back from treatment :') 13yo - 🇺🇸 -

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[hellhealth]

the scariest thing for me, is that i see progress. i see myself getting thin and beautiful. And thats the worst part is like this actually works and that starving yourself actually does something. So ill never be able to go back if i want to see myself get fat again.

[hellhealth]

im scared

[dietcokeandcigss]

Me trying to count the calories but I’m bad at math

[hellhealth]

;')

[hellhealth]

Blueberries are lowkey the ultimate safe food.

they are filled with antioxidants - they are only 0.7kcals - you can buy them fresh or frozen - they can go with so many different kinds of foods - 50 blueberries are only 39kcals.

like c'mon guys do you need anything else??

[incrediblythin]

Reblog if you started worrying about your weight before you were fourteen.

[hellhealth]

it started at 9yrs old

[hellhealth]

bro, like if you eat in your room and have a trash can in there, don't throw your food away, atleast the fresh food it'll rot and smell before you can takeout the trash,

i have found out that seeds,peanut butter, and the occasional liquid (make sure its not to much) will not smell if u throw it away.

"thought i would point it out 🥺👉👈"

[hellhealth]

please rb if you have a love hate relationship with peanut butter 🥺

i need to know who my people are 🥜

[hellhealth]

carbonated drinks carbonated drinks carbonated drinks carbonated drinks carbonated drinks carbonated drinks carbonated drinks carbonated drinks carbonated drinks carbonated drinks

i love them

[hellhealth]

it's never going to end, is it...

[hellhealth]

If i just had the self control to not eat chocolate i would be so thin

👀💦 like fr-

[hellhealth]

Im an artist.

i just carefully constructed my dinner dishes, so that when my mom comes home i would have "already eaten" :)

[hellhealth]

Jesus christ

Emma Chamberlian is literally the best thinspo for me like Ahhhahhscofkenfnckdosldn

She's so pretty and all of her friends are so pretty and its just perfect like omg 🥺🤍 (im adding some thinspo 💗)

[symphonicseauxl]

People look so different once you don’t care about them anymore

[hellhealth]

period.

[hellhealth]

I literally can't wait till i can drive and have a car i will just avoid all family meals like "oh yeah mom im going out with [insert random name] so i wont be back till 9 and im eating dinner w/her"

or I come home and grab a diet coke after school and then i go to my job and dont get back till whenever and i just tell my mom that my manager brings dinner for all of us!

god im so excited lmao. plus ill be making all of this money for clothes and nails and makeup 💫 and other non food items

[ana420lilbabyjayyy]

i want brandy melville to hang off me like an xxl.

[hellhealth]

Please 🤡

[hellhealth]

What keeps me going 🍃

Knowing 9yr old me drank that large shake with no regrets and how stupid i was

Knowing that just a few more weeks and i can go back. hopefully...

Knowing that when i get older and get a job i'll be able to wear cute clothes 💫

My dad still has his horrible eating habits and i dont anymore

Knowing my dad was my majority enabler with all the shakes and cinnamon rollls

Knowing my dad fed me when i went hours w/out eating and i was playing video games . When in reality i was fasting and i could've been skinny... but he kept feeding me

Knowing that im at blame and its not my dad

Now im in control... right?

Want more? comment. theres like 130 of y'all now and i want to relate 🤍

[hellhealth]

Theres like two forms of hungry me.

1 - My stomach hurts but i have no will to eat/ my brain isn't making me feel hungry

2 - Then theres the im not very hungry but i could stomach a whole cow and then u binge....