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This is what heaven looks like in my mind...of course with candlelight, incense, a glass of champagne, and perhaps a good book (or music, as well)...

#heaven bathing spiritual ritual self-care

Delicious

I loved it so when he said I was delicious

He said it with such purity--so beautiful, real and sensuous

His soothing soulful tone, so strong, seductive, manly, and unpretentious

Calling me to bask in his warmth, fire, light, imploring and adventurous

#delicious

Left Behind

Some things are meant to be left behind

What you have known may no longer measure up

To newfound adventures and treasures

Your soul needs, anticipates, seeks and is ever searching for what it is yet to find

‘Gifts’ meant to illuminate, guide, stretch, test, and build you

For the journey yet still ahead

They will appear in forms and at times that you least expect

So, remain ever aware, open, and hopeful

And excited for what amazing things you will happen upon

Or run across placed in your journey and path next

#leftbehind newthings

Bye-”Case Study”!

I sure know how to get rid of these dating derelicts--have one that kept asking me for a full length photo of myself (which I just did not send because I was being stubborn, and I found it offensive--outright you are saying that what you value most in a woman is her physical appearance, shape, etc.; which has always been offensive to me). I told him how I felt about that, and despite the fact that I did send him a pic of me that definitely showed him enough of my physical proportions for him to see ‘me’, he kept pushing the issue. So, because I refused to send it, he just stopped texting me--including not texting to wish me a “Happy Birthday”, after saying he might drive down to come spend that weekend with me (although I had already told him that I already had other plans, anyway, and it would have imposed on that--everything about him, and what he wants...right? Not. I tell people about me--who I am, what I don’t do, what I don’t want, what I won’t stand for, but some men are just deaf, dumb, blind, arrogant, and stupid. So, he texted yesterday and confirmed that the reason he stopped texting was because I refused to send the picture. And then threw in that he had met someone anyway, and “need to devote all of his time to her”...then why are you even texting me, fool? I simply sent him back two fingers in a ‘peace’ sign, and told him that I wished him the best, but, that he may still end up as a ‘case study’ in my book. Boy--that sure got a number of response back...like “in what way?” I told him not to worry about it, at all--it would simply be my observations and thoughts...another derelict dating debacle lol However, he really is just a walking cliche, or why I don’t play the radio with their a$$es, either. I say what I feel, and do not care what they think...Which is why I will remain happily, ever-after, and singly yours.

#datingdebacles boybye casestudymaterial

Random Morning Thoughts

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Well, it’s only somewhat random...I had a friend here at work approach me about helping him complete a spiritual song he is working on (trying to get it out of his head)...

I must say that I am flattered and humbled...

However, as soon as he walked away, I began struggling trying to remember the rhythmic pattern in which he was expressing the rhythm of the verse and chorus. I told him to send me what he had written out, and I’m sure then that I’ll be able to recapture and add to what he expressed.

I thought it was so beautiful what he shared from his sweet pure soul. He is like a living, human song bird--so full of joy and praise.

#iambicpentameter randommorningmusings humansongbird collaboration

Low Class Petty B!tches

I hate how low class petty bitches move

And you are so low that you can’t see above your level

To realize just how low you are, actually

All you know is low, and lowly ways and movement

No one respects you or what you do

Anyone with any ounce of integrity and courage can see right through

You don’t even stand up for the lowly shit that you do

You don’t even stand up for YOU

Calling you out would give you some sort of energy or power in you mind

So I don’t, because I’m not on your level or your kind

#petty #lowclass #bitches

It’s about to GO DOWN! Tuesday, August 13th at the Mint in LA!

#funk #rock #badasses #boogeyman

Ok, so my latest TV addictions have been both “My House” and “Pose”. Sure, it was partly derived from curiosity, but also from a place of sincere admiration and support, as well (as I know that gay people of color can often have a double burden to carry in this world. However, it was also to further education myself about some of the issues that they encounter and navigate. I have to also say that I just love fashion and dance--and always have...maybe I have also always been a been envious of the entire scene and bonds that they form around and for each other. They seem to work it out, where people without half as many struggles just can not--and make it look good, too. I don’t ever want to generalize, categorize, or put people into ‘pockets’, if you will; but, I am always searching for the definitions, images of representation, and iconic ‘stars’ that just tend to stand out in most situations or settings, and those would be the folks that I would migrate to (because of their bright aura and light). That is what these two shows do for me--they shine the spotlight on some of the best, brightest, most intriguing and complicated souls (fictional, and real).

I also love how they are all creating themselves, from within and outwardly, and consistently.

However, I must say that the last episode of “Pose” just blew up the spot! The writers jumped right in with those waist high wading boots that you use while fishing and tore the lid right off of some issues, and gave us all an immediate education of what are some of the true life emotional, physical, and spiritual issue at the forefront of the community and lifestyle. ..and can you say, “Big B” for “bold”...yeah...that’s what it was, and an even bigger “B” for “bravery”. If they don’t get any awards or accolades for that last episode, I am through with all of them (eventhough I pretty much already am through, anyway because of the adequate recognition of people of color, still in the industry, despite their countless contributions).

Now, as a disclaimer, I know that there is going to be alot of push back because of the subject matter. However, I say, if the “sunlight of truth is too bright for your eyes, look away--it’s not meant for you”.

And scene...

#Pose

Soul Sunlight

I don’t want to run away from who it is inside that I have now come to be

However, the sunlight is too bright for most to get close enough also to see

Blinding, warm, casting, illuminating the way

Burning, exposing, most not equipped, covered properly to stay

#soul sunlight illumination

Lust Song

I want to sit down and write you a lust song

I want to bare my soul, but I fear I may be wrong

I should have more control over my heart, soul and feelings

I shouldn’t let you have my whole soul reeling

I just know that it is so exciting and so thrilling

I want to get close and show you if you are willing

#lustsong

Musery

Is making someone your muse

Usury?

Do you choose your muse

Or does your muse choose you

#musery

Cucumbers on Ice Kinda Cool

My muse is so cool, funny, calm, and unassuming

You would never know to look at him that he is so downright funny and amusing

Refuting every stereotype there is out there about black men as ‘Boogeymen”

Whenever we chat, he has me reeling, pondering, amazed, and giggling

#notboogeymen coolasacucumber

Weakness

To you, to love is what makes one appear weak

However, to try to love the unlovable

Is the biggest undertaking--

a virtually impossible feat

Surely to end in great loss,

learning, yearning,

and ultimately defeat

#weakness #feats of defeat

Pending Book Titles

“Handling Racism Handbook for Children of Color”...

This makes me so very sad, but I guess this is where we truly are, as people (I won’t say ‘humanity’, because that is not what I see...

or feel...

#racismsucks #notthebabies

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Today In History

Malcolm X, Muslim and founder of the Organization of Afro-American Unity (OAAU), was born in Omaha, NE, on this date May 19, 1925. “When I am dead, I want you to just watch and see if I’m not right in what I say: that the white man, in his press, is going to identify me with “hate.” He will make use of me dead, as he has made use of me alive, as a convenient symbol of “hatred” – and that will help him to escape facing the truth that all I have been doing is holding up a mirror to reflect, to show, the history of unspeakable crimes that his race has committed against my race. You watch. I will be labeled as, at best, an “irresponsible” black man. I have always felt about this accusation that the black “leader” whom white men consider to be “responsible” is invariably the black “leader” who never gets any results. You only get action as a black man if you are regarded by the white man as “irresponsible.” In fact, this much I had learned when I was just a little boy. And since I have been some kind of a “leader” of black people here in the racist society of America, I have been more reassured each time the white man resisted me, or attacked me harder, because each time made me more certain that I was on the right track in the American black man’s best interests. The racist white man’s opposition automatically made me know that I did offer the black man something worthwhile.“ - MalcolmX | CARTER™️ Magazine carter-mag.com #wherehistoryandhiphopmeet #historyandhiphop365 #cartermagazine #carter #staywoke https://www.instagram.com/p/BxpSisRgVGi/?igshid=17t2w5u77qw9f