dad session 7 spoilers for saparata pov
oh grayleigh. she was his first successful test subject. she was the first one he had any reason to care about. a sliver of hope that maybe for once he can focus on a single person instead of the whole world. and i maintain that she is the one. it may sound cold, but i don't think he cares about magic even a little bit, which is not even magic's fault. sure, she infected him, and no matter how many times he repeats it's okay, he can't fool his feelings. but now that he's infected and more aggressive and finally fed up with his own natural urge to comfort people he may not even think are deserving of it, his attention shifts to the real culprit: flux. the man who wasted so much of his time pulling magic back and forth after pressuring him to conduct the failure that was test 0-85. he despises them both, i believe, and he may disagree with his own judgement, but why else would he be so desperate to prove anything to flux? why wouldn't he leave just moments after begging to be done with it because he's so close to saving gray while the guns were pointed at him? look, the girl you care about is a monster. you don't know anything about her and you don't know what's best for her. but saps himself knows what's best for grayleigh, right? he can cure her. except he selfishly admits that he doesn't want to see grayleigh turn. it doesn't matter, he's not there in the end. he comes late to the sight that elicits as much hope as it does sadness. i can't tell if he agrees with grayleigh's decision, but it definitely makes him feel, the same way she made him feel while she truly lived. he goes back to the lab saying he wants to be by himself, but he's not alone. he's using the gift of magic's blood while thinking of grayleigh: two girls who insisted he be called by his name. two girls, two sorrows. one wrapped in fondness, one wrapped in hate
