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olivia & aria.

“Shush,” she cooed, bringing her hand up to gently rest against the blondes cheek. No care for the body that had slumped against the table, her focus was entirely on her. “Calm your mind.” The look in the girls eyes made it obvious she was about to freak out. “This is who you are, sweetheart. If you want control of your bloodlust, you have to practice and… That means sacrifices.” Aria almost sounded like she cared, like her words were at all logical. “And if it helps any, you just gave him a mercy killing. I would have made him suffer.” 

     olivia turned her head towards aria’s hand, the words coming from the other’s mouth making her feel  better  about what she had done. but there was still a  hint  of guilt in the pit of her stomach. it wasn’t what marcel had taught her and now she was  confused  because the woman’s words weren’t all that far fetched - at least not in her  current  state of mind. “ i don’t want to be a  monster , ” she admitted.

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olivia & carson.

Carson was used to Mason pulling his hero act and bringing in strays, so it rarely phased him to have people staying with them. He’d never let anyone in the house who was a genuine danger to him so why would he have a problem with it? Just as he was about to answer she pulled a few jays and his eyebrows rise. “Well shit, you were welcome before but now I might have to kiss ya.” Obviously, he’s kidding but it comes from a place of truth none the less. “Come on in.” He gestures inside, allowing her to break the threshold with his invitation.

     “ i’ll take a kiss on the  cheek  for that, ” she teased, stepping inside their place before looking around out of curiosity. “ only because that was the  last  of my stash, so try to make it count. ” olivia felt more at  ease  now that she knew she had a roof over her head and a place to sleep. in mason’s words, he had  only  agreed to a few nights which meant olivia would be left to worry about where her  next  place was going to be; however, for just one night she  didn’t  want to have to think about it. “ where am i going to be sleeping ? ” she wondered, turning to face carson.

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     olivia hadn’t talked to cameron in  awhile . the last time she did, she remembered telling him that she  believed  someone had been stalking her. and before that had been  very  brief text messages, most of which he sounded  preoccupied . it was okay though. olivia  didn’t  blame him for being absent or having more important things to worry about. “ hey, ” she greeted cam, but without her  usual  smile. olivia was unsure and a bit  paranoid  that maybe she had said something wrong before. “ you wanted to talk ? ” / @cam-price

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olivia & mason.

“Mm, yeah, I know who he is.” Mason nodded his head, it was hard not to considering the connection with Klaus but he didn’t need to get into the details nor did he wish to. That would mean continuing to think of the original hybrid. His smile grew when she seemed to look for clarification. “Yeah, blood.” He gestured around them. “Feel like choosing or want me to?”

     “ you  might  have to pick for the both of us. you have a more  refined  palate than i do, ” she giggled, stepping towards him. olivia was the type of vampire to eat anything in her path. but the first time they had  technically  ‘hung out’ was when mason had brought two people for them to feed off of. and they had both been  incredibly  delicious. so, she trusted his judgement.

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olivia & madeline.

She offered her a smile, more out of sympathy than anything and no, she wasn’t surprised. But the fact that it had actually happened? Wasn’t something she liked. Maybe one day Olivia and her mom would reconnect, or more, she hoped so, not that she’d actually tell her that because she knew the other would just get annoyed, or angry because of her situation. “You will?” she nodded her head, registering what she was telling. “Okay, well you know if you ever need anything, just ask.” she had told her before that she was here if she needed help, no matter which way she needed it. “How’re you getting on with the feeding side of things? Marcel still helping?”

     “ yeah,  probably . i don’t know yet, ” she shrugged. olivia didn’t want to admit that she had quit her job and was  struggling  financially. and the last thing she wanted to do was  complain  to one of her best friends about it. olivia already felt like a  burden  to so many people in her life. “ i’ll figure it out. i  always  do, ” it wasn’t a lie, but it always did stress her out having to think about her  next  plan. “ yeah, marcel is still helping. it’s been really difficult for me. the other day, i wanted to give up. so, i’ve got  that  going for me. ”

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olivia & marcel.

He knew the contemplation on what to do was hard, he could see that it was but he was giving her the options that were silently there. This wasn’t something he was forcibly making her do, this was a choice, one that she had to choose to do herself. There was only so much help he could offer and she had to meet him halfway. Just like she was now. “See, you’re stronger than you think.” even if it was a hard toss up, she didn’t leave. Someone who had no hope? He figured they would have left. “What about day off? No lessons, no anything?”

     “ you’re giving me a day  off ?  are we going on a field trip or something ? ” she teased, still running with the teacher jokes. it was  difficult  for olivia to separate the voice in her mind that made her stray from her morals, but she was learning and every day she spent with marcel was a day of  success  - no matter how hard things became. because she was  there  with him for help and all she had to do was walk away. he wasn’t holding her hostage or against her will. she had the will to want to stay and work on things to make herself better and that was better than  nothing . “ i know i’m stronger now. i just don’t feel confident, you know ? like, how long until that goes away ? ”

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olivia & carson.

 carson received the brief heads up that he might be getting a new roommate but that didn’t stop him from managing a surprising rise of the brow upon opening the door. “he sure does.” he answers simply, figuring it was a fangirl in which case, he wouldn’t blame them. “oh, hey. you’re blonde and you have..” he leans closer to examine. “blue eyes. probably my type. do you live here now too?” 

     olivia smiled slowly, a  bit  confused as to why he said  any  of that. but then she figured that mason probably let cason know what she looked like so he wouldn’t be  completely  surprised. “ i’m just crashing here for a bit, if you don’t mind ? ” she reached into the pocket of her bag and pulled out a couple of blunts. mason said that carson liked pot and she believed that it would be a nice ‘thank you’ gift for allowing her to stay. plus, a good way to  warm  up to each other since she didn’t know him all that well.  “ these are for you. ”

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olivia & aria.

“Well… It won’t hurt you.” Aria quipped. Enticement was part of her overall charm and luckily for her, this girl was easy to sway. She was either new or just that reckless, not that she cared which one. She was done with the male and planned to snap his neck anyway so why not let the cute blonde drain the rest of him? “It’s who we are, doll. You can take what you want now, don’t be afraid to do so.”

     her words were both  persuasive  and  convincing  to the new vampire. and the more she listened to them, the more blood that flowed into her mouth without even a  second  thought to the life she was taking or the work marcel had put into helping her. and before she could pull back to  stop  and realize what she had done, the body was limp in her arms. “ no, no,  no , ” she whispered, looking down at the body. all she could do was  stare  at him.

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betty + overalls

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     olivia looked down at the address on her phone, double checking  one  last time before she knocked on the door. mason had texted it to her while she grabbed the  last  of her things from her mom’s house. she didn’t expect to stay  long  with mason and his roommate, but certainly didn’t plan on going  back  home anytime soon. “ hey, ” she greeted the other person as soon as they opened the door. “ um, does mason live here ? ” / @causticcarson

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olivia & madeline.

“Wait what really?” she knew the other didn’t get on with her mom, especially since her brother had died, but telling her to leave and never come back? That was horrible. Maddie herself completely adored her parents and if one of them had ever said something like that to her? She wouldn’t have even known what to do. She probably would have been a mess. “I’m sorry. What are you gonna do when you have to leave Mason’s?” she asked her, concerned for the other.

     “ are we  really  shocked she’d do something like that to me ? ” she asked, feeling herself get  angry  at the thought. olivia knew her mother must have told her friends and coworkers that her daughter had moved away for college and that she was ‘proud’. “ well, mason said i was welcome to stay for a  few  days and i haven’t made any other plans. so, i’ll probably get a room at the motel down the road until i figure out my  next  plan. i get that i can easily compel people to give me free stuff, but i’ve learned that a lot of my compelling then turns into feeding and i’m  trying  to be good. ” it was the only hope for her humanity.

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olivia & marcel.

“Hate what?” he wasn’t about to let that slide anytime soon. “Control? Not being able to rip through every human you see?” of course he knew that she was trying, but the fact that she was still here, trying, told him that she wanted to, that she wanted to help herself. Maybe he was wrong, maybe he wasn’t, but the fact that she hadn’t run away spoke a lot in itself. “I’m not holding you against your will, you want to do those things? Go ahead.” he gestured to the door, he was testing her, waiting to see what she would do– or how she would react. 

     he was  letting  her go ? olivia looked up at marcel,  shocked  that he suggested she didn’t have to stay or go through any of this training. to say the least, it was  tempting . the voice in the back of her mind told her to  leave  and  never  look back. it was the same voice that  controlled  her lust for blood, the one that had taken all of those lives. but the feeling in her  heart , her care for marcel, and the progress they had been making is what kept her from moving. “ no, ” she shook her head, “ i don’t want to. ”

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olivia & mason.

“He will.” He shrugged, not thinking anything else on it. He was more than use to having people crash at his place, for however long they needed it. He never minded and he was sure that was because he knew what it was like to need a place but he just chalked it up to being a good friend. “Marcel?” He was going to have to meet up with the vampire at some point. “Not a big deal, really.” Smiling as he looked around them. “Feel like grabbing a drink together roomie?” Clearly, not speaking about anything alcoholic, but he wouldn’t be against that either.

     “ yeah, marcel. he takes care of a  lot  of newbies. helps them cope with the hunger thing, ” she explained, smiling at the  thought  of him. marcel was like a big brother to her - something she had been  missing  for quite some time. “ a drink ? ” she inhaled sharply, “ like,  blood , you mean. ” maybe this was her  chance  to show not only everyone else but herself that she could handle a little snack  without  any consequences. “ yeah, i’d like a drink. ”

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olivia & madeline.

“Oh right.” she didn’t want to say too much else, purely because she was seemingly trying to be nice because he was apparently doing something nice, which she couldn’t slate him for, even though she still could quite happily punch him in the face, simply because it would feel good. “That’s.. nice that he’s offered though, but seriously back to your mom, how are you feeling? Why did she kick you out?” 

     “ do we  have  to talk about her ? ” olivia teased, leaning back before crossing her arms over her chest. she knew maddie  only  cared and wanted to know what was going on so she could help. she knew they  didn’t  have to talk about anything, but it was always nice to have someone close to her understand what was going on. “ she thinks i’m using. it got...  pretty  bad. basically told me to leave and  never  come back. ”

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olivia & mason.

“Ah, well, he’s pretty chill so you have no worries there. I’ll let him know to invite you in.” He pulled out his phone, pulling up the new contact part before handing it over to her so she could fill it herself smiling at her. “Seriously, don’t worry about it. There’s always blood there too, so take whatever you need.” Although he preferred his blood fresh, he always made sure to kept something away. 

     “ if he doesn’t, i won’t be offended, ” she lied, because she most definitely  would  be. the girl was more sensitive than she  liked  to admit, but was controlling her emotions as every day passed. olivia reached out for his phone, typing in her own contact information for him before handing the phone back. “  oh , marcel is helping me with all of that, but thank you. like,  really . i’m grateful you offered me a place to stay. not many people would. ”