As guilty as I feel to make such a post, I feel like this needs to be done, if only so I have some kind of chance of a future. Currently, there are two burning issues.
For the past couple of years, I have been renting a room from a particular landlord, so I have a place where to stay during my studies. This is my final year of studies, and, well, this month my landlord has informed us that we all need to start looking for a new place where to stay, as the building that we currently live in will be shut down soon. Whether it is being closed for good, or for some major renovations, I do not know, and it really does not matter - point is, in February, I will be on the street if I do not manage to find a new place where to stay by then.
The problem is that any option I have looked at right now is at least 200$ more per month than my current budget allows - all of the cheapest options have been taken by other students at the start of the semester, and, even though I have a little bit saved up, it is nowhere near enough to cover my stay for the remaining study year - most of my money this year went to my own medical expenses, like cancer threat checkups, and various family emergencies, like helping out the funeral fund of my uncle and cousin. I have maxed out all of the possible working hours I am allowed to legally work while being a full-time student, and, while it covers my current bills and day-to-day existence, I am afraid I will not be able to save up enough to last my stay. This is my last year of university - I need to attend classes regularly to be allowed to graduate, so I need to stay here until at least July. If things get bad after that, I can always move back in with my family at the end of summer, but they live in my home city, about 4 hours drive away, so commuting daily from there to work and uni is not even remotely possible. I do not have any family who live where I study, and I cannot really couch-surf with my friends, as the room I am in came unfurnished, so I need to take furniture with me when I move. I need a decent longish-term solution for this issue, at least until July.
The second burning issue is my mental health. I am in a very fragile place right now, the previous issue being a major contributor, naturally. I have had untreated PTSD for years, as well as deep depression and anxiety, to the point where it severely affects my social functioning, and my work and studying abilities. I have also been suicidal for a long time. I have found a therapist that I like, however, again, any kind of mental health thing in my country is expensive, as the medical system is biased in an unfair way. Therapy goes for 60-70$ per hour, and that does not include medication, which I am quite sure I will need.
Obviously, the living place search comes first, however, if the situation permits, I would love to attend the therapy I desperately need. Waiting to deal with it is possible, however, it is a dangerous game to play. Every day, I feel like I am walking on the edge of the abyss, and that any slightest thing can blow me into the abyss forever. If it can be done, I would want to address this as soon as possible. My friends and family have been nothing but supportive, but I fully realize this undoubtedly needs professional help - these issues will not go away on their own.
I understand that there are people in worse situations, and I wish I did not have to rely on other people’s generosity in a moment like this. If I could, I would gladly take more job hours, even if it meant barely sleeping. But, currently, what I can do is fairly limited, and my father can only help a tiny bit, as his salary goes to paying his own bills, raising my little brother, and taking care of both of my elderly grandmas. I understand that there are a lot of people asking for help lately, and if you choose to help someone else who might need it more, I understand - in any other situation, I would be the one doing the same. I cannot, and will not hold it against anyone who decides to contribute to something else. But, if, by any chance, you have money that you are able to, and are willing to, donate, I would highly appreciate it, and I would be eternally grateful. My education is important - I am so close to graduating, and I do not want to drop out at the last stretch of the road, and undo the last couple of years of my life I have spent getting there.
My only option to receive donations is through my PayPal: paypal.me/Nepturine, since I do not reside in the US. Currently, I have nothing to offer for them in return - I am no great artist, and not a brilliant writer. But, if you happen to be a writer, I would happily get back to you once my situation has stabilized, and I actually have the chance to put in proper effort - I have an education in English linguistics, and, for your contribution, I would gladly offer my services to proofread, beta, and edit any fanfics or creative texts that you might want a professional eye to look over.
All I ask is the chance to have a place to live, and maybe some mental stability. If you can and do contribute, I thank you sincerely in advance, and, if you are going through struggles like I am, I am also grateful if you reblog this post, and help it circulate.
(This post is queued to be reblogged daily. I will make additions to it if any significant developments happen.)
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