جايس

[hbbjayce]

Even in writing, I am struggling to start a sentence the way I want it to be: avoiding to start with an I or the so I am doing it this way. Now, I can proceed with the next sentence to start with it. This is what irritates me: not getting what I want when I have full control of the situation. I want to enumerate everything that’s already irritating me since this day started:

I only got around four hours of sleep from my weekend activities. I didn’t get to have a proper weekend where I could focus of rest and chores. I went bouldering with a friend last Saturday after work. I had rehearsals yesterday and went straight to a night jog with another friend

For the entire week, I was coming home to Brenna having a visitor over. She had many stuff in our room and it is very overstimulating.

I bought my food before coming to work today and I didn’t get what I ordered.

Everything was really affecting me and I cannot function well at work. I need an action plan:

Focus of my task today so I could come home on time

Buy dinner and cook rice

Do laundry

Organize and tidy up my things

Prepare clothes for tomorrow

Sleep at 10pm

It really helped that I started doing morning praise. Reading the day’s gospel. It was about mercy and giving grace. It’s so easy to judge another person when you should first judge yourself. It’s best to start doing certain change on one’s self than condemning others.

[hbbjayce]

unfocused, distracted, lost. i have been very aware and in denial of my current state. there was an opportunity to make value of the time i have yet i chose to slack off. i am avoidant in relationships with other people and avoidant with myself. there has been zero effort to become better. i look forward to nothing. i have lost goals and motivation.

i have a project due tomorrow at 9am i will have to pull an allnighter.

i have a boyfriend to update everytime.

i have a duolingo streak i need to retain.

mother's day is approaching on sunday; it's brenna's birthday on sunday.

i have my laundry i need to do.

i have a stage play on april 18-19.

i need to fix my daily active hours so i don't get sleepy at work.

picture a lifeline or a graph where there's a common horizontal line where i always meet in an intersection where i get a big energy of self-awareness and desire to change for good. this is why i am writing right now.

22 days. i have 22 days to build healthy habits and a routine. april 10 and i shall see changes. this is my own version of ramadan/easter.

i'll sleep now and wake up at 5am. 4hrs untill i finish what i need to do.

[hbbjayce]

jan. 26

it's the last week of January and i can say that a lot has happened than what i was expecting. i only had two major events projected for this month – 1) Werner Bronkhorst's art exhibit at Alserkal Avenue and 2) LANY Concert at Coca-Cola Arena, yet i did more and i am not complaining. i have the right to give myself a pat on the back for being able to manage balancing work and life. Here's a list of happenings:

1. Jan 16 - Musical Performance: MO(VE)MENT

2. Jan 18 - CRACK by Werner Bronkorst

3. Jan 23 - LANY Concert

4. Jan 24 - Sikka Art Fair

5. Jan 25 - Jog to Al Jaddaf Cactus Park; Mcdonald's Al Seef

Events listed are from the latter half of the month because I chose the not post during the early days of 2026. It was a challenge for myself and I conclude that there is still hope of self-discipline. With regards to work, I have reached a routine where I consistently come to work seemingly on time. The workload has been in my favor lately. I was able to come home and do more outside of work.

There are still a few days left for January and events can still arise. Here are the possible events to happen:

1. Jan 29 - Jeff's birthday

2. Jan 31 - Arabic Calligraphy at Al Jalila Cultural Centre for Children

again, it's the last week of January. i'm already planning out my February to become even more eventful and productive. Here are the events planned out:

1. Feb 03 - Kyle's birthday

2. Feb 06 - Deo's birthday

3. Feb 08 - Sosie's birthday

4. Feb 11 - Dan Licauco at DCC Vox Cinema

5. Feb 14 - Valentine's Day

last night, i went out with Deo to visit McDonald's at Al Seef and have dinner there together. On our way home, our conversation went towards fitness and physique. We agreed to begin going to the gym. Starting on February, we will avail the 3 months membership. My desire and plans will finally take off on Feb. This will also urge me to stay off social media periodically.

[hbbjayce]

two days in from starting this blog, i then made TikTok account as an extension platform for my 2026 passion project. The username is: @jacehabibi

for the month of january, i only have two events i will post as content:

Musical Performance: MO(VE)MENT at Jameel Arts Centre – Jan. 16

This will be my first time attending a piano concert and I would like to share the experience.

LANY's "Soft World Tour" at Coca Cola Arena – Jan. 23

I will be posting pre-concert content on TikTok hoping it will get engagements. The goal is to get followers and build a name as a content creator.

[hbbjayce]

[hbbjayce]

Reducing my social media consumption doesn't mean I’ll stop posting or 'yapping' elsewhere. I’m simply trying to avoid impulsively posting stories on Instagram to limit interactions with my mutuals for a while. I might return in March, but for now, I’d rather spend my time here on Tumblr.

I don’t plan on sharing too much personal information just yet, but I’ll try to post more frequently and build some engagement here. My posts will mostly focus on my life in Dubai. I hope I can stay committed to this as my personal passion project for 2026.