drabbles @hearttofingertips - Tumblr Blog

so when your best and only friend is losing interest in you what are you supposed to do?

you can't talk to anyone about it. there is no one to talk to.

feeling yourself becoming the obligation text instead of the one you can't wait to tell everything to is a slow and steady heartbreak.

but easing into an absence doesn't spare you pain. no one can prepare you for your grief of the living.

be careful it’s a pattern.

i got my warnings. i didn’t believe them.

i didn’t need to.

because we were different. you were my person. and i was yours.

our time surpassed theirs. we were in the clear.

but now those warnings roll through my head.

because once again we are different. you are my person. and i?

i don’t know what i am to you.

the not so shiny new toy? the hangnail you haven’t gotten around to pulling out?

i think i’d prefer that over being the band-aid you have been slowly ripping off.

because it’s given me too much time to sit in my foolishness.

how proudful i was to think i could avoid it

but now i guess what i am to you is the pattern

because life is good

a caption on a silly nothing post and it held such power over me.

i thought that the word yes was the most hurtful word you could say when i asked you if you were breaking up with me.

i was wrong. it was four words.

two weeks. that is all it took for your life to be good.

maybe it was for your audience.

maybe it was to show you were winning this.

but for me it was a confirmation of what i already knew.

because if you ever loved me as much as i loved you then it would be impossible for two weeks to make life so good.

drabbles