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"His voice just drawls and swirls like smoke in the dark." - The Family Reviews

"Mokotow gives us nothing but raw honesty and authenticity." - Buzz-Music

"There is a new voice on the New Jersey music scene–Mokotow. One of intensely personal lyrics delivered with a hymnal-like seriousness examining the pathos that is life." - YDKJ

"..a brooding shot of bluesy indie folk with cinematic indie rock underpinnings." - AllMusic

"..the devil meets angel, gothic folk meets psyche rock" - American Pancake

"The daunting and alluring sound from each single comes in a different shape and form throughout the album—Mokotow progressively creates haunting sounds in each and every single, and complements that type of atmosphere with the deep progression of his voice."

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Fatherhood. Lost legacies. Survival. Fundamentally this album has been about being remembered. It’s an exercise in creating something to explain and reveal to my son, a way to preserve parts of myself in lines and melodies. It is for him to discover later in life when he’ll be ready to make of it what he will. A diary of sorts. This video culminates the idea in a powerful way that I could not have imagined when starting to write this record. For that I cannot thank David Gross and Rob Trela enough for their talent, vision and dedication. I am forever grateful to them and the tight team behind the video for how it came out. I’ve been looking to right something for some time now. To give my son something I don’t have, a song from my father. There is a mystery I’ve been grappling with since his death, about who he was, with many questions I would have asked him if I had the chance. His passing before I had that opportunity to do so has left a mystery and a pain that I live with today. And it’s that pain I don’t want my son to have to grapple with. I’m looking to create a different experience for him and my family. But the most cathartic way to finally put to rest those feelings of wanting to know my father was to become a father myself and to lay it all bare for my son to see.

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Album Lyrics

"Do I Haunt The Ways"

There is madness and charm in denying what you're told / In burning your fire with no witness to behold / A careless reminder we're all fools to desire / But I'm not your man / No I'm not your man / All disbelief be damned /

I live by my own hand and dyings all the same / But I won't be bothered by your means to tame / Careless heart find me soulless and free / As I can't console all those against me /

And I wait here, oh no / Can you feel / As I haunt all the ways all the hours of every day / Can you feel through eyes never known / Never known, never known /

Yours

Mine

Mine

"Soft Ceremony"

What claims we make for fortune's sake / With a different kind of sin / What ceremony before ruin, before ruin / And I can never understand your hand /

Stay the course / Failure makes man / Blind faith was no one's plan before ruin / Before ruin, before ruin /

So confess / What little heart you have / As I remain criminal / For playing my part /

"Running On All Fours"

I'm not a sad man / I may be bad man / I do know I do not pray and just makes things do / While life fades to black / And you know not where you're running to / So cast the biggest stones / Tallest shadows of disdain /

There is much of me that will die / But know my touch / Will always remain / And I will always hunt for mine / And I sawed off all my love for thee /

For falling out of place, out of time / Once in a while I'm falling in line / Even as the lights go down with no where to go / A brave man will come to terms / With what the darkness is willing to show /

There is much of me that will die / But know my touch / Will always remain / And I will always hunt for mine / And I sawed off all my love for thee /

Time fades and so comes the rust / But the body, the body need not cover up /

The oncoming

The oncoming

The oncoming dusk

"The Gamble"

Remember how it was played / Carry the fire to the other side son / No matter the mistakes / No worries, no need to explain / That is how I was made /

When you're willing to lose it all / At uncertainty's behest / A fighting heart knows best / There is no rest / There is no rest / When there's no one to hear you call a lover's request / There is some truth for the obsessed /

Now let loss in just to see it through / Blind, tap it through the eyes / Nevermind the fear in you /

Follow or be named / That is what they say / But if you're willing to lose it all / At uncertainty's behest / Take chance in the same / Ready those tired hands / Even if others will, others will never understand / Others will, others will never understand /

No matter or blame remember how it was played / Carry that fire son no matter the mistake /

For what currency do we possess by bidding disillusionment / Disillusionment, disillusion / Wake this good sleep / Let hardship humble the heart /

There was some

There was none

My baby son