's seeing an aesthetic photo of a neatly-arranged meal or a little quote to reflect on, I hope to make your day just a lilll better.

well that's the basics of me, I hope we get to know more of each other from now on and we can be friends?

sending my love to everyone here, and if you had a bad day today i'm sorry for that 😔, but just so you know it'll all get better someday

-> if you need someone to just listen to you when you feel no one else is, i'm here for a chat anytime💓it's better to talk it out with someone rather that harbouring that bad feeling within you-you're too precious for that!!!

[hautetae]

hi everyone, i'm ona

a little bit about me:

- i'm 16, currently doing my GCSE's (well sort of they're cancelled so I now have assessments between may-april😫)

-ethnicity: bangladeshi (any desi mutuals here let's be friends👯‍♀️)

- me gusta mucho BTS y Harry Styles (please excuse my spanish it's rough but I love speaking it (brokenly)- it's one of the most beautiful languages out there)

why am i making this blog?

ummm well this is horribly embarrassing of me but this is an appreciation blog of...small things.Especially with the pandemic, I feel we turn a blindside to the little things that once would have made us happy because we're stuck in this dark place, likewise myself(oops). so this is my coping mechanism that i hope will benefit me but also anyone reading this, even if it's seeing an aesthetic photo of a neatly-arranged meal or a little quote to reflect on, I hope to make your day just a lilll better.

well that's the basics of me, I hope we get to know more of each other from now on and we can be friends?

sending my love to everyone here, and if you had a bad day today i'm sorry for that 😔, but just so you know it'll all get better someday

-> if you need someone to just listen to you when you feel no one else is, i'm here for a chat anytime💓it's better to talk it out with someone rather that harbouring that bad feeling within you-you're too precious for that!!!

[hautetae]

i made this blog 6 months ago

not knowing what my life would be like now

well, here's what;s changed:

- i'm 17 next week fuckkk

-i'm doing a-levels and legit im stressed like already i have exams wtafff

- no, i dont like bts or harry anymore , kinda sad about it but ohh well :/

-i hate spanish rn

[hautetae]

summer holiday update

as i have made it very clear, i am having a very wavy summer- lots and lots has been happening both good and bad

two weeks ago was the euro finals.

england vs italy

1-1

penalty shoot.

italy wins

and that's when i felt shitty as ever

u see i would never have thought i would become such a football fanatic, i cannot lie i am very much embarrassed i have had such an emotional attachment to the football and even the fucking players

i kid u not i was in a depresso mood after we lost, i had loved the team so much it may as well have been the most perfect english team we had

i wanted england to have the opportunity to prove other countries wrong that we were as good as them, maybe stretch to say we were the next germany and portugal

and then luck came in

it was a fucking dirty match i hated how we ended the match on a penalty

anyways good for italy for winning, but on another note i am proud of my players they have done so well💕

saka,sancho and rashford u guys did your very best, i may have been angry at rashford because it was open goal, but he didn't deserve the hate whatsoever

i guess we close the chapter on football now,but i'll see hopefully most of the boys in the worldcup next year xx

that was sunday-let's go through my week

acc before, i went to E's house for a silent disco and i loved it very much- sucked that i was on my period :(( and stained my pants but thank the fuck lord cold water is the solution to stains, btw U cringes me at times, she legit wanna be drunk all the time- girl who's hurting u that bad

she's now away and i'm sad i didn't meet up with her before hand, she's most deffo annoyed at me for that but i hope to owe it up to her

i've also started a new show: sex and the city!!!

ok so i binged watched 90% of s1 in one day because theepisodess are like 20 mins long- how blooming short

but now i'm on a slow and i don't have a 🍀feel🍀 to watch it

i might watch it tonight

i met up with A,my childhood bestfriend who's stuck with me thanks to our mums being besties- isn't that so sweet

we met up at her house and I met J, she's cool and i liked her- i guess a part of me wished i was like her but only slightly, i'm mine own bitch and thats on periodt.

i'm going to meet her sometime this week hopefully but i have quite a bit going on this week

and then me and S went to brick lane and lemme tell u that was the bestt shopping trip ever, liek i have bought so much but that was the best one i had gone to in my opinion becuse of the thinsg i got.

i found a custo barcelona top for £20 and i just fell in love with it, it's funky but i just have such nice vibes with it (i'm listening to kali uchis and it just adds to this sweet spanish summer i want)

and then i got this takashi murakami cherry blossom louis vuitton bag

woooo what a mouthful BUT TRUSTT it is the best thing i have bought and thats on period

the last thing i have was uhm well ✨free✨- juicy couture pants

me and S are matching in the drippiest thing ever isn't that so cool

best day ever

i honestly felt like carrie bradshaw, with my obsession with clothes and just acting rich and fancy and boujee, when really i am broke as fuck ahhhhh

its now a fucking heatwake and im going to melt why are england houses so ARGHHHH- at least i have wooden floors and rn im in the coolest room in my house

so i guess i have spoken about all the positives in my summer, but my life just doesnt become anymore perfect with problems

.especially family ones

my dad this summer is just so irritating his mind is just not right

my gran has covid,and just yesterday night she went into icu

with all due sympathy and prayers, i don't feel anything for her mainly because i had such a distant relationship with her howeveri ever wish for anyone to pass away

that of course has mentallyt captrivated my dad- and when i sayhe has become mad he is madd

[hautetae]

i'm back and i'm sorry (pt 2)

*the previous post was too long so im breaking this up

so here i am, i decided to dress up and look pretty i mean i tried i feel say 4/10 from -infinity/10 so i guesss that's an improvement

the football's in 2 minutes so i'm going to watch it

acc its started now ahhh let's go switzerland

ok now i'm a 5/10

it's so hard to type in acrylicvs honestly but i love them they're o pretty instead of my over-bitten short nails

always the small things in life make me happy teeheee

from this post, i'm bot sure what im going to do from here, but i want to enjoy rn watching the match

to anyone out there i do love you

[hautetae]

i'm back and i'm sorry

to this wonderful tumblr account i was so determined to post everyday- i'm sorry

i'm sorry for leaving you alone- this was meant to be an account to find fics, but now i don't read anymore because a) i ain't horny anymore b) i simply have lost the interest

and therefore i have no interest to coming back to tumblr

on a positive note, my exams are done, i'm going to live the best of my life this summer and not a give a shit of anything i will be living my best life rn

SHUT UP

come to reality bitch- you're bengali wtf areee you thinking

you're never going to have the life they're living pfttt uno for a fact this summer you'll be stuck inside,forced to study whatever shit i ever do and live the usual,mundane life as you do

there isn't any harm in dream or like manifesting things, but just be aware you'll be hurt by it when it never happens

i'm stuck now. i feel like i should be revising, doing something FOR FUCK SAKE DO SOMETHING COME ON

i don't want to say i hate my dad,but i do. maybe i ✨despise✨

if you're a white girl reading this please fuck off you'll never undrstand this, having barriers put in for you to follow this strict regime once you come out of your mum's vagina.And for whatever i want, it'll never fit what i'm given

there are days i wake up and cry because i'm not white- the self-hatred for myself, but i'm beginning to love myself

it started two weeks after my last exam (PHYSICS fuck yess i'll never have to do u ever for the rest of my life) i decided to clear my entire closet like ENTIRE i genuinely would have breakdowns for not having any clothes

for the past three months, i have thrifted some thing for some real cheap prices like £5-£14 and even the occasional £1 like this really cute bag- the most expeniseve thing i have bought costed me £17 hahah. it makes me happy seeing a closet full of clothes i like and will wear. Every.Single.Thing

it's also made me tidy my bedroom everyday and mostly my closet which i worshipppppp periodtt

well i suppose that's a good thing

i also have gone out with my best mates E and R- R's birthday was in May and fuckk i loved it i just loved going out with my bestfriends and honestly it was the best time ever

i got tipsy last week...in the park...not best idea but no regrets whatsoever.

Ok now back to the present.Now

I was meant to go out with my best friend of 11 years aka primary. A and I have not spoken since Feb... her birthday and honestly u can call me the shittiest friend for that. Yh well we were going to go to Camden and just look at the markets i can't lie I was soo excited this was going to be the day for me

So my mum was chill, she trusts me even after that day but i just make sure i phone her every 3 hours or so

and then we have my dad

so i told him i was going out

i never do, i always tell my mum and then he finds out soon after but says nothing

this time he said (i quote) "ok let me think bout it, i'll tellu tommorow" which translates for fuck sake you're being a slut and going out everyday, u whitewashed whore (im not fucking anyone btw i am virginia) ho give no shit about their education.

I have justttt finished my GCSE'S,and now u want me to be able to learn the whole A-Level course now huh

so tommorow came, aka today, and he puts on the domineering voice

it goes like this

"You are to come with you Mum at 2:45 and come home together"

Ok that’s fine I can do that

“After that this is your last time no more going out”

“What do you mean by that?”

“You’re not going out again before your classes (school)”

“What do you want me to do this summer like seriously im just wondering why YOU specifically want me to do this summer”

“What do you want to do?”

“ I want to be able to balance going out with my friends and my family beause its my summer and I just want to enjoy it”

“You can do million things later on in life”

More like heaven dumbs. Look at you how do u live your life, is there any chance for me to live it like you do!

and so aftr that i had a panic attack, cancelled plans with my friends and sulked at home

My mum comforted me, she said I shouldn’t have listed to him because of how he is as a person, a fucking mum ass-licker and work-orientated man what the fuck is he going to do once he retires fucking hell I so want to die now

I JUST WANT FREEDOM

[hautetae]

why does the dead in "corspe bride" have more life than the land of the living

[hautetae]

for legal reasons that was a joke

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do u ever feel so annoyed by someone u just want to throw a vase at them

[luxobnubilata]

Ferruccio Scattola, La Festa del Redentore a Venezia

[hautetae]

i acc fucked up bio i cant do this anymore

[dracogotgame]

So, India is dying.

Look, I know a good number of you are from the US and things aren't amazing there either, but my country is literally on the brink of collapse. So I'd love it if we could talk about that for a minute.

If you can't do anything else, please just read and reblog.

A second COVID wave has taken out the healthcare system. There are no more hospital beds. There's an oxygen shortage. There's a critical vaccine shortage. The Central Government has thrown its hands up and is passing the baton to the State Governments to do what they can.

There are over 16 million covid cases. A record 330,000 new cases reported yesterday - comparable to the US at its peak. 187,000 dead as of today.

There is no plan.

Mass cremations are taking place. The cremation grounds are running day and night and they are short on wood. People are watching their loved ones die while waiting for a hospital bed, and then they're unable to give them the proper burial rights.

Hospitals are overwhelmed. Patients are being confined, two to a bed. They're the lucky ones.

We are on the verge of people dying in the streets.

This is the second-most populous country in the world. The largest democracy. A country that encapsulates over 15,000 years of recorded human history and has endured everything from famine to invasion to colonisation.

We might be at the end. This might be the thing that does us in.

People are dying.

People are dying.

People are dying and there is no plan.

More good news? Variants are popping up. A double mutation strain has shown up. It is resistant to current vaccines. This will not go away. This is the devastation they warned of when the anti-maskers were out protesting the minor inconvenience of covering their face in public.

My country is on the verge of an emergency state. Our government has failed us. This is as dire a situation as it ever could be.

Look. I don't do much with my life. I write fics, some of you have read them and that's pretty much it. I spend my days with my head in the clouds because that's where I like to be.

But two days ago, my grandmother tested positive, had to be taken to hospital and the ambulance caught fire.

She barely made it to the urgent care she needs.

So, here I am, using whatever meager platform I have to cobble this request together. Because I have to do something.

If you can, donate.

Or spread the word.

Help. Please.

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I HATE PHYSICS

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KIM FUCKING TAEHYUNG WHY ARE YOU SO FINEEE

attention!! why are all men not taehyung HELLLOOO i am obseesed with the gemstones i just want so give him a lil kithhh💓

shut up what the how the hell is a man so fucking beautiful i love taehyung so much omg im going to cry how is a man so perfect 😫I just love the Hokusai wave painting vibes

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my love for butterflies will never be gone

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fuck red roses i want red tulips

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white nature

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