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Only texts in here. Anything I can’t say out loud.

[hellojoycie]

I'm lost.

Again. Why is it always like this?

I'm drowning.

Already drained.

Empty. I have nothing left to share.

I'm exhausted.

[hellojoycie]

I’m not sorry because you were disappointed. I’m sorry for myself, for hoping.

I promised to support you, but I was failed by you and by the system I trusted.

Please don’t blame me. I trusted sincerely, and losing that trust hurts deeply.

This is goodbye.

[hellojoycie]

I lost, but it it was a peaceful surrender because I know that at least i tried.

Some things are simply not meant to happen, and that's okay.

It was a battle well fought.

Rest now, Self. You have done enough.

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Melissa Cox

[hellojoycie]

I'm protecting my peace by ignoring you. You don't have to understand.

[hellojoycie]

Eto na naman. Lord, is this Your way of saying it’s truly over?

Parang ang sakit. Yet should I simply be thankful? Not grieve its ending, but treasure that it once was? And accept that this is a gift, not a destiny?

Then, please po, remove this desire from my heart.

[hellojoycie]

I'm sad, but well, that's life. Back to normal, A.

[hellojoycie]

Seriously looking for a way out.

[hellojoycie]

I wish I'm in Japan right now. Wisteria 💜

[hellojoycie]

MY PICKS:

The first one I fell in love with: The Lord of the Rings

Too painful to watch again: Grave of the Fireflies

Heartbreaking, yet worth revisiting: Guardian: The Lonely and Great God

Wished it had never ended, but now I realize it was for the best: How I Met Your Mother

The one that deserved a longer run time: Sherlock Holmes

Feels like a healing touch: Les Miserables

If only I could experience it for the first time again: 3 Idiots

Something I would rewatch endlessly: Eternal Love: Ten Miles of Peach Blossoms.

The one I love but know had to end: Naruto and Harry Potter (I can’t choose just one)

Shattered me when it ended, leaving me wishing it lasted forever: Reply 1988

[hellojoycie]

Most of the time I doubt myself. And yes, there is a valid reason for all those doubts. I'm not good enough.

I'm in this position because there are no other options.

[hellojoycie]

The Last of the Sea Women is a good, worthy watch. I have learned and understood where they are coming from. But, for me, this is an example of misinformation, politicizing and engaging people through emotional blackmail.

I am not invalidating the words of these women. They have beliefs and cultures shaped by decades of experience. They are one of the strongest out there. However, It felt like there are people behind the scenes, those who supposedly knew better, working to instigate chaos out of this and gain profit for themselves.

There are always two sides to a coin.

I do not represent anyone. My views are solely mine alone.

[hellojoycie]

POV: When things are out of control, human nature tends to leave it out to a higher being. It's a way to comfort ourselves that whatever is happening cannot be changed despite further effort. This will bring us peace.

random thoughts on a rainy day.

[hellojoycie]

Starting something new today and cleaning up some space for other purpose!

Trying to find that “calling", after all. I'm starting all over again.

[lipikkawrites]

If life can remove people you never dreamt of losing, it can replace them with someone you never dreamt of having.

-@lipikkawrites

[hellojoycie]

Yes, I deserve whatever is happening to me right now.

[hellojoycie]

I’m drowning in tasks undone.

What should I do when I’m this overwhelmed? Can’t even escape from this situation. I want to start with it and be done, but I can’t seem to find motivation in going on.