Hy's Heart Box

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self. first.

Berhenti menyalahkan keadaan, berhenti untuk percaya dengan orang lain, dan berhenti berharap pada orang lain. Tanpa terkecuali. Hiduplah seolah kita hidup sebatang kara, sehingga mampu "menghargai diri sendiri" beserta kekurangan dan kelebihan yang kita miliki. -HY

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Dear mine @himasty ❤ Congrats you succed to made my tears down😢 Sissy i konw you know i'm in big trouble, but when i read your text i was touched and i realized that i still have people who loves me. Family, friends, even YOU! Honestly, sehari ini aku udah baca caption kamu lebih dr 15kali. Bahkan ditengah aku kerja aku baca lagi buat ngembaliin mood. Tbh, aku hampir gk percaya ini tulisanmu, tp aku tau kamu menulis ini dg tulus. Sampai ada bberapa org yg ikut terharu baca tulisan kamu yg biasa dikenal cuek, keras kepala tp pny pendirian yg kuat dibanding yg lain. Bahkan ada rasa bangga sm kamu, sampe pgn berbagi keharuan ini dg yg lain. Aku sedih kita udh jarang serumah ky dlu karena usia kita yg udah dewasa, kamu kuliah dan aku kerja. Kita gk bs nglakuin ritual bareng tiap plg sekolah kita bakar madu buat masker bibir, les bareng dan main dikomplek brg. Mgkn besok kalo kita ketemu kau blg aku alay, tp bodo amat, aku pgn org tau kita udah gak ky TomandJerry lagi. Maafin kakakmu yg km blg kurang dewasa, lemah dan sbgnya. Aku akan berusaha buat km percaya kalo aku bisa jaga kamu, bs melindungi kamu, dan dewasa! The last i just wanna say, i love you. I miss you and proud of you @himasty 👩‍❤️‍👩

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You can take whatever you want, but you can't take away my happiness 😊

HY

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Stopped on the situation that you can’t enjoy it would be better than continue that doesn't make you happy. All back to yourself.

HY

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sometimes be a women who had more feeling is far worse than women who don't care about others

HY

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true what people say. “ Women are not going to feel calm before she married”.  and i am a personally agree with that statement. because i feel the same way. when i was with him. Just feel calm, sleep soundly without having woke up because of fear and discomfort. But when i'm without him, just feel scared, anxious and constantly look for it. Wish i was immediately confronted by it, and justifies our relationship. so that we can complement each other and quiet life.

HY

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...ya rabb

i ever been hurt when i love someone else. I felt it again, now. I want all running quickly. I strum all that has been previously planted. I don’t know why God gave me a same story like this. Which ultimately made me increasingly falling and down. I want to running quickly, see the rainbow after the arrival of heavy rain. GOD, when a few days ago i beg you to show the relationship at this time, i was anxious and scared. I’m afraid if i don't unite him, people who i care about. but if he just made me hurt, i beg you give me change that could close the wound with happiness ❤ my pain as a woman that i’ve felt an adult, i want to feel calm down and happy side of a man who can guide me. men who fear i cry. men who are afraid to make me upset, because as a priest, he takes full responsibility on me from head to toe, from the health body and soul. God if i just felt hurt, please get me out of this zone. get used to this feeling, to clear this heart and mind to open the figure of men who keep full of my feelings. I want he come to me quickly. that i don’t fall in the wrong men. Thank you, dear Allah. Always hopeful to you ❤

~HY

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(~ HPR, 22th)

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minus

After experiencing some of the stories about the life of my love story and someone else, i have a judgment. At the present time i find a lot of men who like to confuse and scare the women who loved these men. Here, men feel that they are selectors(?) And the woman as the person who will be selected(?) Selected to be inappropriate or his wife?HAHA. Hey!!! men may think we really need them so much(?) Though independent woman could slip and do anything alone without them. Here i am as a woman, want to convey that women are also entitled to make his own choice. And we also can provide an assessment of the opposite sex. And we can be selectors as well as you do. Don't you ever think that we could'nt go because we doubt you.

Do the best for an option, man.

:)

-Hayuntari

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Idk~

Aku takut pada akhirnya apa yang aku lakukan saat ini, yang aku jaga baik dan yang aku pertahankan tidak menghasilkan apa-apa. Sementara aku sadar apa yang aku lakukan saat ini semata-mata untuk masa depan yang baik. Pantas untuk kita miliki. Hangat, tenang, damai dan tidak ada sakit hati. Ntah sampai kapan aku tidak bisa bersyukur dengan keadaan. Keadaan yang membuat aku terus mempelajari “hikmah-nya” melalui cerita-cerita sakit yang pernah terjadi(?)

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Udah? Nyerah gitu aja? Ga naik level dong?

HY

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Berusaha mensyukuri apapun cerita yang terjadi. Sedih maupun seneng. Dan aku lebih bersyukur semua berjalan natural tanpa adanya drama diantara kami. Hey Cantik.. aku bukan kamu, yang sedang berpura2 menjadi perempuan sok baik (: Kalo emang kamu perempuan baik, kenapa tega nyakitin sesama perempuan untuk mendapatkan apa yang kamu inginkan? Harus dg merebut sesuatu milik oranglain? Seegois itukah perempuan yang dikata baik semacam kau(?) 😊

HY

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#repost

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Sebuah teguran yang berkuasa untuk hambanya. Atas kelalaian. Kebodohan yang merusak. .. Tidak akan ada kehidupan baru. Tidak akan pernah lahir kembali baru. Pardon me.. 💔

HY

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Seperti berdiri diambang garis keraguanmu akan "AKU"

HY

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Selalu ada alasan kuat dibalik bertahannya seseorang pada titik kesakitan paling puncak yang seharusnya tidak dirasakan.

HY

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Mungkin tak sebanyak dan seberharga pengalaman orang yang lebih tua. Tapi aku memahami ‘inti’ disetiap kejadian. Selalu orang berkata “ambil hikmahnya aja”. And i got it. Fokus pada point pertama. "Usahakan semua sebaik mungkin, jangan pernah meremehkan walau itu terlihat kecil, kebaikan dan kebahagiaan akan datang ketika semua dilakukan dg baik"

HY