ON HIATUS

independent original character ( joshua hawes ) from persona 5, written by cassandra | SELECTIVE HIATUS

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ooc. it’s been 1000 years.

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I’ve moved Joshua to a multi-muse blog over here. It’s no longer strictly persona au but I’ll still rp his Persona AU verse with Persona blogs. His current verse takes place a few years after P5.

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independent, private and selective akira kurusu from persona 5. this blog heavily operates on mun’s headcanons and own choices throughout the game. please like / reblog if interested to interact ! office closing hours are from 11pm to the hour roosters wake. quit texting.

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ooc. this is kind of sudden but i’ll be putting joshua on an indefinite hiatus. i will be back but i’m not really sure when. i just can’t see it in the near future tbh. my muse for him has been suffering lately and couldn’t get the revamped info done as well. hopefully, i’ll be able to get everything done when i’m back. when i do, i will be dropping current threads and making new ones. that’s how i usually prefer to roll with hiatuses, at least. lol at the moment, i’ll be focusing on other blogs i have in the p5 fandom.

[hawkfaced]

ooc. this is kind of sudden but i’ll be putting joshua on an indefinite hiatus. i will be back but i’m not really sure when. i just can’t see it in the near future tbh. my muse for him has been suffering lately and couldn’t get the revamped info done as well. hopefully, i’ll be able to get everything done when i’m back. when i do, i will be dropping current threads and making new ones. that’s how i usually prefer to roll with hiatuses, at least. lol at the moment, i’ll be focusing on other blogs i have in the p5 fandom.

[hawkfaced]

ooc. this is kind of sudden but i’ll be putting joshua on an indefinite hiatus. i will be back but i’m not really sure when. i just can’t see it in the near future tbh. my muse for him has been suffering lately and couldn’t get the revamped info done as well. hopefully, i’ll be able to get everything done when i’m back. when i do, i will be dropping current threads and making new ones. that’s how i usually prefer to roll with hiatuses, at least. lol at the moment, i’ll be focusing on other blogs i have in the p5 fandom.

[hawkfaced]

ooc. this is kind of sudden but i’ll be putting joshua on an indefinite hiatus. i will be back but i’m not really sure when. i just can’t see it in the near future tbh. my muse for him has been suffering lately and couldn’t get the revamped info done as well. hopefully, i’ll be able to get everything done when i’m back. when i do, i will be dropping current threads and making new ones. that’s how i usually prefer to roll with hiatuses, at least. lol at the moment, i’ll be focusing on other blogs i have in the p5 fandom.

[foolconfi-blog]

independent, private and selective akira kurusu from persona 5. this blog heavily operates on mun’s headcanons and own choices throughout the game. please like / reblog if interested to interact ! office closing hours are from 11pm to the hour roosters wake. quit texting.

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tagged by: stolen

1ST RULE: anyone who wanna !!

2ND RULE: BOLD the statements that are true

APPEARANCE:

I am 5'7" or taller

I wear glasses

I have at least one tattoo

I have at least one piercing

I have blonde hair

I have brown eyes

I have short hair

My abs are at least somewhat defined

I have or have had braces

PERSONALITY:

I love meeting new people

People tell me that I’m funny

Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me

I enjoy physical challenges

I enjoy mental challenges

I’m playfully rude with people I know well

I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it

There is something I would change about my personality

ABILITY:

I can sing well

I can play an instrument

I can do over 30 pushups without stopping

I’m a fast runner

I can draw well

I have a good memory

I’m good at doing math in my head  

I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute

I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling

I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch

I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES:

I enjoy playing sports

I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else

I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else

I have learned a new song in the past week

I work out at least once a week

I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months

I have drawn something in the past month

I enjoy writing

I do or have done martial arts

EXPERIENCES:

I have had my first kiss

I have had alcohol

I have scored the winning goal in a sports game

I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting

I have been at an overnight event

I have been in a taxi

I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year

I have beaten a video game in one day

I have visited another country

I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts

RELATIONSHIPS:

I’m in a relationship

I have a crush on a celebrity

I have a crush on someone I know

I have been in at least 3 relationships

I have never been in a relationship

I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them

I get crushes easily

I have had a crush on someone for over a year

I have been in a relationship for at least a year

I have had feelings for a friend

MY LIFE:

I have at least one person I consider a “best friend”

I live close to my school

My parents are still together

I have at least one sibling

I live in the United States

There is snow right now where I live

I have hung out with a friend in the past month

I have a smartphone

I have at least 15 CDs

I share my room with someone

RANDOM SHIT:

I have breakdanced

I know a person named Jamie

I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce

I have dyed my hair

I’m listening to one song on repeat right now

I have punched someone in the past week

I know someone who has gone to jail

I have broken a bone

I have eaten a waffle today

I know what I want to do with my life

I speak at least 2 languages

I have made a new friend in the past year

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perfectcrimeloveletter:

          “I trust you to be able to get into those kind of situations.”

          A good-natured smirk. His change of heart made many differences from his old, cruel self, but it never took away Kaito’s knack for tricks. He understands the feeling of regret over his actions, rough edges from the battles he views in many things being smoothed over, and is committed. It’s not up to his full strength while they discussed his brother, but it was something.

          Being reminded of how he was in the past ( not even that long ago, but it certainly felt like it ), Kaito rubbed at the back of his neck. The thief could look back at the memories, know why he acted in such a way, and now learn from it rather than continuing on the same path. “Yeah, you were guarded, didn’t know how to initiate a kiss for awhile,” Kaito answered, then, “still short-tempered as always though.”

          Not everything changed.

He swallowed a laugh, going forward to wrap arms around the shorter male, leaning down to lay a kiss on his forehead. “My family’s all going to hell, and I already know I’ll be going down that way too. But you speak the truth, I always have to make it fun somehow.”

          Never again.

❝  I still tried regardless -- and you were surprisingly patient. ❞ How Kaito was ANNOYINGLY obstinate, very much wriggling ‘neath his skin at times -- but that persistence gradually MELTED Joshua’s barriers into millions of blankets. Just as much of the love he grown to possess, the other also did render the expression of HUMILIATION he so DETESTED to trickle out of his PRIDE. That moment was the height of his abhorrence, a memory that had tortured his sleeps for weeks after.  Joshua may have now been wiser to Kaito’s past, but it was far from the only source that planted his seeds of forgiveness. For a single UNBEARABLY memory of like needles puncturing into skin, there were more in quantities of moments that were BLISS. He was once ASHAMED to be happy with Kaito, considering his own JOYS to be a fool’s playthings. It was near when he’d be willing to pen the other as anything BUT HUMAN. Closing his eyes, he leans in to rest his forehead against his lover’s shoulders. Joshua knew that he, too, was waiting for a visible proof that Kaito is a HUMAN to his own heart. He always had been .. but the victims of immorality ( even Kaito himself ) cannot bear to witness that contradictory truth to the ACTIONS that were dealt. ❝  And that’s why I am following you.  ❞ His lithe hands slide down Kaito’s shoulders, resting them ‘pon his lower arms.  ❝  To continue and finish what we started.  ❞

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finally colored this child.

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hawkfaced:

ooc. After talking to my friends a lil, I’ve decided to revamp Joshua into another blog. May also give him a new faceclaim, a more modern one. 90% of him will stay the same, but everything will be tidied to match his current personality. He won’t be part of the phantom thieves by default but I’ll have a verse for that. For his main verse, I plan to tie it to Hayato ( @hellblessed ), @perfectcrimeloveletter and @reversedjustice shenanigans since it’s currently an active thing. As for when it’ll be done. Either today or in a few days, depending on how I handle my stuff across all my blogs !!

ooc. following this. I think it’s best if I kept the blog for easier access. I will still THOROUGHLY revamp his bio page to accommodate to what I’ve planned. The about page will not be available till then. I’ll also go on an mass unfollow spree mostly for blogs who are inactive and don’t find that our muses would click. Feel free to pop in a message if you still want to interact despite after the unfollow though. I’m easy as cheeseburger <3 

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You are damaged and broken and unhinged. But so are shooting stars and comets.

Shooting Stars and Comets

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perfectcrimeloveletter:

          Hayato manages to worm his way back into Kaito’s life, after all this time.

          No, he frowns, a stark contrast to his typical blankfaced or grinning approach to things, maybe his brother never left completely after all. It’s Kaito’s own fault for believing that the day his older brother left the Tazaki household, and when he himself had been sent out of Nanporo to live in Tokyo, that the distance would create a gaping hole that made the brothers more difficult to come across each other.

                              ‘The world is actually a very small place.’

          Especially when it came to the person Kaito wanted to avoid.

          Yes, even the reckless leader had someone he detested that much he’d go the lengths to avoid him; until now that is. Joshua and Hayato happened to be connected ( a tutor, huh? it seems like the older tazaki had a penchant for passing down his knowledge ) that he couldn’t very well up and leave Joshua behind – he wasn’t that person anymore. There’s a long silence as he thought over everything he’s been told.

          “So he knows about us being together.” Or at least that they were in a partnership, being in the Phantom Thieves, that much he could tell. Hell, the fact that Hayato knew of the Metaverse wasn’t shocking to him either! “Of course he knows,” Kaito mutters, bitterly, “but it’s figuring out how much he knows, what he knows about all of us, and what we can do about it, that’ll keep us safe.”

          Importantly… “Do you feel safe with me, Joshua?” Do you still want to be together? 

To witness the leader left bare from his daily composure left him a tad wondering. The intelligence at this man’s, Hayato Tazaki, behest isn’t to be trifled with. He can speak of the metaverse with EASE, as though it’s not more odd than a fast food restaurant in a chain of fine dining. Perhaps, THAT may one of the many that makes this man TERRIFYING, aside from those morals which would’ve contradicted every virtues in the human book.  Though it was when Kaito imparted that question, with a hidden meaning ‘neath its showcase of concern, that makes the edge of his lips twitch upwards.

❝  Do you not trust me to survive in an unsafe predicament ?  ❞ He’s easily conceited, and he knows it to be his VICE -- but he doesn’t speak in cowardice either. He need not be protected, nor would he AVOID for the mere sake of tipping the scales of risks in favor of safety.  Yes, he does want to be together. Even in a world so STAINED. ❝  You weren’t easy to be with, particularly at the end. Then again, wasn’t I the same ?  ❞ A brow is raised to accentuate his own feelings on the matter; CAREFREE ( maybe he picks this up from his childhood friend ). What does he have to fear of AGONIES, when he had dipped his toes into it ever since his memory is still fresh. ❝  Hell doesn’t sound so bad now. You’d somehow make it fun anyway.  ❞ Don’t betray me again.

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61 // comforting hug

                The Emperor is more akin to expressing his feelings and emotions with words or art, and yet it all fails him today. His situation so often creeps up on him, entangling him, choking him even. If not for his roommate’s – his friend’s – presence, he might burst into tears at the thought. Somedays it feels like an eternity since Madarame’s palace – and today it feels like a fresh wound. 

                   Joshua pays him no mind, simply reading through a book of composers as he sits at his bed. And Yusuke is at his, almost ready to hug himself in extra effort to keep himself together. Perhaps Joshua being around is not enough to hold himself back today. Yusuke shuts his eyes, ready to roll to the side of the bed and face away from his friend and let it out alone as he’s used to. But he soon feels a pressure to his bed, someone beside him – and then gentle arms around his form. He’s tense a moment before he opens his eyes and finds it is indeed his comrade.

                   “You’re hurting. You don’t need to hide it, though.” It’s all the artist hears from the other before the sound of his own sobs. He’s been holding back too long. And he hates it all coming out over his friend, but he admits to himself it’s far better than being alone. It’s as if Joshua’s touch immediately brought it on, that comforting feeling of arms around his body letting him know that it’s okay. And he doesn’t say a word, merely leans into his friend as he’s allowed to free all he’s held back for entirely too long. 

xoxo // selectively accepting